hmm..what's there to blog?
ah yes, TEACHER'S DAY AND HIKE(:
teacher's day first.
it was a good and bad day
the celebrations in cjc was a total disaster
the sound system was conked!
the bass guitar became the loudest instrument.
joke of the century man.
good thing i played okay(:

after that, went back with the cjcian ex cgss ppl
got back there rather early.
watched the perf and it was better den cjc's!
haha. anyway saw quite a few juniors tt i missed,
especially yuky, estee and the other el juniors
and i finally saw my beloved 4I ppl!(:
LOVES!
anyway, it's snap snap flash time
after that went with fbud, farhana, vithiiya, anoosha and one more person
to vivo. but i went there to meet my 2 queens!(:
and one basket.
had lunch, walked a little den went home le.
took an hour long bus ride with tt nut.
haha, got home, showered and out to dbs!
packed dinner and happily ate during dbs.
as usual, it ended at 10plus.
i love dbs! so fun. haha

saturday nothing much,
just family dinner, daddy's treat
paid a bomb to eat boots.
haha.after tt so full i felt like i ate a cow,
not just steak.

today was the PLH SOUTHERN RIDGES HIKE!
me and david two-man show today.
haha the whole group not here.
in the end we don't care grouping le
anyhow walk.
was mostly with esther, kym, foong and nut.
the 3 boys did a really cool thing today!
haha. and guess what,
david and i named our group team prudential!
haha cause his umbrella was prudential one.
lame not? haha.
i conclude that the southern ridges route is a very pretty place
after tt had senior group (which only has 5 ppl) lunch at banquet,
shopped at candy empire and it was back to church!
after tt had missions training,
which was quite fun cause had game and video.
the game should so be brought into PLH, haha.
and the video was gruesome at some parts.

oh well, enough for today.
that's the end of the mundane update!(:
bye!
I LOVE YOU!and you and you<3

when the sky's overcast,
and the rain starts to fall,
accompanied by the roll of thunder,
bet me.

when the journey's too long,
and the sun beats down on your back,
and you're just too tired to press on,
bet me.

when you've lost the fight,
and you remove your crimson gear,
despondent, in need of someone to cheer,
bet me.

when the sky falls on us,
i'll be there to hold it up.
when the sun loses its heat,
i'll be there to fan the flame,
to keep you warm.

all this i do,
not for anything else,
but for the one simple reason.
you.

TODAY WAS MY SISTER'S CONCERT(:
oh my, the kids were so cute and their voices were angelic la!
reminds me of what jv used to be,
long long ago, when i was in pri 5 i think.
i miss those times(:
but anyway, the taipei choir was quite disappointing.
but my sis say they were off standard
so maybe they scared bah, den under-perform.
nan hua pri's choir is darn good!(:
okay enough nonsense from me.
some over due photos and camwhore pics with my sis.

ohmygosh.
this song is painfully beautiful(:

What Hurts The Most
-Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the mostIs being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have beenAnd not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJEs1TyzL_A
super heartwrenching vid. nearly cried watching it.
but it's one of the nicest ever(:

so much to say,
but yet too little words.
so much to feel,
but yet too little emotions.
so much to do,
but yet too little energy.
and when the time comes,
all i can say is,
i'm just a little too late.

what do you say when people tear you down?
what do you do when you know your guard's down?
what do you feel when you know you're spiralling down,
when it's all back to the free fall all over again?
maybe sometimes, you just don't.
you let yourself live in the if onlys,
'cause you were too afraid to lose again.

wow! i realise that my blog has a high stagnation potential.
haha, i should probably just go on hiatus soon.
anyway, i shall make this official.
I HAD A BET WITH MAG THAT I WON'T DATE BEFORE UNI
or at least until end of J2.
stake: $200 meal(:
mag, start saving up man,
i am so getting that treat from you(:

anyway, didn't go to school today.
something amusing happened this morning.
apparently i was sleep-replying my maid.

ATUN: yiying wake up
ME: don't count
ATUN: huh? eh yiying wake up
ME: haven't finish
ATUN: eh, what you talking? yiying wake up.
ME: (semi-conscious) don't want
ATUN: eh, late already. wake up!
ME: (still semi-conscious) nevermind.

oh goodness.when she told me about it
she laughed so hard that i laughed right along.
what a poke i am.haha.

and today, i went to see doctor.
cause fell during pe on thursday
fell knee first and aggravated old injury
and i was so annoyed with the doctor,
i can't wait to get out of his office.
went to the poly clinic

DOC: where were you just now?
ME: i was at home, my maid come and take number for me first
(was abt to say i was working on a project and showered first,
so to save time, common practice is my maid help me get a number first)
DOC: how can you bully your maid like this!you cannot anyhow bully people you understand.
ME: *stunned* er ya okay.
DOC: horrible you know you. okay what's wrong with you
ME: erm, knee pain
DOC: really? i saw you running in just now
(i was limping in so i dunno which eye he had saw me run in)
ME: huh? no what i didn't run in
DOC: -eyes me suspiciously- is it?nevermind. how come like this?
ME: *explains whole story*
DOC: *bend my leg* like this can?
ME: ya abit pain but can.
DOC: okay. you schooling? which school?
ME: erm ya. catholic junior college
DOC: CJC? should be easy right. first year somemore. next time don't skip school for stupid reasons like this, i don't want to write you mc, but no choice right.
ME: *tries not to explode in his face*ya okay.

ohmygosh.what is wrong with this doctor la
he got dumped by his girlfriend is it.
scold me somemore.
since when doctors have right to scold patients la
obnoxious arshlock.
he ought to be poked or smthg.
spoil my day.

oh well,
i guess life's like that.
okay. i think i've ranted enough for today.
goodbye folks! <3

This poem has got to be,
one of the most beautiful poem i've read.

If a picture paints a thousand words,
then why can't I paint you?
The words would never show,
the you I've come to know...


If a face could launch a thousand ships,
then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me to...


And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me...


If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you,
tomorrow and today,
beside you all the way...


If the world should stop revolving,
Spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you
when the world was through...


Then one by one
the stars would all go out...
Then you and Iwould simply fly away!

THANKS GUYS FOR THE PRESENTS TODAY(:
PLH IS THE LOVE! <3>

especially ben for the chocolates(:
that was a pleasant surprise.



let's start from saturday's youth comm outing!
it was great fun! just bowling and dinner and talking.
i was third for the first game and dropped to last in the second game
haha.lost concentration due to certain reasons.
it's been ages since i last played bowling
and now, i'm addicted to bowling again! ahhh...not good.
after that we had dinner at KFC.
joke of the day!(:
tim: i keep losing weight every year
izack: huh?!then how heavy were you when you were a baby?
oh goodness.at that pt of time i laughed like there was no tml,
wonder why.haha.
after that went to my house's function room to slack arnd.
angie was doing some weird flip flip thg
haha so funny!she got stuck mid-flip initially.
but it looked scarily fun.haha
played cards
ate
listened to them play with my guitars
ate somemore
watched olympics
ate even more
WHAT A PIG RIGHT!haha.
after that angie had to go and sam not long after):
i walked angie to the bus stop
and my mum walked sam to the mrt station.
after that was....
SLEEPOVER!
i was like the only girl can!but nevermind.
it was fun!
izack bullied me!he hitted me.haha
and we all sat tgd to watch this not too bad chinese show
never really had this before(:

next day we woke up at 5.45!
aren't we disciplined nice kids?haha.
took turns to shower and attempt to wake my bro up
IZACK YOU SICK NONSENSE FELLOW!
HOW DID YOU WAKE ME BRO UP?!
MY EYES...GONE.haha
anyway after that we did morning devotion and
it was off to macdonalds for breakfast!(:
and guess what!
izack and weile drank syrup!
as in like stick the straw in the syrup and drink
ohmygosh la.i nearly died.
and izack started using a straw to prod my bro's ****
izack ah!!haha.tsk.
den it was off to church(:

AND I'M PROUD OF S'PORE!
TABLETENNIS SILVER MAN BABY(:
S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E!

to my 2queens!
thanks babes!
you have no idea how much your support meant to me
at least it pulled me through the day(:
love you both!

to you.
get out of my life already.
yesterday i felt like my blindfolds were removed
and everythg fell into perspective.
i've suspected but i've trusted
now you've wasted my tears again.
go away.
please

HELLO ELOIs!
haha okay, only lit students of cjc will understand that.
anyway,
THANK YOU ERICA AND IZACK
AND NICOLE AND KRIF
FOR THE PRESENTS YESTERDAY(:
haha.it's thanks to people like these that my day was nice(:
yesterday was just like any normal day,
haha didn't feel like it was my birthday.
other than the one-after-the-other happy birthdays during hockey.
thanks babes(:

i don't know why i have a sudden random urge to do this
but i shall now dedicate part of my post to people
although i have my testimony to chiong.haha.

FBUDDY(:
hey dearie (i can practically see you cringing here)
thanks for everything.
although this year was rocky
and i made a major mistake, you are still here for me.
thanks alot.really.
you've been one of my stronger pillar of supports
ever since sec3, THE year everything came crashing down.
thank you for the shoulder to cry on, the listening ear,
the constant patience towards my annoying ways
and knowing that i can always count on you to be there for me to lean on.
THANK YOU FBUDDY!
I LOVE YOU(: and cheer up! <3

DARYL
hey dearie! my guy bestie.
although i only got to know you this year,
and though you annoy the shit out of me sometimes
(especially these days over YOUKNOWWHAT.)
but you can be really sweet and i appreciate that
i appreciate you asking if i'm okay,
i appreciate you nagging at me sometimes,
i appreciate the effort you make in making me happy (esp recently)
i appreciate even the fact that you bug me in class over retarded reasons.
'cause despite everything
I LOVE YOU (:
AND I'M GRATEFUL YOU ENTERED MY LIFE(:

JORAIN
hello dearie!
although i know you most likely won't read my blog,
i still wanna say to you here
thank you for listening to me in the mornings
thank you for helping me out with my work
thank you for letting me rant during chinese
just..THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
LOVE YOU!(:

OSMAN
hello dearie, my wonderful lover(HAHA)
you're one of the closer ones from 1t07 PAE to me,
and i'm grateful that you are in my class.
after all the shit we've been through together,
being stuck in the same situation on many counts.
thanks for all the little things you've done for me
like just ranting together during chinese,
helping me decide what to do for same issues
and running with me just to pace me and pass my 2.4
for all these and more,
i wannd THANK YOU
and just say,
I LOVE YOU (if dode was here, she would have added the word paki behindhaha)

AGGY
hey dearest!
though we don't have many chances to really talk
but thanks for being a great listening ear during those few time we have
i hope things get better for you
cause i wouldn't want to see you sad.
you're one of the nicest and greatest people i've met in cjc.
I LOVE YOU!(: *blows kisses*

DODE
hey! (if i add dearie or dearest you'll freak i know)
i only started to get to know you better recently
and i realised that you're a really cool person to hang out with
i love your comics written during lit lect,
i love your funny comebacks esp to leon,
and i love your TIRAMISU(:
you should so totally be a full time cook
anyway,
thanks for showing up on monday!
thanks for the nice songs you intro-ed to me and sent
and thanks for the other small thgs you've done for me
I LOVE YOU TOO!(pls dun cringe at this too!haha)

to the rest of 1t05, esp
JU-LI-AN(:
EGO GERALD
JACK 2
NICHOLAS we-eeellllll
MAGGY
thanks for all the memories that we have
be it just random comments made in class,
lending me your racket to hug in class,
eatig popiah with me
or holding my whole head with your hand,
THANK YOU ALL FOR THAT.(:
love you all.

HRH ERICA
hello gorgeous!
haha it's been ages since i said that
although i only knew you for like..3 months?
it feels like i've known you forever
though you always suan me,
i know you dun mean it, self entertain only. (haha)
thank you for being there when i was down,
thank you for letting me rant at you,
thank you for the morning bus rides
thank you for the late night calls
thank you for every little thing you did for me
and lastly,
thank you for the present!(:
it was seriously darn sweet and i know you put in quite alot of time and effort
thanks babe!
and,
I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP<3

JESSICA SNAIL QUEEN
hello dearie
though i only got to know you for a month or so only
thanks for everything.
from helping me smack erica
to listening to my nonsense online
haha. go out soon again kay?
LOVE YOU!(:

MY ANGEL; TIM(:
hello angel!
thank for many many things.
you've done so much for me i don't know where to start.
thank you for the support you've given to me
thank for cheering me up when i'm down
thank you for humouring me in my moments of highness
thank you for listening to everything, big or small
thank you for understanding me, even when i'm unreasonable
thank you for being my angel, catching me when i fall.
i thank you for all this and more.
hope life remains nice and good to you(:
I LOVE YOU! <3

and here's a shout out to plh-ers, esp
HANNAH
for being one of the best childhood friends anyone can ask for
who walked with me through my life
from sunday school till now.
IZACK
for being another one of the best childhood friends i can ask for,
who somehow always end up in a school near me or same as me,
and previously same group and class for camps,
and shared so many nonsensical experiences as well as enriching ones together.
DAVID AND JON
for being great childhood friends who disappeared for a few years.
who i used to play with in sunday school and
giving me alot of funny memories of you guys.
MARIE
for all being a wonderful friend.
all the times we went out and jsut talked
like the time where we just sat on the steps of dhobyghaut mrt
or the time you stayed at my house late cause of the worship ppt
MICHELLE
for being a great friend.
for the time you listened to me rant to you online about the issue,
the time in bbc and all for the concern shown
and the fun times we have
KYM
i only just got to know you better after church camp
i rmb i used to thought you hated me, haha.
thanks for all the fun and memories we have
ESTHER, BECKY AND ANGIE
i used to classify you all as the small people noisy clique of plh
but you guys are fun to be with and talk to and all
i'm glad i got to know you all better
GRACE FOONG
typical!when are you gonna come regularly ah?
must try okay? we all miss you when you dun turn up!

to all you guys,
I LOVE YOU ALL!<3
without you guys i guess my life will not be even remotely the same.
you guys are the rainbow in my life(:
(cliched i know, but tt's the only way i can express it)
GOD BLESS YOU AND YOU AND YOU!(:

I SAVED MY FIRST 2 GOALS TODAY!(:
YAY YAY YAY
but i also let in my first two goals.
and got hit on the same spot 2 times.
haha what a wonderfully 2-ish day i have
hockey makes me smile(:

tomorrow my dear boyboy coming to cj!(:
i missed him loads man.
can't wait! <3

there are many things i wanna say
just so you would know how i feel.
but everything i'll hold myself back
before i say something wrong, untractable
and lose what i already have
i've been through it once
and i dun ever want it again.
but whatever it is,
i just want to say,
it's you tt i want.not anyone else.

SISTER POWER(:

combine birthday pressie for our beloved maid, ATUN(:

me and my mummy(:

GIRL POWER!(:

haha, birthdays are such good camwhoring excuses.

US AGAIN(:

me yitian grandma and atun<3 href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_WB_u3GsV0hA/SKBIiQBMY7I/AAAAAAAAATM/jWQEUMZ2k1k/s1600-h/IMG_0764.JPG"> haha this so look like an award presentation cremony.

OSMAN DARYL AND ME(:

the three sunnies camwhorers of t05

aggy, dode, ossie, daryl and me(:

too bad weekie and jorain left early):



US again(:

WOW!

it's been like 685432841294835093253 lightyears since i last blogged

so much have happened since.

let's see. i shall just go through the highlights.

010808, DBS started(:

haha it was so fun can.

uncle alex and uncle nick as mentors(:

070808, met HRH and J at island creamery(:

080808, NATIONAL DAY EVE!

fun(: after school,

went to j8 with yati, banu and nicholas.

after tt met HRH and J until about 5plus?

haha crapped like super alot at the library.

and saw a super cute kid!

with nice natural spikes.haha but is a girlgirl.

after that had dinner with izack

and we went for DBS!(:

a meaningfully interesting session.

all of us took the NEL home after tt.

so cool right! all of us were NEL-ers.

haha.

090808, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

was slightly no life that day.

mugged must of the day away.

den slacked the night away(:

and of course played cards with my sis

and saw my hot guys on tv!

100808, SUNDAY

had our first ever missions training

and after tt met fbuddy for dinner!(:

so fun.it's been ages since we last went out

haha.really missed that.

after that went home and watched hockey olympics!

watched 21 as well.

110808, MINDS CAFE OUTING!(:

today was like an advanced birthday celebration

photos on top as you can see.

oh my.how absolutely embarassin it was today

haha. birthday pressie and birthday dare.

but i must admit i looked retarded on the video

with the blindfold on, how am i suppose to know it was not a worm but was a handphone strap right.

and how was i to know tt it was only a TOY lizard.

and the doggie food really did smell foul.

and all those weird concoctions. BOY, scary.

haha but the present was great.

THANKS GUYS!(:

A MIGHTY BIG THANK YOU TO

AGGY

DODE

DARYL

JORAIN

OSMAN

and the birthday dare!

gosh, how absolutely throw faceyfied indeed

going to every table to say

"HEY IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!"

AND SING MYSELF A BIRTHDAY SONG

just for a glass of wonderfully nice on the house special drink.

haha.

but oh well.all in the name of fun(:

and you still don't know that i'm not over you.you'll never know.

IN CONCLUSION...

this month has been great so far

and i am so not gonna let it be destroyed

happiness is not gonna be ripped away

cause i'm holding it tight(:

and before i sign off,

i just wanna holler to you guys,

THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING THE ONES.

I'M SURE YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

LOVE YOU DEARIES.

WITHOUT YOU GUYS, I WON'T BE THUS.

<3

haha omg
this is a very obsessable song indeed
haha totally hooked onto it now
it's old but it's really nice(:

If I let You go
Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ...
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Night after night
I hear myself sayin´
Why can´t this feeling just fade away?
There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It´s such a shame we´re worlds apart ...
I´m too shy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out