HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIREN!(:
15 years old le,
cannot act like a kid at home le (:

sadly my brother's birthday
proved to be an all time low
when your defences are down,
and your source of strength quits
and all the arrows seem to head at you
and dodging them all is just too hard,
what do you do?

i did not pursue it,
'cause i know it is in your nature
to be so malicious and tactless in your words.
i had no energy and you're not worth it
i've always known that you're like that,
but i thought maybe you've changed.
i guess not.
well, guess what,
the words did hurt
but you dun mean much to me,
so i shan't waste my emotions on you.

i didn't get into editorial.
i got blog bitched.
i screwed up both the tests today.
i miss you but you have someone else
i feel unwell but dare not fall sick
i know this sounds narcissistic,
but i need out.

baby,
i really need you,
i always did.
but more so now den ever.
can you just give me a day back in your arms?):