ITS THE LAST DAY OF 2008!
this year passed really quickly.
it has been an eventful year,
further proven when i read through my blog posts.
in the past 364days,
i've had my heart broken,
i've broken hearts,
i've been hurt and have hurt,
i've been overloaded and supported.

this year started with an overly enthu me,
all high about the school and my cca.
now, it is a totally different tune.
i've seen how pretentious the people can be,
and how demanding my cca can be.
but these have helped me see who truly cared.
i wanna give a holla of THANKS to
FBUD!
MAG!
TIM!
ERICA!
JESSICA!
FOONG!
KYM!
SHARILYN!
HANNAH!
IZACK!
MARIE!
MICHELLE.C!
especially as they are truly the ones(:

reading back,
there are 2 poems that i wrote that i wanna re-post
the first poem:

In the silver beam of the night,
you saw joy in my eye.
But, without the aid of the light,
I managed to mask a lie.

I gave up myself,
to morph into your dream.
I'm now just an elf,
hiding behind deception's screen.

I oft so longed to ask,
if you saw me as who I am,
'cause with each new dusk,
I check into your fantastical camp.

I know this was borne of love,
but I know not how much I can take.
I long for the freedom of a dove,
so do you think this ground can be raked?

this poem was and still is till date,
the best reflection of my innermost cry
i know this is the reason of my resentment
the reason for the implosions and build ups.
but i can't bring myself to let the past all go.
you've apologised and i've forgiven,
but yet i cannot erase the years of tears.
i'm sorry.
give me time, i'm still trying.

the second poem:

I've tried to relight the flame,
and you, I've never placed blame.
But my heart feared a relapse,
and pain resides in my synapse.

Apologies have been made enough,
and forgiveness embraced the wrongs.
Now, I can bring myself to laugh,
and experience with love, the warmth.

You have stretched me like a tightrope,
with your stress-imposing hope.
I hope that you can see in time,
that love lost is not a crime.

So now again, i bid you well,
until you can handle this letdown.
I'm sure this is not farewell,
just for you to remove that frown.

this poem was written for a broken relationship,
but reading it through again,
i realised it can mean more than just that.
a few lines strike me at different velocity and corners,
but i'll deal with it when the time arrives.

every year is like a book.
some are tattered and torn,
worn with time and pain.
but others are in near perfect condition.
this year, my book is of neither condition,
but rather of both.
now that it's over,
tonight at twelve i close the last chapter,
and endorse on the pages the end.
i'll put this book in the library of my memory,
the technology that never fails,
and catalogues my life automatically.
but i know it'll never collect dust,
cause the love and warmth of this book,
is carried forth to my next(:

so,
FAREWELL 2008!
you've taught me well,
and whipped me into shape.
& now its time you rest,
to welcome in 2009!(:

QUIZ!(: tagged by kym and erica<3

1)What is your full name?
Jael Lai YiYing

2)Do you like your name?
erm..not really.

3)How long have you like the person you currently like?
i don't LIKE anyone.

4) Have you kissed anyone before?
yup.

5)What are you doing at 8am this morning?
woke up realising i am not feeling well, text krif that i'm not well.

6)What were you doing an hour ago?
getting my new phone!(:

7) What are you currently doing?
talking rubbish with my bro, doing this quiz and freezing in my room(:

8)Who was the last to text you?
erica i think(:

9)Have you told anyone you love them today?
yup(:

10)Are you missing anyone right now?
uhuh.(:

11)Name someone whose name starts with Z.
zhiyun

12)Which friend of yours stays near you?
define near(: if its sengkang, alot.if it is within ten mins of train/bus journey, alot alot.(:

13)Do you prefer to call or sms?
depends.

14)Can you live a day without your television or handphone?
television - a week also can
handphone - definitely not!(:

15)Do you hate anyone now?
nope!(:

16)Are you mad about anything right now?
hmmm...i was a few hours ago.

17)Who do you text the most this month?
erica,tim,foong,kym.

18)Who is the last person you talk to?
my brother?(: he's just right beside me being high and singing heaven is a place on earth -.-
gay not?haha.

19) Tag 10 people to do this quiz.
FBUD.MAG.RAIN.DODE.DARYL.IZACK.MARIE.MICHELLE C.TIM.CHRIS.

HELLO WORLD(:
i'm here to revive my dying blog with this quiz
maggy tagged me so i decided to be nice and do(:
mag appreciate this, i still have worship ppt to do.
haha(:

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
1) for you to love me the way you used to(:
2) to be able to be with you FOREVER(:
3) for everyone i know to be happy!(:

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
OH MY!(: you mean you wonder if you're real too before?
GREAT!(: i'm not the only one.

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
sorta.but with GOD and YOU by my side i dun think i need to fear(:

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
yup!i would fly to pluto and back even, if YOU want me to.

Q: Do you believe in Love?
DUH(: i am so deeply submerged in it how can i not believe it?

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
as long as it takes.(: i won't let it die off after 8days.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
yup.but thats life ain't it?

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
yup!alot more less time, but even now i still do.

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
YAH!it really sucks.especially when you're trying to do your paper in exams.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
(: if you are important to me, you should know who you are.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
yup(:

Q:Are you happy with your life?
haha, good enough i guess(: at least i have YOU to make life seem alright(:

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
yup!if not whats the point in committing to it?

Q: What type of friends do you like?
the ones who can stand the real me(: the ones who are there when i need them.
the onees i have now(:

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
don't we all?(:

Q: Which is your favourite body part of the opposite gender?
hmm...ever since i met you, LIPS(:

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
i'd be upset and try to find out why it is done.but i'd never stop loving YOU.


had our match against ajc today.
although we lost on the scoreboard,
we have won in spirit.
this is one of the best game we've played
and i believe we can improve together as a team(:
WE CAN DO IT!
and fyi, you need not have yelled at me.
it was my first time fully padded as a goalie
the fact that i could adapt to it was already good.
if you think it is that easy why dun you try?

'change is the only constant'
that was what miss susan leong once said 2 yrs ago.
i always knew it was true,
but only recently i felt the possible hurts it can cause.
i don't blame you for letting it fade,
in fact, i know it is my fault.
but i hope i can bring it back,
i'll try and do all that i can.
baby, please don't give up kay?

TOMORROW IS PLH EOY CAMP!
NO HOLDS BARRED!
WHEE(:
its sorta gonna be the p6 induction to plh too.
can't wait!(:

ikea shopping yesterday was fun(:
and so was seoul garden lunch with
mag,rain,fbud and ossy.
and yes osman!seould is not soul!
haha.funny la you(:

OH!
before i sign off today,
a special thank you for swang,
who taught me how to goal keep better(:

ALRIGHT!
GOODBYE EARTH.
TILL WE MEET AGAIN!<3

I LOVE THIS SONG!
IT IS POSITIVELY CUTE(:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GwX-IuACEc

STUCK ON YOU
ELVIS PRESLEY<3

You can shake an apple off an apple tree
Shake-a, shake- sugar,
But you'll never shake me
Uh-uh-uh
No-sir-ee, uh, uh
I'm gonna stick like glue,
Stick because I'm
Stuck on youYUP I AM!(:

Gonna run my fingers thru your long black hair i miss being able to play with your hair
Squeeze you tighter than a grizzly bear hug you tight tight and dun let go(:
Uh-uh-uh,
Yes-sir-ee, uh, uh
I'm gonna stick like glue
Stick, because I'm
Stuck on you

Hide in the kitchen, haha,baby please be smarter den that
hide in the hall and hide in better places kay?(:
Ain't gonna do you no good at all but no matter where you hide, still no use
'Cause once I catch ya and the kissin' starts
A team o' wild horses couldn't tear us apart hell ya(:

Gonna take a tiger from his daddy's side no need daddy's tiger la(:
That's how love is gonna keep us tied pure love is enough (:
Uh-uh-uh
Yes-sir-ee, uh,uh
I'm gonna stick like glue
Stick, because I'm
Stuck on you

Gonna take a tiger from his daddy's side
That's how love is gonna keep us tied
Uh-uh-uh
Yes-sir-ee, uh,uh
I'm gonna stick like glue, yeah, yeah
because I'm Stuck on you
I'm gonna stick like glue, yeah, yeah
because I'm Stuck on you yup, stuck on you.now and FOREVER.<3

finally posting the pics from taiwan trip!(:
too many things to say,
so i decided to let the pictures do the talking.
from the first day at the airport to the last day(:
DISCLAIMER!
if you can't stand my face please do not proceed,
if you so choose to,
prepare a paper bag beside you(:

don't ask why this spastic pose

haha,sudden urge to be retarded