TODAY IS THE BEST DAY OF THE WEEK(:
school was slack
there was hockey
i did not sustain much injuries
i met twinnie on the bus ride home.(:

just finished my EOM
no more history tutorials this week
which means no more history homework
which means have time to sleep!(:
tml have check up.
means can miss one hour of chinese.
tell me,
how can the week look any better?(:
and hockey is from 2 to 4pm on fri.
somebody date me out!(:
oh! and dbs is starting this fri too!!
wheee.....
just when i thought life sucked(:

I <3 EVERYONE!(:

SHOPPING SPREE IS LOOVVVEEEE(:
so many things happened over the past few days
that it is best to forget them
all i can say is that i'm giving it all another shot(:
AND...i finally got my phone back(:
wheeeeeee.....thank goodness i had my once in a lifetime retail theraphy.
it worked wonders(:
i finally bought
-tops
-bag
-sheobag
-pants
-shorts
-skirt
all at one shot(:

maybe once again, i can fall in love with life.
maybe, just maybe(: though i know that there will always be an empty part of me that's with you.

IT WAS RACIAL HARMONY DAY

ON THURSDAY IN CJC!(:

SO FUUUUNNNNNNNN.

NICE FOOD, NICE CLOTHES AND NO PE!

(haha, we slackers refused to change and happily ponned pe.)

aggy, rain, maggy and me(:

koped the pic from daryl.

and daryl, ITS NOT AN UGLY SHOES PIC!

i wasn't even wearing shoes.haha.

aggy, me and rain(:
colourful and prettaye!(:

utterly screwed up.

OS, DARYL AND ME(:
ME,DARYL,OS,JULIAN AND DODE!(:

T05 POWER(:

PO! OS AND ME
PAE T07 POWER(:
ME, PO, MISS YAO AND OS!
ME AND LWIN!(:

today was the 34th council installation!(:
surprisingly saw cheryl lwin there.
haha so coincidental!
she was osman's PRE U SEM group mate(:
got daryl, pat, yue qun and po some stuff.
spent an hour at the candy shop!
tt shop is so cool okay! i am so going there next time
i spent like about 20+bucks there la.
haha. crazy right.
today was a remarkably good day!(:even though i was still nursing a disappointment from last night.

AT THIS RATE,
I
AM
GONNA
DIE
BEFORE
THIS
TERM
EVEN
ENDS.

don't know what's wrong these days.
everybody around me is depress.
the homework is getting ridiculous
(try doing 7history essays in a week)
and my body is not co-operating with me.
goodness. SOMEBODY SAVE US.

let's see.
wednesday after hockey,
went to grab a bite after shower.
caught up with nicole(:
reached home at 10.
did a little homework and k.o-ed at 12

today had napfa and a level chi listening
best thing that happened all day was
going back to cedar and bumping into yuky(:
oh. and talking to izack before morning assembly
(gerald there is NOTHING going on between us.-.-)
and talking to yati at the grandstand.
stupid napfa.
got AAABD for 5items.
so no needa aim for gold alr.
pulled down by my standing board jump.
2.4km can just aim for 16mins

i lay my love on you
that's all i wanna do
and eveytime i breathe i feel brand new
you open up my heart
show me you're the one to walk right through
yes i lay my love on you.

if only that wasn't so.
i need to get over you.
and wish that one day,
i can sing i'm not missing you from my <3
but for now,all i can say is
I'M STILL LOVING YOU.
i'm no longer falling for you.
i've fallen.

monday was tiring!
and something funny happened at dinner
NYNY at kovan heartland mall,
right daryl?(:
i shall let him tell you guys himself.

today nothing much.
wasted my time going to school.
why?
because my first proper lesson started at 12NOON!
and after that lesson was self study which = BREAK
rah.
5hours of no lessons today.
gosh, what kinda school day is it right?
the only highlight of the day,
ISLAND CREAMERY APPLE PIE AND NUTELLA ICE CREAM!

why does it hurt so much to see the unparted sea between our shores?
why does it eat me inside out to see you upset and hurting?
why does it kill me to not be able to be by your side, comforting you?
i know i myself am drowning,
but just say the word and i'll swim across,
fight the currents
just to be by your side.

TODAY IS A WEIRD DAY.
it's a good and bad day.
good cause i finally patch things up with yati
i realised how stupid i was
true, we are the unlikeliest pair of best friends
but i've been stupid long enough
i need my best friend back
cause somehow, she knows me inside out
and i know she got my back.
thank goodness i cleared things up with her.
i feel like this heavy load of stone have been lifted.

bad day cause:
-i had a hangover
-i have a truckload of work
-pw is stressing me out
and some other reasons tt can't be disclosed.

BUT I DON'T CARE CAUSE I'VE FOUND REASONS TO SMILE AGAIN.
without my angel,
i would have died on countless occasions.
so, TIM GOH,
THANK YOU SO MUCH!(:
<3YOU!(:

AND AND AND
i'm sorry erica!):
foong and i don't mean to hide from you la
but really cannot say la.
don't be angry le okay?(:
I <3 YOU DEEP DEEP!(:

AHHHHHHHHHHH
MY SISTER IS AN AH LIAN!
OMG
SOMEBODY SAVE ME
NO NO SOMEBODY SAVE HER FIRST
OMG,OMG,OMG
THIS IS RIDICULOUS.
HOW CAN MY SISTER BE AN AH LIAN?!!?

this shall not be an emo post.
(:

got back my last paper today,
history.
i got a U grade,
but i was 2 marks away from a S(:
not bad la.
seeing as to how i never took history for O lvl.

but my grades are sorta bad
so, it's time to stop playing
and CHIONG(:

alright,
nothing much to blog le
so BYE WORLD FOR NOW.
I <3 YOU ALL.
DEEP DEEP.

I FEEL OFFICIALLY FUBARed!
thank goodness i have mag(:
if not dunno how i'm gonna survive.
keep everything in and implode i guess.
and i promise i will try to find an alternative
cause i know you think what i have in mind now
is not helpful at all(:

PEOPLE!(:
please be nice and do my group's pw survey(:
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=NZlSfyxY_2fThB6Q4MSRK6Aw_3d_3d
i promise i would do yours too next time(:
PLEASE?
i shall say i <3 you in advance for that(:

nothing much these days.
mostly figuring out what to do in life
and figuring myself.
OH!got back results today(:
not all that bad.better than expected anyhow.
i got...
S U C E S so far.(:
the U grade is for math of course.
i mean, afterall, 70% of the level got U.
most surprised for chinese and econs.
thought i would fail but i got a C for chinese.
and for econs,
i PASSED for the first time!(:
*beams and flashes braces*
the 2 subpasses for GP and lit were surprises.
didn't expect myself to pass.
oh well.
enough about grades.
like i said in SD today,
GET A LIFE! CAUSE LIFE IS MORE THAN JUST GRADES.
(:

<3you

In your life,
you will meet somebody.
that somebody would be very special indeed.
that person is horribly selfish.
that person will take away your heart.
and even after the person leaves,
that person will not give your heart back to you in full.
part of your heart would be held ransom.

and,
even after years with no contact,
that person would still be able to affect you.
you heart will beat faster,
you will flush.
you would try all you can to do somethg
but it would not work.
you know why?
cause that person was the one you still love.

i've met that person a few years ago.
and to YOU, who think its you,
i'm sorry.
this is gonna hurt,
BUT IT IS NOT YOU.

random qoutes of the day:
"you can't hug a riceball,
cause it will fall apart"
"korean food is never korean,
without the kimchi."
"when you are fat,
you get more scars when you fall"

MAG!(:
i've decided to heed your advice.
after thinking long and hard,
i realised that it's the best method.
i shall head down to my cobwebbed cellar,
lock it all in a treasure chest,
off the lights, and head back up,
into the living room to whoever is there.
it's gonna be hard not to head back down,
and try and open that chest,
but i guess, i have no choice but to try.
it's better not to ruin what i already have,
den to get the truth in the open,
and live with the consequence,
especially after making that mistake once.
but i'm never gonna forget that chest,
cause afterall, there are attachments.

i'm not gonna try getting over you;
cause i know it will never work.
i'm still loving you.

have you ever loved and lost somebody,
wished there was a chance to say i'm sorry.

self discovery is never easy.
we are fallible creatures
and who we are usually disgusts ourselves.
acceptance comes hard,
but living it out is harder.
sometime the question is not who you are,
but rather, should you be who you are.
that's the struggle.

Raising again from bed,
Empty heart and mind,
Going through the mindless routine,
Returning to the painted mask,
Ever longing to leave this masquerade.
Time, now or never.

mag is right,
it is time to rethink proirities again.

me and tayzhiyun!(:
i look SPASTIC!
(from left) nish, adel, me and abby
this is 4I.
ACTING BOY BAND!
haha ACT boyband again.

i think we abit CMI(:

TODAY WENT OUT WITH MY BELOVED 4I'07!

sat at esplanade's roof and talked

den we went on for dinner(:

although didn't get to spend much time,

it was still great(:

i missed all you guys.

i want our monthly dinners!

I LOVE YOU BABES!

today was inter-dg captain's ball!
i must say it was great,
though i was disappointed due to personal reasons.
i hope all you guys had fun!

tell me,have you ever loved and lost somebody?
i tried not to think about you for years.
finally, just when i thought i was over you,
i saw you and all the walls crashed right down.
your image was the trumpet to my jericho,
the jericho i took years to build.
i wish you didn't have the effeect on me;
cause i know deep inside,
this is all wrong.

i bought a new pair of specs today!(:
red and black.
sorry mag! same colour combi as yours
but it looked the best on me.
the rest were all too big for my face.
and my guard cost 30plus dollars!!!
OMG, daylight robbery lohs,
so little cloth, so much money.
i'm sure the velcro don't cost all that much either.
MONEY SCAMMERS!):

SUNSHINE AND LOVE BE WITH YOU;
IN RAINY DAYS I WILL BE WITH YOU<3

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS
WHEN ECONS TEACHERS
FAIL TO ENGAGE THEIR STUDENTS!
haha.okay.this is bad.i know.
but i manage to understand what the teacher was saying
AND do this at the same time.
the first picture is how our notes ORIGINALLY looked like
den the next is mine, which is the last one to be vandalised,
hance it's not so cluttered state.
the third one is mag's!
which we happily doodled all over.haha.
the last photo WAS a totally blank paper.
den i wrote a story chain on it!
oh, it's mag's one too.haha.

DON'T YOU ALL LOVE LECTURES?(:

TODAY IS BECKY'S CONCERT!
i'm sorry michelle, can't go for your carnival
overstrained my muscle yesterday during training
and woke up with aches all over my body
i'll make it up to you somehow!
i promise.
i'm sorry mag, can't mug for SATs tgd today
same reason as stated above.
tuesday after school at swirl?(:

guess what?
i am actually doing my homework on a sat afternn!
amazing or not?(:
i amze myself sometimes too.
econs essay now.
den later will be math(:
tomorrow night shall do history.
on monday shall do chinese and PW(:
if only i can stay this motivated all the time.

this is for YOU.
stop doing this to me would you?
please?
you know how painful it is for me too?
things will never be the same,
no matter what happens.
i know you are doing alot for me still.
but things like this cannot be forced.
once love's lost, it is.
nothing can bring it back.
i don't want to force it back either.
i've moved on,
and i think it is time you should.
i'm sorry.

I've tried to relight the flame,
and you, I've never placed blame.
But my heart feared a relapse,
and pain resides in my synapse.

Apologies have been made enough,
and forgiveness embraced the wrongs.
Now, I can bring myself to laugh,
and experience with love, the warmth.

You have stretched me like a tightrope,
with your stress-imposing hope.
I hope that you can see in time,
that love lost is not a crime.

So now again, i bid you well,
until you can handle this letdown.
I'm sure this is not farewell,
just for you to remove that frown.

(from the top left clockwise) OSMAN(my lover), ME, AGGIE(my scandal), MAGGY (my daddy turned lover) and DARYL(my new BEST friend).

WE LOOK SPASTIC IN THIS SHOT

BUT I DON'T CARE,

CAUSE I LOVE YOU ALL THE SAME GUYS!(:

*blows flying kiss*

HELLO EARTH!
pentium 102 reporting!(:
*inside name*

TODAY WAS 2ND OFFICIAL HOCKEY TRAINING!
oh my. all i can say is that my skills are ATROCIOUS!
haha. need to double up practice and fitness!
battle scars of the day:
-a bruise the size of one and a half fifty cents coin
-a burst blister
-overstrained muscles
-a fall on my side on astro turf
BUT IT WAS ALL WORTH IT BECAUSE...
I SCORED MY SECOND GOAL OF THE YEAR!
(pathetic i know, but hey! cut the beginner some slack ya?)
hockey training ended at around 6plus 7 today.
i think that's how it'll be from now on,
BUT I LOVE IT STILL!(:

in short...
HOCKEY IS (less than 3) <3!(:

YESTERDAY WAS FIRST OFFICIAL TRAINING FOR HOCKEY!(:
ONE WORD SUMS IT ALL UP. FUN!!!!!
CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW'S!

today school was retarded.
whole clique down with virus can.
was not feeling well too.
so after math lecture,
mag, daryl and i left.
and today's first period was lit.
mr kang took over ms chua!(:
i shall OFFICIALLY declare i crush him can
haha. he so cute la!
but he suaned me today! mean tcher.
i suaned him abt boy scouts den he suaned me back.
rah.

today is a horrible day.
can't wait for tomorrow to come(:
why can't you just let it go already?
dearie i know it's hard
but i can't love you no more.
so why don't you just move on and live?

I WANNA KTV NOW!!!!
*WHINES*
oh my gosh.
getting high with mag and adeline
leaning against jackston and osman
screaming and shouting out songs
going crazy and eating nice tidbits
dancing with adeline
singing spastic nursery rhymes at times
SO FUUUUUNNNNNN!!(:

had my first tuition yesterday at mavis
edwin and jesslyn are there!(:
halfway through differentiation.
not bad!(: daryl and i can understand.

today was first day back to school
just like usual, 3hours of break
school ends at 5.
retarded la!!):
met nicole for gelare waffles today!
i missed you so much girl!<3

while watching tv just now,
and a line mentioned hit me.
"whether you wallk or run to the finish line,
you will still reach the finish line eventually"
when we run,
we reach the finish line sooner.
but we miss out all the beautiful view of nature.
that's why i badly want to leave singapore,
because in singapore,
slow pace will never work out.

In the silver beam of the night,
you saw joy in my eye.
But, without the aid of the light,
I managed to mask a lie.

I gave up myself,
to morph into your dream.
I'm now just an elf,
hiding behind deception's screen.

I oft so longed to ask,
if you saw me as who I am,
'cause with each new dusk,
I check into your fantastical camp.

I know this was borne of love,
but I know not how much I can take.
I long for the freedom of a dove,
so do you think this ground can be raked?