MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!((:
yes i know its 26th but its the thought that counts ya?
for all those who are sad cause jesus's birthday is over,
look on the bright side((:
365 more days!!

yesterday after christmas service hang out in the library
with michelle marie hannah and grace
the guys were there too. and so was the sec1s plus zek
most of us were there to wait for 2 things
either joyful voices to be done performing
or to go to kara's party((:
(which i sadly could not go)
so the library was pretty noisy
imagine a room 2master bedrooms big,
with kids from joyful voices running around,
and 3 groups of plh-ers(youths) talking
and you will get how noisy it was.
anyway while waiting somehow the boys got bored,
so they had arm wrestling
the twins, izack, steve, zek, thed all played

after the jv are finally done,
my family with weile went to suntec!!((:
i watched alvin and the chipmunks for the second time.
i LOVE the show.
listening to the soundtracks now as i blog
(thanks zek for lending me the cd)
ate donuts for lunch.haha retarded la.
shopped for new clothes and stuff
i bought a new skirt
sis bought a new jacket(looks kinda lian i must add)
bro bought a new top and jeans and jacket(i chose all for him)
and my bro and weile both bought a new wallet.
same one.so cute((:
the front says sorry, no money inside
anyway after the shopping was movie and we went back

weile's family(excluding xing xing jie jie) was at my house
den my first uncle's family came too.
didn't do much, just talked a little with my cousins
can't wait for the movie marathon on the 30th!!
kudos to yan for organising it ya?((:

now i shall blog about...
the sleepover at hannah's house!!((:
marie michelle hannah grace huixian kara amanda e sean
the twins izack joeseph
hung out together after church for lunch
den marie huixian and i went to my house to get clothes and stuff
was at bukom the 2 days before tt you see((:
so i bathed and stuff alr den took mrt there again
oh my, something embarassing happened on the train
for details ask marie or huixian
so anyway we met the boys and kara at the jamming studio
played the drums for awhile den went out to talk
with the twins huixian and kara
den we went to hannah's house and had pizza dinner!
ate 2slices and was so full!
den we watched mi3 and small soldiers
after tt was mini bonding session!!
played russian roulette and ssm and mafia!
one by one by around 5am ppl started to get knocked out
last girls standing were hannah and i.8am((:
so we went to sleep and woke up at around 10plus to 11plus in the morning
den ate breakfast and continued playing mafia
got to see how ppl sleep, kinda interesting haha
den shaun and sharilyn came a little later and joined in the mafia game
we all left at around 2plus in the afternn
and marie and michelle came over to my place to hang out and left at 6plus

in short that was how my past few days were like((:
i love plh bonding sessions!!yeah!!((:
alright, MERRY BEATED CHRISTMAS ppl
and HAPPY BELATED 2007th BIRTHDAY JESUS!!((:

went to watch alvin and the chipmunks today((:
with daddy and my sis at suntec
i love the chipmunks!!
they are so cute la.
alvin,simon and theodore.
i so want the vcd((:

and i also bought stuff today!!
-ck and paul frank *ahem*...stuff
-2 halter *ahem*...stuff
-1 halter top
-1 ring
-2 pairs of earrings
-a shirt for my bro for christmas

i feel happy and accomplished.
for now.
haha.

last baptism class tomorrow
baptism on easter
baptism name : JAEL
meaning: ascend

things left to do:
-learn remaining chords for guitar
-learn and prac drums
-learn more french
-find a tennis coach

posted to cjc art((:
school starts on 2nd jan
i can't wait((:
school is fun fun fun!

back from BBC camp.
kudos to the youth comm.
thanks for all that you all have done for this camp!

"your name,
is a strong and mighty tower.
your name,
is a shelter like no other.
your name,
let the nations sing it louder.
cause nothing has the power to save,
but your name"

it is really a blessing that i have God,
and friends that really care in my life.
Thank you lord.
because i know for sure that without him and his blessing,
i would not have been able to get through this.
and my brother was so sweet.
he told me tt he got my back, cause he is my bro.

i remember during baptism class,
rev peter chan said that God send little nudges and whispers,
to push you in the right direction.
but if you don't hear them or refuse to hear those,
he'll eventually use the loudhailer.
i hope i register those little nudges,
and decide what to do
before God shouts at me.



i shall draw strength from God.
and ask for wisdom to o the right thing,
through prayer and petition.

check out this really old lift!manual door and all.cool eh?
i know i'm 16 but hey, i'm going through secondchildhood((:
that's us kids in the man-made hot spring((:

but where's the koreans and shaun?

daddy's girl pretty much huh?and my dao brother.
not tt dao anymore eh?sibling spasticity!

riding through the snow...
toy soldiers and toy blocks, english christmas no?
family love((:
check this car out.it's seriously a car!
snow fight!!

PLACES VISITED:

-BERN
-LUCERN
-MT. TITLIS
-INTERLAKEN
-ZERMATT
-VALAIS REGION
-GENEVA
-CHAMPAGNE(NE OF FRANCE)
-PARIS
-LONDON






ITEMS BOUGHT:
-swiss watch
-nike slip-in shoes
-swiss chocolate!
-macbeth quotes on badge
-othello,twelveth night, merchant of venice dvds




HIGHLIGHT OF THE TRIP:
-mt titlis

-jungfraung

-hot spring

-eiffel tower

-london eye

-madam tussaude's wax musuem

-shakepeare's globe

oh my gosh.

the trip was so fun i don't know where to start.

but there was only kids younger den me around

there was a korean sec 4 girl but she didn't socialise much with us

so i was pretty much hanging around with primary sch kids

but oh well they were a pretty fun bunch so it was okay

and tammyis sooooooo cute okay!

haha i miss her laughter already.

the only thing tt was bad was the food.

either it taste good but the price was bad or both were bad.

well in short the europe trip was a blast.

and i'm sure nobody wants a 12day report on my trip

so i shall spare everyone the agony.

haha.((:

HEEEEEEEELLO SINGAPORE((:
it's so good to be back here
don't get me wrong,
europe was lovely but there's no place better den home right?((:
i bought back swiss chocolates for you guys((:
and marie i bought lollipops for you!((:
special lollipops
it's really big with bubblegum inside and another one from switzerland
i'll blog more about it later
for now i shall go nap((:
jetlag la.you know how troublesome it is.

joe jonas and his youngest bro
jonas brothers and the bear!
the jonas brothers((:
tha jonas brothers on hannah montana((:

THE JONAS BROTHERS ARE NOW MY WALLPAPER!

they are meltably cute.

nicole was right((:

i agree with you nicole!!

okay this is oh so belated la!!
the WL family outing at bukom((:
it was oh so fun!!((:
i love the WL family la.
what can i say((:

today was fun((:

we went to novotel for lunch!!

mummy's treat.

okay actually it was brooke's class otuing

me,marie and michelle kinda crashed it

but hey!we're alumni!!((:

i feel accomplished((:
not because o levels are over
not because i finally am having a real holiday
but because i've finally did it.
i've resolved differences
and patched up with everyone i feel out with in the past 4years.
i told everyone the truth that they need to know.
well sort of.
if talking counts as patch up.

"I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the sign.
I know that it's out there,
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
not somebody just to get me through the night.
I could use some direction,
and I'm open to your suggestion."

-music and lyrics;movie


MY HOLIDAY!!((:
tommorw: hannah coming for sleepover, dbs
sat: band prac for sun
sun:church((:
next week onwards:
26nov-7dec: EUROPE!!((:
11-14dec& 19-21dec: baptism classes
14-16dec:plh camp!

things to do:
-find a tennis coach so i can learn tennis
-join plh band and learn drums((:

P.S:ANYBODY KNOWS ANY TENNIS COACH CALL ME AND TELL ME((:

life can be so good and filling when you want it to be isn't it?((:

prom is OVER!!)):
but nevermind,
anyone from 4I want to have a class christmas party?((:
i'll miss you guys.
it just feels...empty you know?
no more nice massages from marli,
no more highness from sus and abby,
no more massage demands from zhiyun,
no more going to school with lichu aka twin,
no more whinings of nicole,
no more translating fro xiaoxue,
no more potato teasing for thendral,
no more giving of sugar donuts to vithiiya,
and all those daily small details that colours sec4 life.

this is it people!
phenomenal class'07,
THIS IS IT!((:
we're moving on to the next phrase of our lives,
PRE-U!

on a lighter note,
i'm learning tennis really soon!!((:
can't wait.
mummy got the contact number of the coach alr.
i'm finally doing something about my fitness level and weight.
prom photos on facebook!!((:
go there and see if you want.
all those whome i have to send photos to,
tell me online!!((:

boo!!((:
all the papers are down for me except..
physics mcq!!((:
i'm grounded but my holidays are still gonna be a blast

13-15 nov: CLASS CHALET!!((:
16nov: school(jc admission nonsense)
17nov: PROM!!((:
(tentative sleepover with twinnie?)
26nov-7dec: EUROPE!!((:
(orders for switzerland chocolates please place in advance)
11-14 dec: baptism class
14-16 dec: PLH CAMP!!((:
19-21 dec: baptism class

unconfirmed:
-tennis classes!
-more sleepovers at my house
-movie marathons at my house
-family chalet((:

see!
with a holiday this nice who has time to mope about being grounded?
but if anyone of you wanna crash my house
please do((:
i'll be awfully bored
btw, geranium ppl,
geranium outing anyone?((:
and pru outing still on?((:

vcd rentals shall be my constant grounding kakis((:
i love life((:

now its the last stretch for o levels
a few more days to total freedom from textbooks
all the best to all you o level
warriors out there!((:


i've screwed up again
when will i ever learn?oh well..only time will time.





but the fact that i love you does not change
6years is not long in the eyes of true love
don't you think?
i'll wait.

One last look,
one last cry,
one last attempt
to capture those memories.

the day of graduation ceremony
i walked around the fourth level to take photos
i looked into our classroom,THE classroom
where we sang birthday songs,
practised oac campfire item,
choreographed the "accidentally in love" dance
cried over our results,
rejoiced over achievements
and saw the emptiness in the classroom without us.
4IGNITE'o7
thank you for the memories((:


graduating means one thing.
o levels are near.
we panic, we mug, we cram
to get that 6points
to do ourselves justice and the school proud.
nobody is an exception.
occasional breaks warrants guilt
but somehow,
equally as important to me,
is to patch the holes i made.
friendships gone wrong,
mistakes that i made
and hearts i broke.
looking back, the list seems long,
doing it will take my all,
but try i will, until i've been slammed in the face.





i'm not giving up.
no matter how many times you push me away.
until you tell me for sure
that you want no memories of our friendship
and me out of your life.

"though its the hardest thing to say

i'll miss your love in everyway

so say goodbye

but don't you cry

cause true love never dies"

-cgss grad song'07

"say goodbye";s club 7

in secondary one,

we were new, afraid of the future

like the smoke particles in the Brownian motion expt,

knocked and directed by anything thing that hits us.

in secondary two,

we became more confident, no longer new,

having one year of experience,

and juniors below us in the chain.

in secondary three,

we were once again thrown into a new class,

new faces that are fresh but yet familiar.

it was the year of lifelong friendships and bonds

this year, we are secondary four,

the top of the chain with 3 years of juniors below us.

the year of tears,joy,anger and stress.

that was us last year, 3Ignite, new to our classmates but familiar superficially.

now, we matured to graduates of cgss'07,

with years of blood,tears and joy behind us

"i'll be there when the world stops turning

i'll be there when the storm is through,

in the end i wanna be standing,

at the beginning with you."

today was grad.
too overwhelmed to blog.
update tomorrow((:

"life is like a shadow,
a player who struts and frets his hour
upon the stage"
-from MACBETH;shakespeare,my fav dead man

i have everything i can ever ask for now
i have everything i need

LOVE
BEST FRIEND
TRUE FRIENDS
DETERMINATION
AIM
&memories

i am suppose to be grateful,
and to a large extent i am.
not whining for more,
but there's just one thing i miss.
even until now.
if only i can get it back.
in prayer, i tried.

Layer 1: On The Outside
Name: laiyiying
Birthdate: 150891
Eye Colour: blakc
Hair Colour: dark brown(in the sun,haha)

Layer 2: On The Inside
My Heritage: "stand up for SINGAPORE((:"
My Fear: disappointing more people
My Weakness: all my LOVES((:
My Perfect Pizza: hawaian pizza with cheese crust and no pineapple*grins*

Layer 3: Yesterday,Today & Tomorrow
The First Thought Of Waking Up: "My head hurts, i hardly slept and that was one heck of a weird dream"
"My Bed Time: 11pm to 3 am
My Most Missed Memories: the times when a blanket was not important and i was still warm*infer((:*

Layer 4: My Pick
Coke or Pepsi: none, those freaking things corrode your throat for goodness sake
Macdonalds or Burger King: Burger King and lunch and dinner and Macs for breakfast((:
Single or Group Dates: single.who would wanna share those precious moments with others right.
Adidas or Nike: Adidas((: i don't endorse sweatshop overwokers
Tea or Nestea: Nestea((:
Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE!!its one of my 3 food loves((:
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino; its all about the class la((:

Layer 5: Do You
Smoke: i'm dumb but not dumb enough to shorten my life by 50%
Take A Shower: yup, twice a day((:i don't like not smelling nice
Have A Crush: now?or last time?must specify.since this is not specified its going unanswered!
Go To School: nopes((: i am currently working as a roadsweeper and i believe my future is bright as the sun
Believe In Yourself: i kinda have to don't i?
Think You're A Health Freak: haha, ya. i'm sure big breakfast is reaaaaally healthy.

Layer 6: In The Past
Drink Alcohol: ya!and i nearly wanted to jump off my uncle's balcony once.haha.funny.
Gone To The Mall: oh no i don't!!i practically live next to one, what do you think?
Dyed Your Hair: ya, with chlorine in the pools.

Layer 7: Are You Hoping To..
Get Married: yup((: my future husband must be sweet and nice and not a miser. being rich and cute are plus points((:
Have Children: of course. i want at least a boy and a girl.

Layer 8: In a Boy
Best Eye Colour: i think hazel eyes are so pretty!i can drown in them
Best Hair Colour: natural hair colour.don't mind any so as long as its not weird.
Short or Long Hair: Short hair la((: must be soft and nice to ruffle

Layer 9: What Were You Doing Just Now?
A Minute Ago: Doing this quiz, listening to my sis's friend sing and being happy over my new laptop
An Hour Ago: buying my new laptop((:
Month Ago: mugging my butt off for prelims
Year ago: crying like a baby over something.secret.

Layer 10: Finish The Sentences
I love: life((:
I hate: nothing since this word is oh so strong.
I hide: feelings and myself.

Layer 11: Tag 5 people.
#yati(but i know she won't do)
#yuky
#lena(but she has done and she tagged me first)
#zhixuan(it'll be fun to read.haha)
#nicole a.k.a cow((:

10 Weird facts about myself.
1: i can't sleep if my bolster is not on the right end of my bed and my piglet and octavius and the green small pillow beside me.
2: when i'm pissed i don't talk.
3: i want a dog but sometimes i get scared of the bigger ones.
4: I talk to soft toys sometimes, especially my piglet.
5: I love getting hugs and kisses.
6: i love mugging((:
7: i usually bring my piglet overseas.
8: I hardly ever have a dreamless sleep.
9: somethimes i can really feel my dream,abit too lifelike.
10: i don't like people to spend money on me.

The 5 people to do this quiz.
same five that i tagged((:

They were out in the field,
both husband and wife.
She was collecting the crops,
while he was spraying pesticide.
He was deeply in love with her
but was never one who could express.
She married him when he proposed,
because that was the right thing.
She liked him enough she supposed,
was probably even fond of him.

Years passed, and the angel of death
tore him away from the love of his life.
He was devastated but pulled himself together,
knowing that one day in heaven,
they will meet and be together again.

Finally his turn came,
and he rose to the clouds,
hoping to claim his princess.
But his hopes came crashing when, he saw
his princess was now someone's queen.

If you fell and scraped your knee,
I'll be ready with cream and plasters.
If the bully makes you cry,
I'll be ready with a hug and handkerchief.
If you failed a test,
I'll dry your tears and teach you.
If a car is about to knock you down ,
I'll push you away and bear the knock.
I'll do all this for you,
because nothing is greater than a mother's love.



Mrs Ng,
I look up to you,
for your immense love of a mother,
and courage.

i will get my 6points
i will do you proud
i will get a1 for my emaths






as my last present to you.
3yrs cca incharge
1yr emath tcher
i'm sorry.

Jane was sitting on the swing
smiling in the sunshine
when gravity needed a companion.
The smile overturned
like a boat in a storm
tears pouring down her face.
She was 3.

Jake was watching a girl play
smiling on the swing.
He smiled seeing that simple joy,
until he saw her fall face flat.
He ran with an energy never felt before
and helped her up to her feet.
He was 5.

They were fast friends
that instance onwards.
When she had her first break-up,
he was there.
When she first got drunk,
he was there.
When she lost her first kiss,
he was there.

He never once had a girlfriend.
She always wondered why.
She hurried him to find one,
for prom was nearing,
and time waited for nobody.
He only smiled and told her,
"I'm waiting for someone"
She never understood till it was too late.

It was a summer afternoon,
no wind, no breeze.
She called him from Canada
5 times a day for 3weeks.
Nobody answered.
After her last paper,
she rushed onto the first plane
and went to find him.

"I'm sorry,
we did the best we could."
She slumped against the wall.
Jake only had 24hours.
She trudged into his ward.
He looked up at her and smiled.
"My wish upon a shooting star.
It came true.
Open this, but only after my eyes close.
I'll save you a place in heaven."

The machine beeped.
She cried into his chest,
one that held no heartbeat.
Lifting up her head,
she proceeded to the hall
as the doctors and nurses rushed in.
Opening the first letter in the parcel,
her eyes misted with tears.

'How silly and blind I've been'
You see,
when he held roses and chocolates
smiling on valentine's day,
he caught her kissing her first boyfriend.
When she broke up,
he comforted her, waiting to say
"I love you, will you be mine?"
but she said she had a crush on this boy,
a blonde jock, strong and silent.
All these years, he has been waiting,
for her.




The years we spend waiting,
the years we spend crying,
the years we spend alone,
there was someone out there,
praying you will be their's.




He departed,
whispering the words he longed to say.
"I love you."

TOMORROW IS MY LAST PAPER!!((:
for prelims la.
but still...its nice to feel relief for once
lit paper one and two.
so as long as i get a b i'll be grateful
den i can take a short break from

MUGGING.
fear
anxiety
stress
headaches
last minute cramming
insecurity

but this mugging period is good
it cleared my mind off other stuff
and made me able to see things clearer
though it messed up my mind
but i'll clear it in time((:
i hope.



no matter who i decide to stay with.
one will end up hurt.
why does it always end up like this?
one will recover faster den the other though.
so i guess my decision is clear.


o levels in less den 40days!!
do you feel the mountains tremble?
do you hear the oceans roar?
cause i do.
its the be all and end all.
so it's back to mugging((:

A MATHS PAPER 1&2---DOWN!
ENGLISH PAPER 1&2---DOWN!
HIGHER CHINESE PAPER 1&2---DOWN!
CHEMISTRY PAPER 1&2---DOWN!
SS/GEOG PAPER---DOWN!
PHYSICS PAPER 2---DOWN!
EMATHS PAPER 1---DOWN!

OH YAY((:
life is starting to feel normal again.
prelims ain't that bad
i hope i do reasonably well
its about time i start i make amends
i've been a total let down for 3 years
can't let it go on

what's with my siblings nowadays?
i guess its THE stage.
but i really hope it passes soon
whats with prelims and o levels
i'm not sure if my patience will be able to outlast them
I SHALL MAKE AMENDS((:




am i backsliding?
am i doing the right thing?
is this the right choice?
i need answers
(lord,send deliverance)


40 more days to o levels((:
all the best to all you muggers!((:

47 days to o levels
fear
excitement
tension
exhaustion

tears
hugs
cards
letters
kisses

from now till mid nov,
i'll be having a private affair
just my textbooks and me
guidebooks and notes can play third wheel
but i must shut off all distractions
and thoughts of you




but somehow i just can't do it;
cause i love you.

english; DOWN
higher chinese; DOWN
emath paper 1; DOWN
chemistry paper 2; DOWN
((:

i don't know if i should feel relieved,
or cry my eyes out for those paper.
but its over so...
no point crying over spilt milk right?((:
but maybe i should look into ite application.
ha.

oh oh oh!!
we got our class tee yesterday!!((:
can wear for 50lap run((:
can't wait. after tt is back to ncps.
its been ages since i last went there.
wonder how its like now.
suppose to be studying geog but oh well..
slight digression ya?

last night i was thinking
and i realised how much i lost and missed
all because i was too impulsive
acting before i think
letting my heart decide instead of my head
where was my sense of rationale last time?
have i found it yet?
hmm...let's wait and see shall we?((:

love is a trick
to defeat it,
you gotta bend around its sharp edges,
so that there's no need for band aids.
you gotta slide past the narrow gaps,
so you won't need a vacuum to suck you out.
most of all, you gotta trust,
so won't be led by the black mist of doubt
and fall into a pit for someone else to pull you up.
i fell twice.
hope this time i won't fall in again.
into the hole i have come to despise.



we'll get through this.
you'll see.
hand in hand we'll make it right.
somehow,eventually.((:

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignoreit if it's love
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but
I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all thislove
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were onceUpon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love
Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her
Love ...I'm in love

i love this song((:
and the little emories with it
tt was our colours performance song
a one day effort
nothing fancy
but it was effing cute((:
loved it.

walked from potong pasir to kovan for 2 days in a row((:
kinda fun and a totally good way to distress
although i rather go for retail theraphy.
anybody willing to sponsor?((:
national day in 2 days
prelims in 21days
english o level oral in 8days
birthday in 8 days
chem and social studies t.a in 8 days.
oh well((:



off to mug!

you do not have to sit outside in the dark
if, however,
you want to look at the stars
you will find that darkness is required
the stars neither require it nor demand it.
-Annie Dillard

similarly,
you do not have to walk in the rain
if, however,
you want to wash the tears away
you will find that the rain is handy
the rain neither need nor depend it.

disapointments and hurt
when they do not kill,
they strengthen us.
disappointments are needed
to show us how to be grateful for achievements
hurt is needed
to show us how to treasure the good times.
and both are needed
to show us that we're still alive
((:

my new motto in life;
life is perfect when you want it to be.
therefore, i'm content((:

when the dog bites,
when the bee stings,
when i'm feeling sad.
i simply remember
my favourite things,
and then i don't feel..
so bad((:

-the sound of music

its really easier said den done huh?
i tried but it always seem to take so much work that
i rather remain unhappy den trying to be happy.
maybe its the stress
maybe its the need to do well
maybe its life in general
somehow the sun seem to be shining elsewhere for me





someone please bring the sun back to me.
i'll love that person for life.
cause now the sun seem to be everywhere else but above my head.

tomorrow is p.e!!((:
which means i get to see my eye candy
yay-ness!!
but that also means i gotta put up with the world worst smelling guards
gross you know.
should really invest in my own set
but tml's second last lesson!)):
i hope jogging will go away instead of rollerblading
esp since i am starting to go gyming at least twice or thrice a week

these 2 shots were taken randomly
but though they are random
i'm sure in time to come
it will become one of my more precious photos.
you know why?
cause somehow,
time decieved us.
it was just yesterday that i was checking my psle grades
looking at my sec sch tt is allocated
going through orientation
laughing at the not scary ghost stories the pcs told.
and now?
i'm finishing the last year of sec sch life.
true cgss is going to the dogs
(no thanks to a certain cartoon tortoise look alike)
but i spent the 3 most eventful years here.
it was during these 3 years that i
broke hearts
had memories
endured a broken heart
found true friends
cried on blue blouses
jogged in yellow banana outfits
performed at the buzz @ canteen area
learnt things
played pranks
got into trouble
survived major papers
saw through people
realise that change is the only constant
had unforgetable photos.
i'll miss cedar.
i know i will.



i want to give up on you
your cold attitude pushed me away
but somehow, i seem to function like a magnet.
drawn to you like a magnet to a field.

I LOVE ELDDS!!((:
now that its over, i'll really miss you guys)):

disclaimer;
the following will be dedicated for my beloved...
ELDDS JUNIORS!
so if you are not interested
den shoo!

as i was saying,
I LOVE ELDDS((:
i can't believe its my farewell already
it seemed like just yesterday
where we were planning our senior's
i'll remeber the tears
the joy
the pain
the sweat
and the memories
my dear juniors,
my pride and joy.
my love and dears.

we were strangers
starting out on a journey
never dreaming
what we have to go through.
now here we are
i'm suddenly standing.
at the beginning with you.

lean on me
when you're not strong
and i'll be your friend
somebody to lean on.

as we go on
we remember
all the times we
had together.

racial harmony day pics((:
this are some of the more glam ones.
haha other den the "beng" class photo!((:
had a blast during this yr's
probably because its our last.

the sec3s eldds-ers with the 3 from 4i((:
4 ignite'o7!((:extreme bengness;our trademark


vith,xiaoxue,kehui,lijing,guomeng,me,germaine and azizah
me,thendral,esther,vith
i'm the shortest here.dang!
what did i do now?

me and vith with our pretty hennas!((:
at the courtyard podium


here are some of the eldds camp'o7 pics((:
i know its abit late but better late den never right?((:

estee and me((:
sec4s!!((:
family of love'o7
sec4s @ dinnertime((:
oh-so-cute((:

yesterday was at bukom the whole day
played pool with daddy and bowling!!((:
and mugged alot
but its fun((:
my first game was 101((:
i mean the score for bowling la.
the other 2 were pathetically below 100 so i shan't say
had nice lunch and dinner
so muggin didn't feel that bad ysd((:

today was fun!((:
wore a sari which,
due to the morning rush to courtyard,
came totally undone at the back during chinese lesson
which was, by the way,
the first period.
anyway.
the self proclaimed goddess was being an idiot as usual
caught those not wearing maly,indian,chinese costume
seriously, whats wrong with other ethnic costumes?
she should just go away and dunk her head into the toilet bowl.
anyway today's lessons were all kinda slack
oh ya.my dear juniors,
is it tt shocking to see me in sari?!
you guys sound so amazed when you all saw me in sari.

let's fast forward to combined assembly((:
it was nice!!
i liked the blangra dance though its my 2nd time seeing it
and i think jubi and sumita are so brave to dance la!
only 2 of them on stage you know!
after that was entertained by the wayang by sec2s
and some other rather cool thing by the sec3s
haha the humifingers was the best!
haha, got to see the erm...spastic side of teachers
den after that was phototaking with the class in the ethnic costumes!
suppose to take el photo but the rest were gone other den the sec3s
so vithiiya, azizah and i took with them
wonder why they are they,
pretty sure it has sth to do with farewell
but we shall see about it eh?

after that took photos and changed

den we went to suntec pizza hut!!

zhiyun called for a cab and guess what!

lichu's dad's cab came!

haha so coincidental la.

so cool.

anyway den we had our lunch at suntec's pizza hut

one word: horrendous

their service was absolutely, down the gutter, bad

and they still sharge us $9.13 service tax in total?!

*#@%!@@#$%

haha okay i didn't mean that thing above

but serious!

they ran out of rice and didn't tell us until 45mins after we ordered!

and out of the 7 of us, 5 of us ordered baked rice!

nonsensical la.

oh wells.shan't waste my anger in them

den after that was home sweet home((:

i shall post the pictures another time okay? ((:

boo!!((:
today we had p.e!!((:
i saw my eye candy and bladed past him like 4-5 times
*grins*
wore the instructor's blades.
nice and smooth
what a nice change from our school ones
i subconsciously can do turns((:
whee.
had double period of blading cause...
it was raining during jogging!!
so no jogging and blading time was doubled((:
played tag and just fooled around on blades
must have been during tt time tt i injured my ankle
haha just didn't know until just now.

before that was physics SPA.
all i can say is
PURE DISAPPOINTMENT
let's not talk about unhappy things((:

had chinese test today too.
i did not finish it as i was half asleep
hence i kept reading the same line over and over again
i am super annoyed with myself la

tomorrow is rhd!!((:
cameras out, saris on and accessories up!
i love cedar at times like these((:
but den again, the cedar spirit is gone.
tt's sad.cause its like a whole legecy died with it
i mourn for the dead legacy.






if only things weren't the way it was
i'll gladly return to your side.
but now all i can do
is to remain on my side and be a friend
to remove the tears and mend your broken heart.
i'm sorry.

i didn't go to school today!
because my daddy realised that i was over exhausted
so he agreed to let me rest at home today
and catch up with homework
as well as do some revision
and sleep in a bit later
been sleeping at 2am or later everyday for the past 4weeks
its a miracle i've not collapsed

went through the bag of letters and notes i have last night
i must say i felt this dull ache in my heart
everytime i read the letter you gave
especially seeing the contents
and seeing how we are now.
wonder if you ever regretted how much things had changed
i suppose it was all my fault
if given a chance
i would take all those words back
just so we can be like how we were
but den again we have to realistic don't we?
history never ever changes
and time can never be turned back
so there is no point dwealing upon the
if onlys.

when people said friends come and go
i didn't believe.
that was when i still had you
now that we are strangers
i wish i had believed them
and held on to you tighter,
forgoing the risk i took and keep it that way.








in one you asked if i thought we would still go out and study after jc;
well, i guess we both got our answer.
but i would rather it not have been this way.
you think time can change this answer?

boo!
today school was kinda slack afterall.
not what i expected.
but amath is killing me
stupid relative velocity.
how on earth is it relevant to our lives?!
which idiot would bring calculator on cruises
or on flights to calculate the velocity of the wind?
other than the cabin crew la.

anyway,
i can't wait for p.e to come!!
rollerblading+eye candy((:
exclude the stinky guards though.
those are absolutely horrific
racial harmony day too!!
i am wearing a sari((:
lalala...can't wait((:
fun fun fun

nowadays
my chest hurts
my headaches are worse
what does this mean?
stress or what?
if only i knew
my panadol is running low
boo!
prelims in 42days.
and yet i still feel so unprepared
someone slap me
and wake me from my fantasy.





nothing you can say,
can make me love you less;
i'll stand by you

ELDDS CAMP'o7 WAS A BLAST!!((:
i'll miss you guys loads after passing out
really.all the fun and spastic times
the games we played
the fun we had after dinner((:
the closeness of it all.
and mrs r.w's sons are ADORABLE!!((:
7yr old james and 8yr old thomas
those 2 wonderful darlings((:

caution!
if you do not wish to be afraid
do not proceed.
i'm serious.

at around 1am last night
i saw a headless lady in cheongsam in as2
i shall not mention which part of it.
so go figure.
this sounds dumb i know.
but seriously.
i was afraid but i prayed and was more calm
den i went to sleep
the power of faith.
i think its satan trying to tear down my faith again
he succeeded twice, there is not gonaa be a third.
it is scary and true
but i just want to get over it.
hope i can.







out,out damned thoughts
out i say.



yes, you stay out.
cause i don't want to get involved this yr.

you all know what?
i just realised that odd weeks thursdays
are my totally a math-ish day!
a math lesson
a math remedial
a math tuition
a math homework!!
ahhhh..
disgustingly cool.

tomorrow is p.e day!
tomorrow is eldds camp!
tomorrow is gonna be a great day.
cause there is no remedial!!((:
an undeserved break((:
(truth be told, i feel the guilt)

p.e = louise!!((:
camp= beloved juniors
no remedial= do hw before camp
i love my life((:
jealous people out there,
don't snatch!!((:






baby, when will you be mine to hold.
to cry on,to lean on, to depend on.