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2009-05-14T08:29:00.000-07:00

you know,
sometimes when you let people dictate your life for long enough,
and you are spineless enough not to see it,
when you finally unblind yourself,
you will finally realise that you can't let it go on anymore.
if you're lucky, you'll be able to spot it when its budding.
if you're not, you'll realise that it is all too late.
i know i'm self-centred,
i know i'm spineless,
i start off thinking i am right,
den get swayed by others around me.
what is right and what is wrong?
what is real and what is perceived?
the 2 polar extremes are often seperated by just a thin thread
and sometimes you trangress the wrong realm without knowing.
for those who think they know me,
they are deluded.
for those who i've told that i'm showing my true self to,
i'm sorry i lied.
nobody can claim they know me,
(well other den GOD)
'cause i don't even know myself.

the tragedy of this all
is not in the fact that i do not know myself,
but is rather in the fact that this means i've regressed beyond the stages of being infantile.
babies know who they are to the best they can,
they express themselves.
what am i?
i want to be myself,
but i don't even know who i am.

i want to explode,
but my reasons seem trivial.
i can't bring across my emotional baggage adequately.
i want to fall apart
but who would be there to piece me back together?
this is a crucial year,
the national exam that dictates our future.
i cannot throw it away.
but yet the more i try to ignore myself,
and take each day one at a time,
the more i find myself being reduced into a puddle of mess.
i know that i am annoying,
and it is this very nature of mine that drives people away,
and at this time that i need an emotional stronghold,
i find myself with nobody to turn to.

at times like these i regret turning away those who cared,
i should have made myself fall for them,
and hold on to a relationship that gives me strength.
i've given up many things for the three times i've fallen hard,
and each time left me hurt,but not stronger,
more needy for someone else to fill this void.

lastly,
i never thought i would say this,
but at this point of time,
when everything feels like its falling,
and i have nobody to turn to,
i wish i don't love you,
'cause the pain of pretension,
only makes it harder to bear.
i'm trying not to love you,
but,unfortunately, i still do.

2009-04-28T03:33:00.001-07:00

Wow!it's been ages since a last blog man!
Haha.so many things have happened since that I know not where to start (:
I don't think I blogged about Easter retreat yet right?
It was awesome fun man!
But thinking about this year being my last Easter retreat is really sad la ):
And during Easter I made a new commitment with God! (:
I will majorly cut down on my vulgarities and I know that it is what God would want cause the next monday's reflection was on the story of the small angry boy and the nails and the holes in the wooden door (:
I must try harder! Today is day1 of the counter (: hope I don't end up back at zero on the 4th day again (: anyone who hears any bad words being uttered from my mouth is more den welcomed to turn my cheeks into tomatoes!(:

Who I was despise who I am.
How did this happen?):
And you and you were right, I've changed ):
Someone tell me how to get back onto the road I was on, cause there ain't much time left

ALRIGHT!(:
off to get my ramly burger!
And to trim my hair (:
LOVEYOU ALL! <3

2009-03-20T21:11:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIFU!!(:

19yearsold le!

18years of knowing you

nearly 2 decades of friendship

LOVEYOU!<3

2009-03-15T09:13:00.000-07:00

i must say,
today is a really mind-blowing day.
too many things thrown my way in a day.
but it is a good kinda mind-blowing(:
for most parts anyway.

firstly,
sermon today really reached right past my fears and into my heart(:
after asking the question for months,
i finally got my answer.
thank you GOD(:

and secondly was the movie screening today(:

thirdly,
something that i shan't mention here(:
but ya, sorry, thankyou and iloveyou(:

daddy just flew to australia!):
he's been flying way too much lately
hurry back daddy!
meanwhile, we'll be praying for you(:

oh man, this is bad,
i am hooked onto facebook games.
haha!
somebody shoot me please.

alright.
i shall sign off now(:
ILOVEYOUVERYMARCH!!<3

2009-03-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

CTS ARE FINALLY OVVVVEEEEEERRRRRR!!(:
oh yes(: i smell liberty is the air(:
i have finally retrieved my hardly existant life from the bin
not sure if i should go sentosa cove this sunday
since there is lit lecture on monday morning
haha, i shall decide later on(:
i can't wait for next week!
its a holiday of FUN mugging!
study date with fbud, study sleepover with twinnie.
mugging might potentially be fun!

alright lets have a reflective remorse analysis of CTs
just so that i won't feel so bad(:

GP first.
oh my, i confess! i was half asleep when i did it.
but at least i completed it la hor(:

H1 MATH next.
it was on the same day and same location.
so friggin slack la!(:
mag and i brought skittles and m&ns in respectively
hopefully can pass.
but it was raining! perfect weather to sleep in can.
oh yes!vern and i were stuck at the same qns.
haha
mag thought vern was drawing boobs can!
haha but it was sets la.
tsk!what was mag thinking right.
and she kicked my table for m&ns!
scared the shit outta me can.

H2 HISTORY was on tuesday.
haha.one word. FUBARed!
but at least this time round,
unlike last yr's promos, i didn't go toilet!
and i actually had content to write(:
but the UN SBQ killer man.
i stopped at face value evaluation for source A
think miss teo wanna kill me when she collected my paper
i promised daddy i'll focus on lit and econs this hols,
but i'll probably leave some time for history(:
i badly need to buck up.

H2 LITERATURE was on wed
hmmm...poetry was alright.
mag and i had the same points(:
but oh my, for othello, one word.
ZOUNDS!):
and reminder to self,
tabulate points of comparison between BNW and HMT
before ever attempting the comparison again.
i wasted 25mins to 35mins writing wrongly for my othellos somemore
another paper FUBARed le

H2 ECONS was today!
haha.i slept.it was that bad.
but nvm.many people did too(:
and silly vern behind me giggling away
haha.so distracting can
cause ken chew made some mightily weird noise
it sounded slightly animalistic(no offence!)

oh well,
takeaway from this CTs?
MUG HARDER!(:

tml no sleepover at hannahs):
but nvm,
GIGS soon!!(:
hope it all turns out fine.

oh ya!
on a completely random note,
1) someone please convince mag that i am indeed horrible
2) the cardiologist and my mum thinks that i'm stressed -.-
haha joke la. how can i be stressed(:
if i am stressed, poor rain is what sia?(:

alright!
time to sign off
before daddy nags.
<3 YINGS(:

2009-03-09T02:52:00.000-07:00

DAY ONE OF CTs OVER!(:
2 down and 3 more to go.
tomorrow is history.
i need all the prayer i can get!(:
i was hoping for a simple encouragement from you,
a simple line to keep me going. will i get it?(:

i shall take this chance to thank god for his wonderful grace on me(:
and also dedicate a short part to my beloved late grandpa
the chinese a level paper 1 had a few questions to choose from,
one of which being who i miss the most.
the first person that came to mind was my grandpa.
till date, it is still one of my greatest regret that i wasn't arnd when he passed on.
i'm sure everyone is well acquainted with the phrase
"you'd never cherish what you have till you've lost it"
and i only truly got it that year
even losing P and C was not as painful.
it was through writing the essay that all those small details came flooding back.
these daily occurences that we think nothing of
warms my heart and makes me miss him more.
i never got to say this while he was arnd,
but i'm sure he can see this from heaven right now,
GRANDPA, I LOVE YOU.

THIS WEEK IS GIGS!(:
AND SLEEPOVER AND HANNAH'S!
I CAN'T WAIT!((:
I MISS HANGING WITH YOU LOADS MAN.
THIS IS GONNA BE A GOOD WEEK(:

alright.time to shower.
time is of the essence during CT week(:

2009-03-04T23:39:00.000-08:00

i finally got my sleeping pills!(:
hopefully i'll be able to sleep better.
den i can study better and,
i won't screw up CTs that bad!(:

i've been having strange nightmares
and waking up for no good reason alot recently.
just last night i dreamt of a war.
in my dream i was just buying tamagotchi in 7-11
(don't ask me why so random)
and i was with my family on a holiday in some obscure place.
den suddenly, all hell broke loose.
the 7-11 i was in got shot at and all.
all this craziness only lasted less den an hour
but the devastation was insane!
maybe my mind was visualising some war i've read about for history.
but at this rate,
i'll never be able to focus in class.
hope the sleeping pills work!(:

alright!
back to mugging my A-I conflict!(:
TATA!<3

2009-03-04T05:32:00.000-08:00

FIRSTLY,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY RAIN!(:
how does it feel like to be old?(:
hope you liked the present mag and i gave you!
must hang it up kay!(:
&keep rotating the sequence of the pics.

alright,
let's back track to yesterday.
joke of the century!
mag and i ran to the bus stop,
thinking that rain has forgotten about lit and gone home,
and fearing that she'll miss her beloved's lesson.
upon reaching the bus stop,
we realised that, RAIN WAS NOWHERE IN SIGHT!
so we walked back to the canteen worrying.
after walking mag for her clb lesson,
(which she was happily 15mins late for)
i went back to class and lo and behold!
5mins later, who walks in but rain herself!(:
den we found out that she went to see tcher only -.-
joke or not we.
haha.rain was so amused.
eh!mag actually ran for you lohs!(:

amusing incident 2,
i stuck up the no whining sign on monday after sch.
so ysd daryl saw it under his chair
(lousy sign, suction pad doesn't work properly)
and though we told him the sign was for him,
which is clearly not a compliment,
or positive in anyway or from any light,
he wanted to bring the sign home!
he thought the sign was cute and all.
haha, i know his humour improved,
but darn, not compliment lehs daryl!
you happily accept some more -.-

I LOVE LIGHTNING WARNING MAN!(:
its the best thing on earth(:
no p.e ysd, and no prize giving today.

OH YES!
CJCians, please pray for mr kang kay?
those who went today shld know what happened.
i hope he's fine):
mr kang,
please please get better soon and take care kay?
we'll be praying for you!

today during cross ctry super slack!
mag aggy and i just walked the whole way.
and the monkey so friggin scary can!
and yes, it is hideous!
i thought monkeys were suppose to be cute,
but clearly there are exceptions to this.
anyway, i think my class is dead.
only 10 ppl showed up at cross ctry.
my class is screwed indeed ):

today reading the newspaper,
we came across a line tt is honestly bull shit.
s'pore presses us all so friggin hard
so much so that even j1s are cracking now.
example:
me: hey mag!
mag: yeah?
me: HELLO! *beams insanely*
this is what we do in the middle of lessons -.-
i think we have indeed lost it man.
i pity mag man,
sit beside me most of the time,
gotta put up with my nonsense.
so in return,
in classes, mag can enshroud me and rest on me(:

A LEVELS RESULT OUT THIS FRIDAY!
SCARY MUCH?
ALL THE BEST TO ALL J3S!(:
ESPECIALLY SHARILYN;SHIFU!(:
I HOPE I PASS MY CHINESE A LVLS MAN!
CLB = WASTE TIME

alright(:
no more procastination.
back to studying econs!
*mumblegrumblegroansmumble*
<3 YOU EARTHLINGS(:

2009-03-01T07:03:00.000-08:00

omg,
i think sometimes yings is indeed a joke -.-
i performed the most classic act in captains ball history.
I TRIPPED OVER MY OWN LACES,
HENCE TEARING MY PANTS AND SCRAPING MY KNEE.
oh yes ying, brilliant no?
way to go, genius of the year (:

my poor body is victimised by my unfailing knack of getting into scrapes
how do you cure accident-prone-ism?
haha,
i think mummy and daddy dunno whether to laugh or cry.
spraining my ankle while getting up the car.
who else is capable of that you tell me?
haha oh well.
its trivial incidents like these that spice our lives no?(:
alright.
Q.T time!(:

seeya earthlings!(:

2009-02-27T22:29:00.000-08:00

ALRIGHT(:

LONG OVERDUED PICS OF LIT NIGHT AND ROCKEFELLA(:

the order of the pics got a lil messed up though,

sorry!(:

LIT NIGHT!(:

the ghost beckons...
rain really does look ghostly here no?

AH!

it's the dode in scary black lipstick!

2t05 girls just before lit night,

ut where is aggy?):

the best part of the night,

TEABREAK!(:

the 2t05 lit girls(:

ROCKEFELLA!

mag and rain's horrified response too...

starstruck me!(:

no prize to correct guesses on who was on stage! (:

MUMMY AND ME(:

yes, tayzhiyun i miss you!

RAIN AND I<3

COUPLE SHOT!(:

MY WONDERFUL MUMMY AND DADDY.
LESS DISTURBING SHOT AS COMPARED TOO...

THIS!

eh mummy and daddy, no PDA in front of kids!

when mag forgets lyrics to get high too,

this is what happens

wah! whats this man.

parents discriminating their kid lohs!TSK(:

FAMILY PHOTO!(:

NICE AND COSY, THE 3 OF US.

2009-02-27T21:28:00.000-08:00

another week gone!):
that leaves us with abt 8days to C.T!
oh gosh.TIME TO CHIONG!

anyway,
highlight of the week,
ROCKEFELLA!
LAST NIGHT WAS AWESOME!
way better than last year's bands for starters,
the shirt is nicer,
the ambience was better,
just basically everything!
well done 34th student council(:
AND IZACK,
YOU DID FINE(:
and CLASS ACT WAS DA BOMB!(:

but we got disqualified from handball):
there goes all hopes of our champion title this year.
haha, 'cause gerald was suppose to be at detention,
but he sneaked out for handball
and got caught.
silly boy(:

I NEED A CCA!):
even nexus is full la):
looks like i have to join library -.-
i'll try my luck at bridge club first.

this week was a crazy week of tests man!
thank goodness all over.
now the only test for next week is math f.a.
den it is COMMON TEST WEEK!
oh well, it's do or die time.
so T05 let's kick ass(:

alright!
off to mug!
BYE SUNSHINES(:

2009-02-23T07:51:00.000-08:00

I ADORE ADORE ADORE THIS SONG!(:
ALL I WANT IS YOU
juno soundtrack

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

2009-02-23T04:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIREN!(:
15 years old le,
cannot act like a kid at home le (:

sadly my brother's birthday
proved to be an all time low
when your defences are down,
and your source of strength quits
and all the arrows seem to head at you
and dodging them all is just too hard,
what do you do?

i did not pursue it,
'cause i know it is in your nature
to be so malicious and tactless in your words.
i had no energy and you're not worth it
i've always known that you're like that,
but i thought maybe you've changed.
i guess not.
well, guess what,
the words did hurt
but you dun mean much to me,
so i shan't waste my emotions on you.

i didn't get into editorial.
i got blog bitched.
i screwed up both the tests today.
i miss you but you have someone else
i feel unwell but dare not fall sick
i know this sounds narcissistic,
but i need out.

baby,
i really need you,
i always did.
but more so now den ever.
can you just give me a day back in your arms?):

2009-02-20T08:24:00.000-08:00

so quickly, another week has passed!(:
reality check, 2 more weeks to...
COMMON TEST!!
*gasp*
haha, i think i'm FUBAR-ed man.
anyway!(:
highlights of the week

oh yes!
TODAY, 2T05 OWNED 2T14'S BUTT AT HANDBALL!
9 -- 0 MAN!
WE KNOW WE ROCK.
haha.
today was an okay day i guess,
other den blanking out during 2.4km
and freaking dode out when i swayed and nearly fainted.
haha sorry man.
oh yes(:
we had lit film night today too!
er...it was...disturbing.
haha.the show was amusingly disturbing to say the least.
but the refreshment was J.co donuts!(:
YUM!
oh yes, and something amusing happened today too.
amusing but yet annoying.
domestic affair of 2t05(:
oh!
and i scared dode with a rubber milipede today!(:

yesterday was a moody day!):
'cause we got segragated during history,
and no offence meant,
but i don't see why dode is below daryl and i'm only 1 place above him,
i mean come on,
isn't it blatantly obvious tt this yr,
both dode and i put in effort for history
and daryl chee clearly DID NOT?
i know this sounds bitchy,
but its a fact.):
G.P lessons were entertaining as usual(:

wednesday went for editorial trials
i really really hope i can get in la):
i hope submitting 3 interviews instead of the expected 2 helped.
someone all have rank one lehs(:
quarter MISTRESS, captain and captain lohs(:
i shall keep my fingers crossed.

on tuesday,
ma'am wanted to suspend me for handing in parents letter late -.-
in the end i just needed to clean up the smelly p.e store(:

OH YES!
TODAY I FINALLY SATISFIED MY CRAVING!
FAR EAST ES TELLE CHICKEN RICE IS THE SEX MAN!(:
it's friggin good(:
everyone should go try it.
haha.

alright,
before i sign off,
i shall be random.

baby, since i've met you,
my life has started anew.
my previous pains displaced,
our memories in it place.
i never could let go,
of everything so old.
but things are not the same,
cause baby, you're perfection's aim.

i want it to linger;
the bitter-sweet taste of life's palimsest.

ALRIGHT!
G'NIGHT EARTHLINGS!(:

2009-02-15T23:49:00.000-08:00

guess my resolve to blog weekly not working.
anyway,
today didn't go school 'cause was not feeling well.
so now, i shall take a short break from studies
and blog(:

let's see what happened last week.
oh yes!I QUIT HOCKEY!(:
due to health reasons.
hopefully can get into editorial.
though i love the sport,
the ppl really do suck balls.
well, not all, but quite a few.
so i'm glad i'm out of it,
and don't have to take their shit anymore.
((:

I LOVE G.P LESSONS!
haha, its super fun la.
can suan miss kwa and usually its quite a laugh.
take for example our lesson discussing politics.
we were on the moral issue of the holocaust.
if you had a baby, and you were in hiding along with 8 people,
and he/she suddenly wailed, what would you do?
khairul's response was funny.
khai: "i would kill the baby"
miss kwa: "why?"
khai: "cause if the 8 ppl were my friends, if they die, i cannot make back the same friends. but baby can make again after the war what."
WTH la!haha.
funny la that khai,
can make the baby again -.-

did the history re-test on thurs.
it seems alot easier than the actual one the rest did(:
hope i did okay.
haha, we were like all aiming for 5 out of 25.
hope can at least get 5 la(:
some events occured over the week that frustrated me.
some left me feeling incredulous and others left me on the brink of tears.
but shhh(: nothing about those here.

FRIDAY THE 13TH passed without anythg bad(:
thank goodness.
and den it was 14TH of FEB, VDAY!(:
went for band prac before meeting people
glad you liked the brownies!(:
anyway, 15TH was another special day
and it was also ariel's first worship leading exp.
WELL DONE!(:
den went home for bonding with my bro
(don't ask why he randomly wanted to bond)
and dental, RED BRACES!(:
yup, i think that wraps up the week.

to you:
hey,
not sure if you still read my blog,
but sorry,
i really don't think it'll work out.
we've tried before and see how it ended.
sorry.

ALRIGHT!
back to work(:
what a nerd i am.
haha. but studies is GREAT!(:
my best form of escape thus far,
painless and useful.

BYE EARTHLINGS(:

2009-02-05T22:46:00.000-08:00

A QUIZ I GOT FROM DODE'S BLOG(:
PUT WHATEVER YOU USE AS YOUR PLAYLIST NOW ON SHUFFLE,
FOR EACH QUESTION PRESS NEXT,
AND WRITE DOWN THE TITLE AS AN ANSWER NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT IS!
TAG 10 OR MOR PPL TO DO THIS(:
- MAG
- RAIN
- FBUD
- ERICA
- KYM
- FOONG
- GU NIANG
- YIREN
- YITIAN
- TIM; ANGEL
- IZACK
- THE TWINS
- &ANYONE ELSE WHO WANNA DO THIS(:

1) If someone says "Is this okay?" You say:
- middle of the night; sherwood (HAHA!sounds wrong la.imagine. A: is this okay? ME: yeah!but only in the middle of the night. wonder what we could've been doing.)
2) what do you like in a guy/girl:
- 秘密基地; lollipop 棒棒堂 (yeah(: i would like to have this secret platform that is shared by just the both of us.)
3) how do you feel today?
- i think i'm paranoid; garbage (HAHA!(: yeah, maybe i am.i tend to think too much)
4) what is your life's purpose:
- yellow submarine; the beatles (hmm...i've never thought of working in a submarine, but hey, its a pretty cool job(:)
5) what is your motto:
- 下雨天; Lara (what kinda motto is rainy day man.haha.)
6) what do your friends think of you:
- i'll wait for you; sherwood (so basically they think i'm slow la -.- true, right mag and rain and dode?)
7) what do you think of your parents:
- have you ever; s club 7 (hey!i'm not THAT ungrateful kay.haha.questioning them abt everythg)
8) what do you think about very often:
-the best in me; sherwood (I AM NOT THAT NARCISSISTIC!i hope.)
9) what is 2+2:
- i'm asking her to stay; sherwood (HAHA!no link!) but maybe my mind is so concentrated on keeping you by my side
10) what do you think of your best friend:
- misery business; paramore (haha, ya i think she is miserable among the girls of this yr's j1's level, BIMBOs EVERYWHERE!)
11) what do you think of the person you like:
- the middle; jimmy eats world (i think you're secure enough for the lyrics of this song to be unapplicable right? but if you're not, this song would be encouraging(: i think)
12) whats your life story:
- monsoon; tokio hotel (haha.quite true actually.it rains and it thunders but its only for a season no matter how long it is)
13) what do you want to be when you grow up:
- i'm too sexy; right said fred (HAHA!I WISH!(:but i doubt that'll ever happen)
14) what do you think of when you see the person you like?
- love will keep us alive; eagles (it will right?(: i think it will)
15) what do your parents think of you:
- too close for comfort; mcfly (haha.wow,never knew that.shld i scram from you mummy and daddy?)
16) what will you dance t in your wedding?
- obviously; mcfly (haha how reassuring(: means i married the right person right?)
17) what will they play at your funeral:
- i don't wanna miss a thing; aerosmith (wah thanks ah -.- i'm like some spectacle ppl dun wanna miss.but i hope when i die, i won't miss out a thing tt i wanna accomplish)
18) what is your hobby/interest:
- like a rose; A1 (haha.once again, no link)
19) what do you think of your friends:
- i still believe; hayden panettiere (yeah, i still believe in my friends(: )
20) whats the worst thing that could happen?
- all you need is love; beatles (hmm...is reliance on love that bad?)
21) how will you die:
- never ready to leave; sherwood (haha.i guess nobody wld really be ready to leave)
22) what is the one thing you regret:
- stuck on you; elvis (i'll never regret that(: no matter what happens)
23) what makes you laugh:
- 我們之間; lollipop 棒棒堂 (yeah(: i like tinking of our nice nice memories)
24) what makes you cry:
- she falls asleep; mcfly (hmm...a break up song?ya, i think it might make me cry)
25) will you ever get married?
- if you're not the one; daniel beddingfield (hey!this contadicts!so if i marry, i'll marry the right one, but if i dun means you're just not the one?)
26) what scares you the most?
- all that i need; boyzone (wah.double lehs.is reliance on our love that bad?)
27) does anyone like you?
- ruby; kaiser chiefs (HAHA!i doubt ruby reads my blog, but if you do, do you like me?(: )
28) if you could go back in time, what would you change?
- song in my head; sherwood (i doubt i'll ever wanna change this, though sometimes it hurts)
29) what hurts right now?
- crash and burn; savage garden (will you be the one who picks me up once again?)
30) what will you post this as?
- stay close don't go; second hand serenade (haha.seeing the quiz's evident interest in our love lives, quite relevant la(: )

today stayed at home 'cause of chest pains.
i conclude that SGH likes to anyhow eat money.
they wanted to ward me for goodness knows what reason -.-
but i said i was fine enough to leave(:
i feel darn bad la):
this week i missed 2 out of 3 trainings
but the one training i went for it rained
fun!(:
oh and sonia wanna try for goalie
if she's better den me den i guess GOD is answering my qns
should i quit hockey on health reasons?
or shld i stay on.
let time tell la(:

*disclaimer:
the following chunk is ranting.
if you wanna skip it,
please skip this chunk of text and move on to the next(:*
i believe i've never felt so strongly in a negative manner about anyone
you really suck balls you know that?
i don't care what you say about me or bitch about me,
i don't care if you think i'm pathetic and useless,
cause the feeling is mutual.
you try so hard to gain attention,
and get people to turn against me,
making them doubt me.
fine.if that's how you wanna play your game go ahead.
i can't be bothered anymore.
i'm staying on for cjc out of responsibility.
we are nothing like a team,
maybe that is why we can never win?
it's a team sport for goodness sake.
you think it feels good to be perpetually unwell?
not everyone is like you shitbag,
not everyone likes attention the way you do.
so take this and suck it all in.
screw you!

due to my chest pains,
i missed 2 tests!):
so next week instead of having 1 test, i'll have 3
oh well.price to pay for feeling unwell.
hope my body adjust back quickly,
i can't afford to miss sch and feel unwell like i did this week.

it is J1 orientation this week,
and very soon,
it'll be the end of this term.
OMG!):
4 more weeks to the C.T week.):
COMMON TEST for every subject.
we can do it guys(:
our last year before a long 3 month break
with just partying and part time jobs(:
i hope i do well for those 3 tests next week(:
den mummy will sponsor a little more for my itouch.
and i'll be able to get it sooner(:
$180 bucks saved + 2 twenty bucks notes which i bear not use
daddy sponsoring 25%(:
ITOUCH!!(:
eat less, save more(:

alright,
some self reminder,
history -- R.F + A-I conflict + I-P conflict
math -- BINOMIAL DIST.
econs -- INTERATIONAL TRADE

time to hit the books again!
BYE!<3>
[exuent]

2009-01-31T08:16:00.000-08:00

IT'S BEEN QUITE AWHILE SINCE MY LAST POST
& i should honestly stop being mean to my blog.
neglegience is bad, no?
anyway,
CNY! (:

CNY EVE
had celebrations in school.
this year's concert was good,
but i thought last year's one was better(:
after that was potluck!
and MARIGOLD gave us each ten bucks ang bao!
stun siol!
decided to be nice to her(:
after that went to watch inkheart with mag and rain.
at first didn't want to,
but it was surprisingly great!
after that was not feeling too good,
hence didn't go for hockey and went home to rest before reunion dinner.
i know they wanna kill me le.
but health first ma.
but they called me and from their tone and the stuff they said..
pissed me off a little.
but let's not get into that. (:
(but that's why i had my new new yr resolution as:
go for every training no matter how sick i am.
can't stand it when they kp me)
ANYWAY...

REUNION DINNER!(:
with my first uncle(daddy's side) family
and now yan's our official photographer!(:
shall upload the pics another day.
ron's family had their reunion dinner there too(:
food wasn't tt great but so friggin' ex!!
not worth it sia that place.
after dinner went back for round 1 of black jack(:

DAY1
started the day by going to second grand aunty's house.
started our first round of annual family black jack(:
haha.
my family super standard sia.
every year same entertainment; CARDS!
saw ah huey's girlfriend.
from vietnam i think?
could speak chinese only.quite small size.
oh ya!and also saw ah zhen's boyfriend.
hope he's nice to her.
he better be else...he'll get it from me(:
ah zhen deserves a good boyfriend.
OH!AH HUEY WAS OUR CAI SHEN YE!(:
he took out a bundle of 100 pieces of 2bucks.
lost quite a few pieces to each of us(:

after that went to grandma's house for lunch
STEAMBOAT AS USUAL(:
kop-ed 2 pieces of abalone before mummy could scold(:
after lunch, it was back to hitting on the cards.
but this year dunno why,
black jack like no kick le.

after that, we headed back home
cousins were all over le(:
well, most la.
so we all spammed huitar heroes world tour!
OH YES!
HAVE I MENTIONED?
I BOUGHT GUITAR WORLD TOUR!!
LIKE FINALLY(:
okay back to the topic at hand.
after we're all ready to go,
headed over to grand uncles' house
had buffet dinner, small game of black jack
and watched the nyonya show thgy(:
after that headed home to rest up for DAY 2.

DAY2
first stop was grandma house
cause had to pick grandma and grandpa
after that went to small grand aunt's house
and black jack started(:
but i brought history since thurs had hist tut
so after a few rounds at our 4th stop of the day,
i started doing my history question analysis and intro
and after that i played tai di with ee liang(:
that game MUCH better den stupid black jack
poor him though,
lost alot of money to my sis and i.

nothing much for the rest of the week i guess.
NOW SAVING FOR MY ITOUCH!
was talking to jess online,
den relight my motivation to get it.
i'm at the hundred mark!(:

ALRIGHT!
THAT'S ALL FOLKS(:
PICS SOON!
SIGNING OFF, EARTHLINGS!

2009-01-21T06:22:00.000-08:00

WOW! my blog is rather dead indeed(:
lets see,
what has happened?
oh yes,
MAG'S BIRTHDAY!
how does it feel like to be legal mag?(:
we had this really lovely cake thingy dode baked,
if confectionary could be likened to pleasure,
the cake would have been DA BOMB(: pure orgasmic man.
haha.

spent quite a few random hours with someone
on those random days(:
well, it may not have been much,
but those few moments made my day anyway(:
thanks!<3

today, i had my first training of the school year.
it feels good to be back on the pitch in a sense i guess,
i feel like i'm actually healthy (:
*disillusioned, but still(:*
but, time to hit the gym!
so unfit la.haha.

alright,
now its gonna be reflective ranting.
so if you don't wanna be bored to tears,
click the little red button up there.
if you are bored to tears yourself,
den dive right in(:
but feel free to leave this page at any point of time. (:

have you ever wondered,
what its like to sleep under the clear ngiht sky,
staring through the canopies of rustling leaves,
to see the twinkling stars smiling kindly down at us?

have you ever wondered,
what its like to have someone you love standing close,
so close that you can catch the scent of their hair,
every minute,every waking second of your life?

have you ever wondered,
what its like to live each dayto the fullest,
without worrying about the next or anything else,
and just do the things you'd do if you had time?

this could go on and on,
'cause life is full of possibilities.
but sometimes,
it just seem like life is being hindered by life itself,
doesn't it?
emails and talks and all say the same thing,
life is not a race and we shld not speed pass and miss the good stuff.
but are we given a chance?
nah.
it is one thing to have a purpose in life,
but another to make your purpose your life.

until now,
i'm still trying to figure out,
am i happy living a life that is lived to accomplish,
or would i rather kick back and cruise through life.
the answer is obvious,
but choosing the answer takes courage,
something surprisingly absent at this point of time,
in this whirlpool of events and commitments.
what is it called again?
oh ya, i've heard people calling it life.
is that it den? life?

alright,
i'm gonna be impulsive,
and self declare break.
off to bed!
BYE earthlings(:

2009-01-13T07:09:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS DAY 2 OF THE SCHOOL YEAR!(:
lessons started proper today and GUESS WHAT?
I'M ACTUALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO STUDIES THIS YEAR.
yes i know i sound like a geek,
but i really actually do.
this year is THE year.
A LEVELS.
miss teo went through the schedule for this year,
time will pass real fast this year.

i'm seperated from mag for almost every lesson this yr!):
and with fbud not in my class anymore...
it kinda suck.
but i'm in the same class as iggy,
and i can get to know him more this year(:

STUDY DATES anyone?(:
just text me if you need a study buddy!

alright,
that's all for today i guess.
BYE EARTHLINGS!<3

2009-01-10T06:28:00.000-08:00

HELLO WORLD(:
there's nothing much for me to blog since i've been stuck at home quite alot these days
no thanks to my stubborn ankle
which is deriving pleasure in my pain
and collaborating with mummy dearest to keep me home
i feel like i'm dying with boredom already):

BUT!
school starts soon and i can't wait.
surprisingly(:
although i don't wanna change class,
so as long as i'm with my lit homies i guess i'll survive.
but fbud not in my class anymore!!
*WAILS SO LOUD I WISH BRO PAUL AND HUMPTY DUMPTY'S
EAR DRUMS VIBRATE UNTIL BURST*
i miss my fbud):
STUPID LA!): hols so busy for what.rah.

ON AN ABSOLUTELY RANDOM NOTE,
MAG I LOVE YOU FOR INTRO-ING THIS SONG TO ME!
*through the monsoon,
just me and you*
LOVE LOVE LOVE THE SONG(:

ALRIGHT EARTHLINGS!
TATA!

2009-01-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

I WISH UPON THAT FAINT GLOWING STAR,
that i can think properly and put forth my case,
and tell you to look around and see,
maybe you ought to give me abit more freedom,
for no other reason than the fact that i'm turning 18 soon.

2009-01-06T04:39:00.000-08:00

YAY!
i kop-ed a blog quiz from mag to do(:
and i'm gonna be the indirect blog quiz bully tt i am
and tag the same few people (:
here goes!(:

1. What is more DIFFICULT for you, looking into someone's eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
looking into someone's eyes when i'm telling them how i feel.
i shall be honest, i fear rejection.
what if i see it in their eyes?

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
the times that i get really angry, it is usually because of one thing.
sorry, the past is hard to let go.

3. You are on a flight from honolulu to chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call?
assuming that i'm with my family,
i'll call YOU(: yes baby, i'll call you to tell you how much i love you and let your last memory of me be a nice one(:

4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
yes i agree with mag, this is a terribly morbid question.haha.
but no i won't tell anyone. yes baby, not even you
i'll spend my last days patching up with friends that i've fallen out with, let the people i love know that i love them, spend as much time as i can with my family and friends and fulfill every promise after writing my will (: baby, i hope you will never turn me down when i ask you out(:
nope i will not be too afraid cause i know GOD has saved me a place in heaven and i'm sure of my salvation(: but i'll worry about you baby.must learn how to take care of yourself kay?

5. You can have one of the following two things- Love or Trust. Which do you choose? Why?LOVE(:
'cause, just as mag has said,
how can love exist without trust?(:

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
i would definitely be driving to work(: but yes i would.a dog's life is still a life.besides, i can speed to work(: at most a speeding ticket(: i'm a good law abiding citizen so that would be my one and only ticket.

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?
you must be cheating on yours to have such a question in a quiz.haha.but anyway,
i would never be unfaithful. baby, i'll love you even till the day you don't.
BUT if i was, i would tell.
if there is no love, what's the point of keeping it going right?

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?
"yes fbud, i know i'm as awesome as you but no need to rush into this just cause guys are arshlocks(:" but that would never happen so no worries!(:

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or why not?
YES! i wanna use that one hour to make sure she is saved before she died. 1year is a worthwhile price to pay for someone's soul, no?(:

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
haha!i think not(: i get annoyed by myself alot.

11. Does love = sex?
NOPE!(: unless you are an unfeeling jerk filled with male hormones and think with your d**k

12. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say?
i think it was less den a month ago.(:

13. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?
hmmm...neither, cause i won't have a friend i don't love and i always tell people i love them when i mean it(:

14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
i don't know(: actually, i do kow.i can never bear to give you up, unless that's what wld make you happy, 'cause i love you<3

15. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?
i just told mag!she's coming over tml(:

16. Imagine- it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
YOU(: i wish you could be the one who spends every moment with me.i really do

17. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or why not?
yup(: same as mag.i'll call an ambulance and if my bro was with me i'll ask him to administer the CPR!if not join st.johns for what right?(:

18. You are holding onto your grandmother's hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your reason for making the decision?
of course i'll save my grandma -.- stupid question.the newborn might go to heaven but i've yet to share the good news with my maternal grandma yet!):

19. Are you old fashioned?
YES!very extremely!ya right.

20. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
how can anyone be nice expecting others to be nice back?

21. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
true love with a guaranteed broken heart. quoting leap years, "it's better to have loved and lost den never to have loved at all" baby, loving you is proof enough.i think loving you is the most painful yet the most right thg

22. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
SECRET!(: for you to love me like you used to and spend every moment together(:

and now, i tag...
-erica
-kym
-rain
-fbud
-dode
-tim
-yiren/stephanie
-AND WHOEVER WANNA DO IT(:

2009-01-05T06:18:00.000-08:00

ITS TIME TO CHIONG SATS!
scary):
another 19 more days.
hope i do well,
'cause from what i scored for the diagnostic i tried,
i ain't gonna make it.

okay let's see what has happened so far(:
31st dec had watchnight service
and after that was SLEEPOVER!
due to technical moodswings of my beloved lappy,
for photos go kym's or erica's blog(:
on the 1st of jan,
it was the NEW YEAR PARTY(:
okay, it wasn't much of a party
'cause most of us were half-dead
haha(:
sharilyn, foong, kym,erica and i all slept really early(:
6am in the morning.
but it was fun!
ate cup noodles at 4.30am (:

on the 2nd, thank you so much for spending that day with me
i was a happy kid(: though you were so tired yourself
for reasons unknown to everyone but me. you made my day with that kiss(: and every sweet touch(:

3rd was a good good day!
started the day off with a hockey match.
WELL DONE HOCKERS! (:
our first match of the year drawn with tp!
we'll be owning the next few matches!
letting keep our flame burning ya?(:
after that, rushed down to band prac,
in time only for the LAST SONG -.-
so in the end,
i back up instead of co-leading(:
den after that hang out with
MARIE,MICHELLE,SHONA,IZACK,ERICA,DARREN
HANNAH,BEN KEE,SHAUN (this 3 only for lunch): )
all i can say is: FUN!!(:
let's do this again soon(:
after talking,walking and arcading
we went home.

on the 4th,
CHURCH(:
got to know our new dg
and jessica came!(:
anyway, guess what!!
marie is in my dg!(:
whhheeeeeee....
this year should be fun.
den after that took uncle jack and candice's dg for lunch
stupid tim leong keep suaning me!
and jessica bully me!
but i love love love such sunday outings(:

now time to do the quiz tagged by kym(:
1) list out 3 friends you can think of now.
-erica -kym -tim

2) why are you thinking of them now?
-i'm talking to them online!(:

3) are they your best friends?
haha, best means only have one what.how can it be plural?
YATI is my best friend but i love erica,kym and tim LOADS too(:

4) what do you like about them?
-erica: for being nice despite being mean and for being there for me
-kym: for being a retardedly great friend
-tim: for being the best angel anyone can ask for

5) have they been a great friend to you?
YUP! definitely(:

6) now let's stop talking about them and tell me whats on your mind right now
my ankle hurts like crap, i'm happy my aunty gave birth to ethel today and i'm missing someone (: when will i stop missing you?it hurts you know):

7) are you happy/sad/annoyed/uncomfortable/excited about whats on your mind right now
annoyed about the pain in my ankle, excited about my newborn cousin (:

8) what do you wish for to happen now?
i wanna have the sleepover again with kym,foong,erica and shar and to spend every minute i have with you

9) who did you just talk to on the phone and when was it?
mummy!(: awhile ago only.

10) who was the last to text you a message?
erica!(:

11) do you feel stuck up at home now?
YES! it sucks to sprain your ankle):

12) do you like to do quizzes?
depends i guess. at times like this, YES! (:

13) why do you like to do them?
'cause they give me smthg to blog when i have none

14) when do you want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
SECRET(: i never want you to leave me

15) when do you want to get married?
ask me that when i'm attached (:

16) how many kids do you want to have?
ideally 2! one girl and one boy(:

17) would you like to live in a house of your own with your husband and children?
i guess. but i KNOW i want OUR house in 5yrs time(:

18) do you think this quiz is asking about your future?
partially ba.

19) are all what you said earlier true?
this question is awkwardly phrased somehow. but ya(: if you lie in a quiz whats the point of doing it right?(:

20) what song can you think of now?
love song(: i wanna write you a love song(:

21) do you listen to the radio?
hardly by myself but on the car every morning when daddy fetch me to school during school term

22) what do you hate most in this world?
now now, hate is too strong a word to use, no?(:

23) list out 7 names.
yati.mag.kym.shar.foong.erica.tim

24) randomly pick a number from 1 - 7 without looking at the screen
6

25) what is his/her name?
erica leong EN RUI (:

26) do you like him/her as a friend?
YUP (:

27) why? she's my
wifey (:

28) pass this quiz to 8 friends
-fbud
-mag
-rain
-dode
-tim
-daryl CHEE
-marie
-izack

alright!
that's all for now folks(:
TATA!(:

2009-01-02T06:38:00.000-08:00

HELLO WORLD!(:
today is the 2nd day of the year,
and i'm a happy kid!(: thank you baby for today!
reason: SECRET(: i finally feel your hugs and kisses again(: really missed it

anyway, tagged by erica to do this quiz,
so here goes!

1.Are you one of the most popular students in school?
- NOPE(: can't stand people who seek to be high profile -.-

2.Do you think you got the looks?
- haha! YUP(: the really BAD looks(: but thank you for loving me despite it

3.When was the last time you went out with your buddies?
- just had a new year party with my church buds!(:
but i miss my t05 homies):

4.How many times in a week do you go out?
- it depends, i guess(: but this year is A LEVELS YEAR!): we'll have our study dates kay?(:you're my motivation(:

5.Do you like to be alone?
- when i'm down, yah. usually, NO(: i hope i'll never be alone,you'll never be cause in my heart you're always with me(:

6.Do you intend to be famous in the future?
- nah(: being the only goalie of the team already too heavy a role, imagine if i was famous.CRAZY(: and don't worry baby, i won't over exert myself during hockey cause i wanna be well enough to look after you(:

7.Do you have the courage to stand infront of an audienceand show them your talent?
- haha, ask me again when i've found my talent!

8.Would you rather go to a midnight party with your friendsor go to a dinner with your bestfriends?
- hmm..right now, what i would love to do is go for a MIDNIGHT PARTY with my BESTFRIEND!(: and i hope one day i can have a nice night time picnic at the beach

9.What's your most embarrassing moment?
- so many!i think it was when we had to perform without a mic a perf on bloody sunday.den i was super unprepared and all, den when i performed, i shouted an extra word.whole school laugh la! so paiseh.haha.

10.What's the best moment of your life?
- every happy moment(: especially with you, my darling<3

11. Tag 5 people to do this quiz.
- MAG!
- DODE!
- RAIN!
- FBUD!
- TIM!

2008-12-30T23:46:00.000-08:00

ITS THE LAST DAY OF 2008!
this year passed really quickly.
it has been an eventful year,
further proven when i read through my blog posts.
in the past 364days,
i've had my heart broken,
i've broken hearts,
i've been hurt and have hurt,
i've been overloaded and supported.

this year started with an overly enthu me,
all high about the school and my cca.
now, it is a totally different tune.
i've seen how pretentious the people can be,
and how demanding my cca can be.
but these have helped me see who truly cared.
i wanna give a holla of THANKS to
FBUD!
MAG!
TIM!
ERICA!
JESSICA!
FOONG!
KYM!
SHARILYN!
HANNAH!
IZACK!
MARIE!
MICHELLE.C!
especially as they are truly the ones(:

reading back,
there are 2 poems that i wrote that i wanna re-post
the first poem:

In the silver beam of the night,
you saw joy in my eye.
But, without the aid of the light,
I managed to mask a lie.

I gave up myself,
to morph into your dream.
I'm now just an elf,
hiding behind deception's screen.

I oft so longed to ask,
if you saw me as who I am,
'cause with each new dusk,
I check into your fantastical camp.

I know this was borne of love,
but I know not how much I can take.
I long for the freedom of a dove,
so do you think this ground can be raked?

this poem was and still is till date,
the best reflection of my innermost cry
i know this is the reason of my resentment
the reason for the implosions and build ups.
but i can't bring myself to let the past all go.
you've apologised and i've forgiven,
but yet i cannot erase the years of tears.
i'm sorry.
give me time, i'm still trying.

the second poem:

I've tried to relight the flame,
and you, I've never placed blame.
But my heart feared a relapse,
and pain resides in my synapse.

Apologies have been made enough,
and forgiveness embraced the wrongs.
Now, I can bring myself to laugh,
and experience with love, the warmth.

You have stretched me like a tightrope,
with your stress-imposing hope.
I hope that you can see in time,
that love lost is not a crime.

So now again, i bid you well,
until you can handle this letdown.
I'm sure this is not farewell,
just for you to remove that frown.

this poem was written for a broken relationship,
but reading it through again,
i realised it can mean more than just that.
a few lines strike me at different velocity and corners,
but i'll deal with it when the time arrives.

every year is like a book.
some are tattered and torn,
worn with time and pain.
but others are in near perfect condition.
this year, my book is of neither condition,
but rather of both.
now that it's over,
tonight at twelve i close the last chapter,
and endorse on the pages the end.
i'll put this book in the library of my memory,
the technology that never fails,
and catalogues my life automatically.
but i know it'll never collect dust,
cause the love and warmth of this book,
is carried forth to my next(:

so,
FAREWELL 2008!
you've taught me well,
and whipped me into shape.
& now its time you rest,
to welcome in 2009!(:

2008-12-29T06:57:00.000-08:00

QUIZ!(: tagged by kym and erica<3

1)What is your full name?
Jael Lai YiYing

2)Do you like your name?
erm..not really.

3)How long have you like the person you currently like?
i don't LIKE anyone.

4) Have you kissed anyone before?
yup.

5)What are you doing at 8am this morning?
woke up realising i am not feeling well, text krif that i'm not well.

6)What were you doing an hour ago?
getting my new phone!(:

7) What are you currently doing?
talking rubbish with my bro, doing this quiz and freezing in my room(:

8)Who was the last to text you?
erica i think(:

9)Have you told anyone you love them today?
yup(:

10)Are you missing anyone right now?
uhuh.(:

11)Name someone whose name starts with Z.
zhiyun

12)Which friend of yours stays near you?
define near(: if its sengkang, alot.if it is within ten mins of train/bus journey, alot alot.(:

13)Do you prefer to call or sms?
depends.

14)Can you live a day without your television or handphone?
television - a week also can
handphone - definitely not!(:

15)Do you hate anyone now?
nope!(:

16)Are you mad about anything right now?
hmmm...i was a few hours ago.

17)Who do you text the most this month?
erica,tim,foong,kym.

18)Who is the last person you talk to?
my brother?(: he's just right beside me being high and singing heaven is a place on earth -.-
gay not?haha.

19) Tag 10 people to do this quiz.
FBUD.MAG.RAIN.DODE.DARYL.IZACK.MARIE.MICHELLE C.TIM.CHRIS.

2008-12-18T05:20:00.000-08:00

HELLO WORLD(:
i'm here to revive my dying blog with this quiz
maggy tagged me so i decided to be nice and do(:
mag appreciate this, i still have worship ppt to do.
haha(:

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
1) for you to love me the way you used to(:
2) to be able to be with you FOREVER(:
3) for everyone i know to be happy!(:

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
OH MY!(: you mean you wonder if you're real too before?
GREAT!(: i'm not the only one.

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
sorta.but with GOD and YOU by my side i dun think i need to fear(:

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
yup!i would fly to pluto and back even, if YOU want me to.

Q: Do you believe in Love?
DUH(: i am so deeply submerged in it how can i not believe it?

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
as long as it takes.(: i won't let it die off after 8days.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
yup.but thats life ain't it?

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
yup!alot more less time, but even now i still do.

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
YAH!it really sucks.especially when you're trying to do your paper in exams.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
(: if you are important to me, you should know who you are.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
yup(:

Q:Are you happy with your life?
haha, good enough i guess(: at least i have YOU to make life seem alright(:

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
yup!if not whats the point in committing to it?

Q: What type of friends do you like?
the ones who can stand the real me(: the ones who are there when i need them.
the onees i have now(:

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
don't we all?(:

Q: Which is your favourite body part of the opposite gender?
hmm...ever since i met you, LIPS(:

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
i'd be upset and try to find out why it is done.but i'd never stop loving YOU.

had our match against ajc today.
although we lost on the scoreboard,
we have won in spirit.
this is one of the best game we've played
and i believe we can improve together as a team(:
WE CAN DO IT!
and fyi, you need not have yelled at me.
it was my first time fully padded as a goalie
the fact that i could adapt to it was already good.
if you think it is that easy why dun you try?

'change is the only constant'
that was what miss susan leong once said 2 yrs ago.
i always knew it was true,
but only recently i felt the possible hurts it can cause.
i don't blame you for letting it fade,
in fact, i know it is my fault.
but i hope i can bring it back,
i'll try and do all that i can.
baby, please don't give up kay?

TOMORROW IS PLH EOY CAMP!
NO HOLDS BARRED!
WHEE(:
its sorta gonna be the p6 induction to plh too.
can't wait!(:

ikea shopping yesterday was fun(:
and so was seoul garden lunch with
mag,rain,fbud and ossy.
and yes osman!seould is not soul!
haha.funny la you(:

OH!
before i sign off today,
a special thank you for swang,
who taught me how to goal keep better(:

ALRIGHT!
GOODBYE EARTH.
TILL WE MEET AGAIN!<3

2008-12-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG!
IT IS POSITIVELY CUTE(:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GwX-IuACEc

STUCK ON YOU
ELVIS PRESLEY<3

You can shake an apple off an apple tree
Shake-a, shake- sugar,
But you'll never shake me
Uh-uh-uh
No-sir-ee, uh, uh
I'm gonna stick like glue,
Stick because I'm
Stuck on youYUP I AM!(:

Gonna run my fingers thru your long black hair i miss being able to play with your hair
Squeeze you tighter than a grizzly bear hug you tight tight and dun let go(:
Uh-uh-uh,
Yes-sir-ee, uh, uh
I'm gonna stick like glue
Stick, because I'm
Stuck on you

Hide in the kitchen, haha,baby please be smarter den that
hide in the hall and hide in better places kay?(:
Ain't gonna do you no good at all but no matter where you hide, still no use
'Cause once I catch ya and the kissin' starts
A team o' wild horses couldn't tear us apart hell ya(:

Gonna take a tiger from his daddy's side no need daddy's tiger la(:
That's how love is gonna keep us tied pure love is enough (:
Uh-uh-uh
Yes-sir-ee, uh,uh
I'm gonna stick like glue
Stick, because I'm
Stuck on you

Gonna take a tiger from his daddy's side
That's how love is gonna keep us tied
Uh-uh-uh
Yes-sir-ee, uh,uh
I'm gonna stick like glue, yeah, yeah
because I'm Stuck on you
I'm gonna stick like glue, yeah, yeah
because I'm Stuck on you yup, stuck on you.now and FOREVER.<3

2008-12-09T18:38:00.000-08:00

finally posting the pics from taiwan trip!(:
too many things to say,
so i decided to let the pictures do the talking.
from the first day at the airport to the last day(:
DISCLAIMER!
if you can't stand my face please do not proceed,
if you so choose to,
prepare a paper bag beside you(:

don't ask why this spastic pose

haha,sudden urge to be retarded

2008-11-29T08:10:00.000-08:00

i'm in taiwan now!(:
haven't blogged in ages i know.
breeding friggin dengue mozzies alr la this blog.
haha.
i shall revive it soon(:
[soon being a relative and VERY elastic word]
alright,
seeya earthlings!<3

2008-11-15T06:35:00.000-08:00

mag tagged me
and i'm in a rather FUBARed state
so i shall do this quiz instead of what i'm supposed to
namely, worship slides and dg prep.
so here goes

1.How many texts are in your inbox?
there was 1409 before i just deleted it just now.
now there's only 4.

2.When did your last hug take place?
today! many times over by louis(:

3. Are you a jealous person?
YUP!don't you just pity my stead?haha.

4.Are you tired right now?
yeah!dead tired.but helluva workload to complete

5.Do you chew on your straws
YES I DO! sorry mag, i know you find it gross. but it's fun!

6.Have you ever been called a tease?
yup, but it is a female birth right!

7.Do you like to cuddle?
YUP! especially up to someone(:

8.Do you cry easily?
depends on how stable my mood is that day i guess.

9.Are you a heavy sleeper?
only in my 2nd to 4th hour of sleep.

10.Where is your cellphone?
on my notebook beside me.

11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
yup. tested and proven.

12.Are you mad at someone right now?
mad is quite the understatement.

13.Do you believe in love at first sight?
YUP! not the cliched look in the eyes and fall in love kind but the when i first hang out with you i know you're the one kind. (:

14.What makes you laugh out loud?
yup, same answer as mag. the crazy things done by my crazy friends(:

15.Who was the last person you talked to?
my brother.

16.Name one person on your top friends who is most like you.
can't seem to think of anyone lehs. i think i'm weird.

17.Do you get butterflies when around the person you like?
YES! and i still do now, from time to time.

18.Will you get married?
i'm not sure. i like kids but i'd rather adopt(:

19.When was the last time you smiled?
on the bus was i was viewing something.

20.Does anyone like you?
good question(: why don't you go find out?

21.Do you secretly like someone?
how do you define secretly? (:

22.Who was the first person you talked to today?
my father. woke me up.

23.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Yati and Erica(:

24.What are you NOT looking forward to?
same as mag.Batam OCIP.cause i'll miss someone and i didn't really wanna go anyway.

25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
i guess so. cause they said they meant it. unless they lie

26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
i'd say good for you to him and tell the girl to keep watching him.

27.Are you a forgiving person?
trying to be. but right now, i don't think i am.

28.What's something you really want right now?
To be with _____________ 24/7.

29.Do you fall for people easily?
nope.i have high standards which does not tally with my lack of.

30.Have you ever fallen for your best friend ex's ?
nope(: our taste is vastly different, thank goodness for that. that means no fighting over anyone(:

31.What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
grape flavoured sweet(:

32.Have you ever kissed anyone named Michelle?
haha nope!

33.Who was the last person you drove with?
the bus driver and the passengers on board bus 27.

34.How late did you stay up last night and why?
2am.was up preparing something and couldn't sleep.

35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
New Zealand or Switzerland(:

36.Do you prefer to call or text?
call. so i can hear the person's voice.

37.When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
not saying.

38.Who took your profile picture?
me(:

39.Who was the last person you took a picture with?
erm...with louis and everly i think.

40.Can you live a day without TV?
yup(: i hardly watch tv.

41.Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
hmmm...i'd agree with mag on this too. neck(:

42.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
tired.my first thought was to get back to sleep.

43.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
hmmm...i can't remember!

44.How often do you see your ex?
weekly. same youth group, what to do?

45.Would you ever donate blood?
i would love to! but my stupid red blood cells, insufficient.

46.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
haha!does those by application count?

47.Do you want someone dead?
nope. i think that's mean!

48.What does your last text message say?
can't say what's in it.sorry!

50.What are you thinking about right now?
something i can't say either.sorry again!

51.Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes!

52.What time did you go to sleep last night?
2am la.STM la the writer of this quiz.

53.Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
not sure, gotta ask cedar. HEY! where did you all get the OAC camp tee from?

54.Is someone on your mind right now?
yes, because that someone is ALWAYS on my mind.

55.Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
yup! EVERY YEAR(: CHURCH CAMP!!haha.

56.Who was the last person to text you?
MAG(:

57.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
relatively.

58.What are you listening right now?
the aircon's weird noises

59.Did you sing at all today?
yup.

60.When's the last time you cried?
not telling you.

61.Who were you with yesterday?
band prac and dbs(: so it'll be the band playing this week and all who turned up for dbs(:

62.Do you miss anyone?
Yes.

63.Who was the last person in your bed?
me.the only person who ever sleeps on it is me.

64.Have you ever drank with your number one?
number one what? but i only drank with my class a little at dode's house and at family functions.

65.If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
nope(:

66.Do you want someone you can't have?
what do you think?(:

67.When did you last talk to your brother or sister?
less den an hour ago. he told me to off the lan line once i'm done.

68.Where were you at 2:02 am this morning?
in my room. my parents think that 9.30 is late. how can i possibly be out at 2.02am?

69.Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
don't know(:

70.Do you want to tell someone something?
Yes.
1. I love you, no matter what you've done and what you have not, nothing will change the fact that i do.even if you don't, i still do. (:
2. Would you two stop running my life for me? i am 17 years old. i know full well what i want.

Bonus question. Who do you want to tag?
1. YATI! though she most likely won't do.
2. Izack you can do this if you're bored.
3. Erica! no excuse of not having anything to blog(:
4. the twins if they have time
5. Dode!
6. and whoever else who wants to do(:

2008-11-10T18:12:00.000-08:00

1. Do you have secrets?
what do you think? YES YES YES IDO!(: but i'm not telling you.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
i don't wanna make the same mistake twice would i? look what the first time did to me -.-

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
to a large extent, NO(: cause cj suck balls. ):
but i do miss a specific few people.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
you sure you want me to list? (: OKAY!
i will buy a nice big house for the sleepover this sun, i'll buy everyone a nice meal (yes yati, you may have both cosmo and curry-san),buy a DRUMSET!(: *dances around the room with the thought of getting one* and a jamming studio. okay i'll spare you guys(: next question!

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
HAHA! NO! that is as bad as incest i tell you.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by the same someone you love(:

7. What would you do, if you found yourself growing a tail?
HA! that would cnfirm erica and mag's suspicion that i'm not human. monsters and alien do grow tails right?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
be happy that the person's happy and pray and watch from afar.(:

9. Which exotic animal would you choose for a pet?
i wanna choose...UNICORN!(:

10. What takes you down the fastest?
breaking my heart(: don't try it!

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
i'll be 27 with a job i love and living in my dream home(:

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
family, bestf, PLH-ers, 1t05, and YOU(:

13. What is the most important thing in life?
happiness. (:

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
married but poor; with the assumption that i'm married to theperson i love(:

15. Fiction or reality?
fiction!(: reality is horrid most of the time you know.
i like to hide in my world of imaginations(:

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yup. whats the point of being in a relationship if you don't, right?

17. If somebody told you that you looked like a turducken, what would you do?
haha what on earth is a turducken?
but it sounds cute(:

18. What would it take to make you scream?
haha hmmm...not sure actually. try pissing me off.

19. What do you like to do during free-time?
what is free time? (: it hardly exists in my world.

2008-10-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

it's been ages since i lasted blogged.
haha, whoever you are grim reaper,
i won't let you stay around for long
i just sorta left my life in the gutter
and have finally found it back.
so, cut me some slack ya?(:

today was the first i clicked!
i'm so sorry izack!
i sorta spaced for one of your slides
and i learnt how to keep the projector!!:)
i am the only girl techie in plh i think
how absolutely awesomely fun
today was meeting day man.
after plh was youth comm mtg,
den rushed back home for pw mtg
gosh.it's crazy man.

i'll be gone for a whole month during hols!):
i think i'll miss people la.
but oh well.no choice right?):
i guess life's like that.

oh!i suddenly fell in love with this song again! baby,this is for you
ALL THAT I NEED this is true, you're all that i need
BOYZONE(: iloveyou.imissyou.

I was lost and alone
Trying to grow making my way down that long winding road
Had no reason no rhyme
Like a song out of time
And there you were standing in front of my eyes

How could I be such a fool
To let go of love and break all the rules
Girl when you walked down that door
Left a hole in my heart
And now I know for sure

You're the air that I breathe
Girl you're all that I need
And I wanna thank you, lady
You're the words that I read
You're the light that I see
And your love is all that I need

I was searching in vain
Playing a game
Had no-one else but myself left to blame
You came into my world

No diamonds or pearls
Just like a castle of sand
Girl, I almost let love slip right out of my hands
And just like a flower needs rain
I will stand by your side through the joy and the pain

You're all that I need, girl
You're the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you
You're the words that I read, girl
You're love is all I need, yeah
And I want to thank you
You're all that I need, girl
You're the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you..

alright, that's all for now babes!
<3.

2008-10-09T08:19:00.000-07:00

WOW!
promos are finally over and man!
it feels GRREEAATTT(:
i skipped my way to the toilet the moment i got outta the hall!
you wanna know whats liberty?
forget the statue of liberty man.
promos totally redefined imprionment.
in fact, it is now the official epitomy of it.

alright, now grim reaper can shoo(:
my blog is revived.
you see,
promos came and claimed my brain.
and i pulledmy blog along.
so both died.
but they've been revived(:
at 10.03am this morning.

loads have happened over the past few weeks.
both good and bad.
more good than bad
cause of you(:
ILOVEYOU!

alright.
now life's back to normal.
so amidst the partying,
there's PW,
there's schools work
and there's many more things.
and there's no you for 8 days):

i shall blog more tomorrow.
i'm drained
and still recovering from an excessive high,
and blood rush.
must be exams end.
or maybe it's just you(: <3

2008-09-21T08:51:00.000-07:00

CAUTION!
BEFORE YOU PROCEED,
PLEASE NOTE DISCLAIMER.
THIS ENTRY IS A REFLECTIVE + RANTING POST
IF OF NO INTEREST, PLEASE EVACUATE.
I'M NOT REALLY IN THE MOOD TO BE SLAMMED.

overnight study with fbud got me thinking
and i realised just how much i do not know myself
after thinking things through,
i finally know what i want in life.
but yet, it's a path not many people would take.
and my parents won't be too pleased when they find out
i was never one who needed big things to smile
in fact, simple things makes my smile more genuine
but do the society at large today see it?
all the competition, the vying and all,
is it truly necessary?
or are we doing it just to satisfy our ego?

i guess this year has worn me out through and through.
the amount of time i put into studies this year,
can easily trump that which i had in my 4 yrs of sec sch.
and after putting in so much,
draining my energy and affecting my health and all,
what good does it do?
i guess after this promos,
i'm going to stop overworking myself.
i'm just gonna do my best and if my best is not enough,
tt shows jc is not for me.
i don't care if i'll appear weak or cowardly to others,
life is too short to try and please people.

one thing i dislike is self-righteous people.
how can everything prove you wrong
and yet you still stand there,
bold as brass and sure as sun
and insist your stand?
you insult people in the vilest vulgar manner,
you are so self-centred and self-absorbed,
that you fail to see how others around you truly react.
you are sensitive in terms of receiving,
but yet insensitive in terms of releasing.
i do not know what to say to you.
this is not meant to insult you,
and i'm sure you know who you are.
i just wonder how anyone can be like you.
i've been tolerating for far too long.
maybe it's time you face the cold hard truth in the face.
whatever it is,
all the best in life.
hope you encounter people like yourself,
else you're bound to suffer.

2008-09-12T10:44:00.000-07:00

oh my, so fast week 1 of term4 is gone!
and i just realised i have not blogged all week
2 more weeks to PROMOS!):
scary much?
nothing much this week i think.
just mugging, tuition, mugging
oh! went for prayer meeting.
first time. cause focus was on youth ministry.

today came home early cause of headache
den i realised my maid and grandma not home
so i sat outside my door reading my othello
den my neighbour invited me in!(:
ain't they the nicest?(:
they offered me coke and mooncake too!
gosh.i think nice ppl like them are extinct.
especially here in singapore. haha.

alright, back to mugging history!
no life eh?2am mugging history.

hey baby,
i never felt this way before.
you make my face flush,
you make my day complete by smiling,
you make my heart beat faster when you're near.
and i can miss you the moment you get off the bus.
i think, i'm addicted to you. <3

2008-09-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

a random nice song!(:

Somehow I know I will find a way,
To a brighter day, in the sun
Somewhere I know that he waits for me,
Someday soon he'll see,
I'm the one.

I won't give up on this feeling,
And nothing could keep me away.

'Cause I still believe in destiny,
That you and I were meant to be.
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above,
'Cause I still believe, believe in love.

I know what's real can not be denied,
Although it may hide for a while.
With just one touch love can calm your fears,
Turning all your tears, into smiles.

It's such a wonderous feeling,
I know that my heart can't be wrong.

'Cause I still believe in destiny,
That you and I were meant to be.
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above,
'Cause I still believe, believe in love.

Love can make miracles, change everything,
Lift you from the darkness,
and make your heart sing (make your heart sing),
Love is forever, when you fall,
it's the greatest power of all.

Oh I still believe in destiny,
That you and I were meant to be.
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above,
'Cause I still believe, believe in love.
Yes I still believe, believe in love.
I still believe in love,
I still believe, believe in love,
I still believe, believe in love.

this song is for all of you(:
but especially for YOU<3

2008-09-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

HOHOHO
tomorrow is back to school!
so it is back to disciplined mugging,
coffee high during lectures,
homework secretly in chinese,
essay outline rush during breaks.

yesterday was a good day(:
okay, half a good day.
but at least i manage to see my loves(:
today too.
the surprise was..well a surprise.
haha but seeing my loves 2 days in a row is good
it makes me a whole lot better
had family dinner to celebrate xing's bday tonight.
not a bad day.

when your hand touched the handle of that door,
the glass door to my heart,
i felt like i could recognise you,
'cause baby, i've been waiting for you all my life.
i just never knew.

if we could stand back from the world for a minute,
and just lie under the stars with not a worry,
just the 2 of us, would you?
i'm still waiting for the answer,
hoping that your heartbeat is aligned with mine.

2008-09-05T13:29:00.000-07:00

HELLO WORLD!(:
i haven't been online all week.
you know why?
'cause i'm on a msn fast!
and now i'm blogging from changi airport,
current timing 4.30 AM.
have been doing math and econs.
goodness i am honestly dense.

so quickly, it's the last weekday of the holidays
goodness. time really flew by
let's see what happened all week.

MONDAY;
mugging with fbuddy a.k.a bestie(:
oh and badminton.

TUESDAY;
back to school for extra lit paper 4 lecture
mugged with mag at swirl after that
before meeting my loves(:
hanged out at vivo for awhile before heading home

WDNESDAY;
back to school again for extra lit paper 4 lessons
went out with dode after that to buy stuff and study
at CHANGI AIRPORT(:
watched planes fly about
met nut and went home

THURSDAY;
mugged with the kids at island creamery.
esther, becky, angie, weile, chris and ben
and after that was family outing!
watched money not enough 2
friggin' nice show!!
you guys so must watch it.

FRIDAY;
went to school to print history for my class,
as well as study with rain, fbuddy, dode and theresa
THANK YOU THERESA FOR HELPING WITH THE PRINTING!
(: 1T05 must thank her.
after that went to far east and ate with nut
before rushing off to dbs and now...
tada! here i am at changi(:

tomorrow is gonna be a tiring day.
but i shall persevere.
thy wearied soul shalt seek strength from thine love for thee.(:

today in dbs i learnt something.
it is that we should love the person but hate the sin.
we should not hate our enemies,
but rather, love them and just hate their sin

alright enough mundane nonsense from me.
BYE!<3

looking up at the clear night sky,
i sat by the window, wondering why,
my heart races just looking in your eyes.
though i know tis' a huge love crime,
it's all worth it, if you were mine.
i've fallen deep, i've fallen fast,
and i'll do all i can to make it last.
just to see on you, a smile,
i'm more than willing to run a mile.

cause baby, i love you so. <3

2008-08-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

hmm..what's there to blog?
ah yes, TEACHER'S DAY AND HIKE(:
teacher's day first.
it was a good and bad day
the celebrations in cjc was a total disaster
the sound system was conked!
the bass guitar became the loudest instrument.
joke of the century man.
good thing i played okay(:

after that, went back with the cjcian ex cgss ppl
got back there rather early.
watched the perf and it was better den cjc's!
haha. anyway saw quite a few juniors tt i missed,
especially yuky, estee and the other el juniors
and i finally saw my beloved 4I ppl!(:
LOVES!
anyway, it's snap snap flash time
after that went with fbud, farhana, vithiiya, anoosha and one more person
to vivo. but i went there to meet my 2 queens!(:
and one basket.
had lunch, walked a little den went home le.
took an hour long bus ride with tt nut.
haha, got home, showered and out to dbs!
packed dinner and happily ate during dbs.
as usual, it ended at 10plus.
i love dbs! so fun. haha

saturday nothing much,
just family dinner, daddy's treat
paid a bomb to eat boots.
haha.after tt so full i felt like i ate a cow,
not just steak.

today was the PLH SOUTHERN RIDGES HIKE!
me and david two-man show today.
haha the whole group not here.
in the end we don't care grouping le
anyhow walk.
was mostly with esther, kym, foong and nut.
the 3 boys did a really cool thing today!
haha. and guess what,
david and i named our group team prudential!
haha cause his umbrella was prudential one.
lame not? haha.
i conclude that the southern ridges route is a very pretty place
after tt had senior group (which only has 5 ppl) lunch at banquet,
shopped at candy empire and it was back to church!
after tt had missions training,
which was quite fun cause had game and video.
the game should so be brought into PLH, haha.
and the video was gruesome at some parts.

oh well, enough for today.
that's the end of the mundane update!(:
bye!
I LOVE YOU!and you and you<3

2008-08-28T09:04:00.000-07:00

when the sky's overcast,
and the rain starts to fall,
accompanied by the roll of thunder,
bet me.

when the journey's too long,
and the sun beats down on your back,
and you're just too tired to press on,
bet me.

when you've lost the fight,
and you remove your crimson gear,
despondent, in need of someone to cheer,
bet me.

when the sky falls on us,
i'll be there to hold it up.
when the sun loses its heat,
i'll be there to fan the flame,
to keep you warm.

all this i do,
not for anything else,
but for the one simple reason.
you.

2008-08-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS MY SISTER'S CONCERT(:
oh my, the kids were so cute and their voices were angelic la!
reminds me of what jv used to be,
long long ago, when i was in pri 5 i think.
i miss those times(:
but anyway, the taipei choir was quite disappointing.
but my sis say they were off standard
so maybe they scared bah, den under-perform.
nan hua pri's choir is darn good!(:
okay enough nonsense from me.
some over due photos and camwhore pics with my sis.

2008-08-24T10:14:00.000-07:00

ohmygosh.
this song is painfully beautiful(:

What Hurts The Most
-Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the mostIs being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have beenAnd not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJEs1TyzL_A
super heartwrenching vid. nearly cried watching it.
but it's one of the nicest ever(:

so much to say,
but yet too little words.
so much to feel,
but yet too little emotions.
so much to do,
but yet too little energy.
and when the time comes,
all i can say is,
i'm just a little too late.

what do you say when people tear you down?
what do you do when you know your guard's down?
what do you feel when you know you're spiralling down,
when it's all back to the free fall all over again?
maybe sometimes, you just don't.
you let yourself live in the if onlys,
'cause you were too afraid to lose again.

2008-08-22T10:52:00.000-07:00

wow! i realise that my blog has a high stagnation potential.
haha, i should probably just go on hiatus soon.
anyway, i shall make this official.
I HAD A BET WITH MAG THAT I WON'T DATE BEFORE UNI
or at least until end of J2.
stake: $200 meal(:
mag, start saving up man,
i am so getting that treat from you(:

anyway, didn't go to school today.
something amusing happened this morning.
apparently i was sleep-replying my maid.

ATUN: yiying wake up
ME: don't count
ATUN: huh? eh yiying wake up
ME: haven't finish
ATUN: eh, what you talking? yiying wake up.
ME: (semi-conscious) don't want
ATUN: eh, late already. wake up!
ME: (still semi-conscious) nevermind.

oh goodness.when she told me about it
she laughed so hard that i laughed right along.
what a poke i am.haha.

and today, i went to see doctor.
cause fell during pe on thursday
fell knee first and aggravated old injury
and i was so annoyed with the doctor,
i can't wait to get out of his office.
went to the poly clinic

DOC: where were you just now?
ME: i was at home, my maid come and take number for me first
(was abt to say i was working on a project and showered first,
so to save time, common practice is my maid help me get a number first)
DOC: how can you bully your maid like this!you cannot anyhow bully people you understand.
ME: *stunned* er ya okay.
DOC: horrible you know you. okay what's wrong with you
ME: erm, knee pain
DOC: really? i saw you running in just now
(i was limping in so i dunno which eye he had saw me run in)
ME: huh? no what i didn't run in
DOC: -eyes me suspiciously- is it?nevermind. how come like this?
ME: *explains whole story*
DOC: *bend my leg* like this can?
ME: ya abit pain but can.
DOC: okay. you schooling? which school?
ME: erm ya. catholic junior college
DOC: CJC? should be easy right. first year somemore. next time don't skip school for stupid reasons like this, i don't want to write you mc, but no choice right.
ME: *tries not to explode in his face*ya okay.

ohmygosh.what is wrong with this doctor la
he got dumped by his girlfriend is it.
scold me somemore.
since when doctors have right to scold patients la
obnoxious arshlock.
he ought to be poked or smthg.
spoil my day.

oh well,
i guess life's like that.
okay. i think i've ranted enough for today.
goodbye folks! <3

2008-08-22T04:41:00.000-07:00

This poem has got to be,
one of the most beautiful poem i've read.

If a picture paints a thousand words,
then why can't I paint you?
The words would never show,
the you I've come to know...

If a face could launch a thousand ships,
then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me to...

And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me...

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you,
tomorrow and today,
beside you all the way...

If the world should stop revolving,
Spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you
when the world was through...

Then one by one
the stars would all go out...
Then you and Iwould simply fly away!

2008-08-17T09:09:00.000-07:00

THANKS GUYS FOR THE PRESENTS TODAY(:
PLH IS THE LOVE! <3>

especially ben for the chocolates(:
that was a pleasant surprise.

let's start from saturday's youth comm outing!
it was great fun! just bowling and dinner and talking.
i was third for the first game and dropped to last in the second game
haha.lost concentration due to certain reasons.
it's been ages since i last played bowling
and now, i'm addicted to bowling again! ahhh...not good.
after that we had dinner at KFC.
joke of the day!(:
tim: i keep losing weight every year
izack: huh?!then how heavy were you when you were a baby?
oh goodness.at that pt of time i laughed like there was no tml,
wonder why.haha.
after that went to my house's function room to slack arnd.
angie was doing some weird flip flip thg
haha so funny!she got stuck mid-flip initially.
but it looked scarily fun.haha
played cards
ate
listened to them play with my guitars
ate somemore
watched olympics
ate even more
WHAT A PIG RIGHT!haha.
after that angie had to go and sam not long after):
i walked angie to the bus stop
and my mum walked sam to the mrt station.
after that was....
SLEEPOVER!
i was like the only girl can!but nevermind.
it was fun!
izack bullied me!he hitted me.haha
and we all sat tgd to watch this not too bad chinese show
never really had this before(:

next day we woke up at 5.45!
aren't we disciplined nice kids?haha.
took turns to shower and attempt to wake my bro up
IZACK YOU SICK NONSENSE FELLOW!
HOW DID YOU WAKE ME BRO UP?!
MY EYES...GONE.haha
anyway after that we did morning devotion and
it was off to macdonalds for breakfast!(:
and guess what!
izack and weile drank syrup!
as in like stick the straw in the syrup and drink
ohmygosh la.i nearly died.
and izack started using a straw to prod my bro's ****
izack ah!!haha.tsk.
den it was off to church(:

AND I'M PROUD OF S'PORE!
TABLETENNIS SILVER MAN BABY(:
S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E!

to my 2queens!
thanks babes!
you have no idea how much your support meant to me
at least it pulled me through the day(:
love you both!

to you.
get out of my life already.
yesterday i felt like my blindfolds were removed
and everythg fell into perspective.
i've suspected but i've trusted
now you've wasted my tears again.
go away.
please

2008-08-15T20:52:00.000-07:00

HELLO ELOIs!
haha okay, only lit students of cjc will understand that.
anyway,
THANK YOU ERICA AND IZACK
AND NICOLE AND KRIF
FOR THE PRESENTS YESTERDAY(:
haha.it's thanks to people like these that my day was nice(:
yesterday was just like any normal day,
haha didn't feel like it was my birthday.
other than the one-after-the-other happy birthdays during hockey.
thanks babes(:

i don't know why i have a sudden random urge to do this
but i shall now dedicate part of my post to people
although i have my testimony to chiong.haha.

FBUDDY(:
hey dearie (i can practically see you cringing here)
thanks for everything.
although this year was rocky
and i made a major mistake, you are still here for me.
thanks alot.really.
you've been one of my stronger pillar of supports
ever since sec3, THE year everything came crashing down.
thank you for the shoulder to cry on, the listening ear,
the constant patience towards my annoying ways
and knowing that i can always count on you to be there for me to lean on.
THANK YOU FBUDDY!
I LOVE YOU(: and cheer up! <3

DARYL
hey dearie! my guy bestie.
although i only got to know you this year,
and though you annoy the shit out of me sometimes
(especially these days over YOUKNOWWHAT.)
but you can be really sweet and i appreciate that
i appreciate you asking if i'm okay,
i appreciate you nagging at me sometimes,
i appreciate the effort you make in making me happy (esp recently)
i appreciate even the fact that you bug me in class over retarded reasons.
'cause despite everything
I LOVE YOU (:
AND I'M GRATEFUL YOU ENTERED MY LIFE(:

JORAIN
hello dearie!
although i know you most likely won't read my blog,
i still wanna say to you here
thank you for listening to me in the mornings
thank you for helping me out with my work
thank you for letting me rant during chinese
just..THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
LOVE YOU!(:

OSMAN
hello dearie, my wonderful lover(HAHA)
you're one of the closer ones from 1t07 PAE to me,
and i'm grateful that you are in my class.
after all the shit we've been through together,
being stuck in the same situation on many counts.
thanks for all the little things you've done for me
like just ranting together during chinese,
helping me decide what to do for same issues
and running with me just to pace me and pass my 2.4
for all these and more,
i wannd THANK YOU
and just say,
I LOVE YOU (if dode was here, she would have added the word paki behindhaha)

AGGY
hey dearest!
though we don't have many chances to really talk
but thanks for being a great listening ear during those few time we have
i hope things get better for you
cause i wouldn't want to see you sad.
you're one of the nicest and greatest people i've met in cjc.
I LOVE YOU!(: *blows kisses*

DODE
hey! (if i add dearie or dearest you'll freak i know)
i only started to get to know you better recently
and i realised that you're a really cool person to hang out with
i love your comics written during lit lect,
i love your funny comebacks esp to leon,
and i love your TIRAMISU(:
you should so totally be a full time cook
anyway,
thanks for showing up on monday!
thanks for the nice songs you intro-ed to me and sent
and thanks for the other small thgs you've done for me
I LOVE YOU TOO!(pls dun cringe at this too!haha)

to the rest of 1t05, esp
JU-LI-AN(:
EGO GERALD
JACK 2
NICHOLAS we-eeellllll
MAGGY
thanks for all the memories that we have
be it just random comments made in class,
lending me your racket to hug in class,
eatig popiah with me
or holding my whole head with your hand,
THANK YOU ALL FOR THAT.(:
love you all.

HRH ERICA
hello gorgeous!
haha it's been ages since i said that
although i only knew you for like..3 months?
it feels like i've known you forever
though you always suan me,
i know you dun mean it, self entertain only. (haha)
thank you for being there when i was down,
thank you for letting me rant at you,
thank you for the morning bus rides
thank you for the late night calls
thank you for every little thing you did for me
and lastly,
thank you for the present!(:
it was seriously darn sweet and i know you put in quite alot of time and effort
thanks babe!
and,
I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP<3

JESSICA SNAIL QUEEN
hello dearie
though i only got to know you for a month or so only
thanks for everything.
from helping me smack erica
to listening to my nonsense online
haha. go out soon again kay?
LOVE YOU!(:

MY ANGEL; TIM(:
hello angel!
thank for many many things.
you've done so much for me i don't know where to start.
thank you for the support you've given to me
thank for cheering me up when i'm down
thank you for humouring me in my moments of highness
thank you for listening to everything, big or small
thank you for understanding me, even when i'm unreasonable
thank you for being my angel, catching me when i fall.
i thank you for all this and more.
hope life remains nice and good to you(:
I LOVE YOU! <3

and here's a shout out to plh-ers, esp
HANNAH
for being one of the best childhood friends anyone can ask for
who walked with me through my life
from sunday school till now.
IZACK
for being another one of the best childhood friends i can ask for,
who somehow always end up in a school near me or same as me,
and previously same group and class for camps,
and shared so many nonsensical experiences as well as enriching ones together.
DAVID AND JON
for being great childhood friends who disappeared for a few years.
who i used to play with in sunday school and
giving me alot of funny memories of you guys.
MARIE
for all being a wonderful friend.
all the times we went out and jsut talked
like the time where we just sat on the steps of dhobyghaut mrt
or the time you stayed at my house late cause of the worship ppt
MICHELLE
for being a great friend.
for the time you listened to me rant to you online about the issue,
the time in bbc and all for the concern shown
and the fun times we have
KYM
i only just got to know you better after church camp
i rmb i used to thought you hated me, haha.
thanks for all the fun and memories we have
ESTHER, BECKY AND ANGIE
i used to classify you all as the small people noisy clique of plh
but you guys are fun to be with and talk to and all
i'm glad i got to know you all better
GRACE FOONG
typical!when are you gonna come regularly ah?
must try okay? we all miss you when you dun turn up!

to all you guys,
I LOVE YOU ALL!<3
without you guys i guess my life will not be even remotely the same.
you guys are the rainbow in my life(:
(cliched i know, but tt's the only way i can express it)
GOD BLESS YOU AND YOU AND YOU!(:

2008-08-14T00:46:00.000-07:00

I SAVED MY FIRST 2 GOALS TODAY!(:
YAY YAY YAY
but i also let in my first two goals.
and got hit on the same spot 2 times.
haha what a wonderfully 2-ish day i have
hockey makes me smile(:

tomorrow my dear boyboy coming to cj!(:
i missed him loads man.
can't wait! <3

there are many things i wanna say
just so you would know how i feel.
but everything i'll hold myself back
before i say something wrong, untractable
and lose what i already have
i've been through it once
and i dun ever want it again.
but whatever it is,
i just want to say,
it's you tt i want.not anyone else.

2008-08-11T22:46:00.000-07:00

SISTER POWER(:

combine birthday pressie for our beloved maid, ATUN(:

me and my mummy(:

GIRL POWER!(:

haha, birthdays are such good camwhoring excuses.

US AGAIN(:

me yitian grandma and atun<3 href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_WB_u3GsV0hA/SKBIiQBMY7I/AAAAAAAAATM/jWQEUMZ2k1k/s1600-h/IMG_0764.JPG"> haha this so look like an award presentation cremony.

OSMAN DARYL AND ME(:

the three sunnies camwhorers of t05

aggy, dode, ossie, daryl and me(:

too bad weekie and jorain left early):

US again(:

WOW!

it's been like 685432841294835093253 lightyears since i last blogged

so much have happened since.

let's see. i shall just go through the highlights.

010808, DBS started(:

haha it was so fun can.

uncle alex and uncle nick as mentors(:

070808, met HRH and J at island creamery(:

080808, NATIONAL DAY EVE!

fun(: after school,

went to j8 with yati, banu and nicholas.

after tt met HRH and J until about 5plus?

haha crapped like super alot at the library.

and saw a super cute kid!

with nice natural spikes.haha but is a girlgirl.

after that had dinner with izack

and we went for DBS!(:

a meaningfully interesting session.

all of us took the NEL home after tt.

so cool right! all of us were NEL-ers.

haha.

090808, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

was slightly no life that day.

mugged must of the day away.

den slacked the night away(:

and of course played cards with my sis

and saw my hot guys on tv!

100808, SUNDAY

had our first ever missions training

and after tt met fbuddy for dinner!(:

so fun.it's been ages since we last went out

haha.really missed that.

after that went home and watched hockey olympics!

watched 21 as well.

110808, MINDS CAFE OUTING!(:

today was like an advanced birthday celebration

photos on top as you can see.

oh my.how absolutely embarassin it was today

haha. birthday pressie and birthday dare.

but i must admit i looked retarded on the video

with the blindfold on, how am i suppose to know it was not a worm but was a handphone strap right.

and how was i to know tt it was only a TOY lizard.

and the doggie food really did smell foul.

and all those weird concoctions. BOY, scary.

haha but the present was great.

THANKS GUYS!(:

A MIGHTY BIG THANK YOU TO

AGGY

DODE

DARYL

JORAIN

OSMAN

and the birthday dare!

gosh, how absolutely throw faceyfied indeed

going to every table to say

"HEY IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!"

AND SING MYSELF A BIRTHDAY SONG

just for a glass of wonderfully nice on the house special drink.

haha.

but oh well.all in the name of fun(:

and you still don't know that i'm not over you.you'll never know.

IN CONCLUSION...

this month has been great so far

and i am so not gonna let it be destroyed

happiness is not gonna be ripped away

cause i'm holding it tight(:

and before i sign off,

i just wanna holler to you guys,

THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING THE ONES.

I'M SURE YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

LOVE YOU DEARIES.

WITHOUT YOU GUYS, I WON'T BE THUS.

2008-08-11T09:56:00.000-07:00

haha omg
this is a very obsessable song indeed
haha totally hooked onto it now
it's old but it's really nice(:

If I let You go
Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ...
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Night after night
I hear myself sayin´
Why can´t this feeling just fade away?
There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It´s such a shame we´re worlds apart ...
I´m too shy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out

2008-07-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS THE BEST DAY OF THE WEEK(:
school was slack
there was hockey
i did not sustain much injuries
i met twinnie on the bus ride home.(:

just finished my EOM
no more history tutorials this week
which means no more history homework
which means have time to sleep!(:
tml have check up.
means can miss one hour of chinese.
tell me,
how can the week look any better?(:
and hockey is from 2 to 4pm on fri.
somebody date me out!(:
oh! and dbs is starting this fri too!!
wheee.....
just when i thought life sucked(:

I <3 EVERYONE!(:

2008-07-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

SHOPPING SPREE IS LOOVVVEEEE(:
so many things happened over the past few days
that it is best to forget them
all i can say is that i'm giving it all another shot(:
AND...i finally got my phone back(:
wheeeeeee.....thank goodness i had my once in a lifetime retail theraphy.
it worked wonders(:
i finally bought
-tops
-bag
-sheobag
-pants
-shorts
-skirt
all at one shot(:

maybe once again, i can fall in love with life.
maybe, just maybe(: though i know that there will always be an empty part of me that's with you.

2008-07-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

IT WAS RACIAL HARMONY DAY

ON THURSDAY IN CJC!(:

SO FUUUUNNNNNNNN.

NICE FOOD, NICE CLOTHES AND NO PE!

(haha, we slackers refused to change and happily ponned pe.)

aggy, rain, maggy and me(:

koped the pic from daryl.

and daryl, ITS NOT AN UGLY SHOES PIC!

i wasn't even wearing shoes.haha.

aggy, me and rain(:
colourful and prettaye!(:

utterly screwed up.

2008-07-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

OS, DARYL AND ME(:
ME,DARYL,OS,JULIAN AND DODE!(:

T05 POWER(:

PO! OS AND ME
PAE T07 POWER(:
ME, PO, MISS YAO AND OS!
ME AND LWIN!(:

today was the 34th council installation!(:
surprisingly saw cheryl lwin there.
haha so coincidental!
she was osman's PRE U SEM group mate(:
got daryl, pat, yue qun and po some stuff.
spent an hour at the candy shop!
tt shop is so cool okay! i am so going there next time
i spent like about 20+bucks there la.
haha. crazy right.
today was a remarkably good day!(:even though i was still nursing a disappointment from last night.

2008-07-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

AT THIS RATE,
I
AM
GONNA
DIE
BEFORE
THIS
TERM
EVEN
ENDS.

don't know what's wrong these days.
everybody around me is depress.
the homework is getting ridiculous
(try doing 7history essays in a week)
and my body is not co-operating with me.
goodness. SOMEBODY SAVE US.

let's see.
wednesday after hockey,
went to grab a bite after shower.
caught up with nicole(:
reached home at 10.
did a little homework and k.o-ed at 12

today had napfa and a level chi listening
best thing that happened all day was
going back to cedar and bumping into yuky(:
oh. and talking to izack before morning assembly
(gerald there is NOTHING going on between us.-.-)
and talking to yati at the grandstand.
stupid napfa.
got AAABD for 5items.
so no needa aim for gold alr.
pulled down by my standing board jump.
2.4km can just aim for 16mins

i lay my love on you
that's all i wanna do
and eveytime i breathe i feel brand new
you open up my heart
show me you're the one to walk right through
yes i lay my love on you.

if only that wasn't so.
i need to get over you.
and wish that one day,
i can sing i'm not missing you from my <3
but for now,all i can say is
I'M STILL LOVING YOU.
i'm no longer falling for you.
i've fallen.

2008-07-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

monday was tiring!
and something funny happened at dinner
NYNY at kovan heartland mall,
right daryl?(:
i shall let him tell you guys himself.

today nothing much.
wasted my time going to school.
why?
because my first proper lesson started at 12NOON!
and after that lesson was self study which = BREAK
rah.
5hours of no lessons today.
gosh, what kinda school day is it right?
the only highlight of the day,
ISLAND CREAMERY APPLE PIE AND NUTELLA ICE CREAM!

why does it hurt so much to see the unparted sea between our shores?
why does it eat me inside out to see you upset and hurting?
why does it kill me to not be able to be by your side, comforting you?
i know i myself am drowning,
but just say the word and i'll swim across,
fight the currents
just to be by your side.

2008-07-14T02:18:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS A WEIRD DAY.
it's a good and bad day.
good cause i finally patch things up with yati
i realised how stupid i was
true, we are the unlikeliest pair of best friends
but i've been stupid long enough
i need my best friend back
cause somehow, she knows me inside out
and i know she got my back.
thank goodness i cleared things up with her.
i feel like this heavy load of stone have been lifted.

bad day cause:
-i had a hangover
-i have a truckload of work
-pw is stressing me out
and some other reasons tt can't be disclosed.

BUT I DON'T CARE CAUSE I'VE FOUND REASONS TO SMILE AGAIN.
without my angel,
i would have died on countless occasions.
so, TIM GOH,
THANK YOU SO MUCH!(:
<3YOU!(:

AND AND AND
i'm sorry erica!):
foong and i don't mean to hide from you la
but really cannot say la.
don't be angry le okay?(:
I <3 YOU DEEP DEEP!(:

2008-07-12T01:47:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH
MY SISTER IS AN AH LIAN!
OMG
SOMEBODY SAVE ME
NO NO SOMEBODY SAVE HER FIRST
OMG,OMG,OMG
THIS IS RIDICULOUS.
HOW CAN MY SISTER BE AN AH LIAN?!!?

2008-07-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

this shall not be an emo post.
(:

got back my last paper today,
history.
i got a U grade,
but i was 2 marks away from a S(:
not bad la.
seeing as to how i never took history for O lvl.

but my grades are sorta bad
so, it's time to stop playing
and CHIONG(:

alright,
nothing much to blog le
so BYE WORLD FOR NOW.
I <3 YOU ALL.
DEEP DEEP.

2008-07-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

I FEEL OFFICIALLY FUBARed!
thank goodness i have mag(:
if not dunno how i'm gonna survive.
keep everything in and implode i guess.
and i promise i will try to find an alternative
cause i know you think what i have in mind now
is not helpful at all(:

PEOPLE!(:
please be nice and do my group's pw survey(:
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=NZlSfyxY_2fThB6Q4MSRK6Aw_3d_3d
i promise i would do yours too next time(:
PLEASE?
i shall say i <3 you in advance for that(:

nothing much these days.
mostly figuring out what to do in life
and figuring myself.
OH!got back results today(:
not all that bad.better than expected anyhow.
i got...
S U C E S so far.(:
the U grade is for math of course.
i mean, afterall, 70% of the level got U.
most surprised for chinese and econs.
thought i would fail but i got a C for chinese.
and for econs,
i PASSED for the first time!(:
*beams and flashes braces*
the 2 subpasses for GP and lit were surprises.
didn't expect myself to pass.
oh well.
enough about grades.
like i said in SD today,
GET A LIFE! CAUSE LIFE IS MORE THAN JUST GRADES.
(:

<3you

2008-07-09T06:43:00.000-07:00

In your life,
you will meet somebody.
that somebody would be very special indeed.
that person is horribly selfish.
that person will take away your heart.
and even after the person leaves,
that person will not give your heart back to you in full.
part of your heart would be held ransom.

and,
even after years with no contact,
that person would still be able to affect you.
you heart will beat faster,
you will flush.
you would try all you can to do somethg
but it would not work.
you know why?
cause that person was the one you still love.

i've met that person a few years ago.
and to YOU, who think its you,
i'm sorry.
this is gonna hurt,
BUT IT IS NOT YOU.

2008-07-09T02:22:00.000-07:00

random qoutes of the day:
"you can't hug a riceball,
cause it will fall apart"
"korean food is never korean,
without the kimchi."
"when you are fat,
you get more scars when you fall"

MAG!(:
i've decided to heed your advice.
after thinking long and hard,
i realised that it's the best method.
i shall head down to my cobwebbed cellar,
lock it all in a treasure chest,
off the lights, and head back up,
into the living room to whoever is there.
it's gonna be hard not to head back down,
and try and open that chest,
but i guess, i have no choice but to try.
it's better not to ruin what i already have,
den to get the truth in the open,
and live with the consequence,
especially after making that mistake once.
but i'm never gonna forget that chest,
cause afterall, there are attachments.

i'm not gonna try getting over you;
cause i know it will never work.
i'm still loving you.

2008-07-08T06:39:00.000-07:00

have you ever loved and lost somebody,
wished there was a chance to say i'm sorry.

self discovery is never easy.
we are fallible creatures
and who we are usually disgusts ourselves.
acceptance comes hard,
but living it out is harder.
sometime the question is not who you are,
but rather, should you be who you are.
that's the struggle.

Raising again from bed,
Empty heart and mind,
Going through the mindless routine,
Returning to the painted mask,
Ever longing to leave this masquerade.
Time, now or never.

mag is right,
it is time to rethink proirities again.

2008-07-07T11:07:00.000-07:00

me and tayzhiyun!(:
i look SPASTIC!
(from left) nish, adel, me and abby
this is 4I.
ACTING BOY BAND!
haha ACT boyband again.

i think we abit CMI(:

TODAY WENT OUT WITH MY BELOVED 4I'07!

sat at esplanade's roof and talked

den we went on for dinner(:

although didn't get to spend much time,

it was still great(:

i missed all you guys.

i want our monthly dinners!

I LOVE YOU BABES!

2008-07-06T09:20:00.000-07:00

today was inter-dg captain's ball!
i must say it was great,
though i was disappointed due to personal reasons.
i hope all you guys had fun!

tell me,have you ever loved and lost somebody?
i tried not to think about you for years.
finally, just when i thought i was over you,
i saw you and all the walls crashed right down.
your image was the trumpet to my jericho,
the jericho i took years to build.
i wish you didn't have the effeect on me;
cause i know deep inside,
this is all wrong.

i bought a new pair of specs today!(:
red and black.
sorry mag! same colour combi as yours
but it looked the best on me.
the rest were all too big for my face.
and my guard cost 30plus dollars!!!
OMG, daylight robbery lohs,
so little cloth, so much money.
i'm sure the velcro don't cost all that much either.
MONEY SCAMMERS!):

SUNSHINE AND LOVE BE WITH YOU;
IN RAINY DAYS I WILL BE WITH YOU<3

2008-07-06T04:12:00.000-07:00

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS
WHEN ECONS TEACHERS
FAIL TO ENGAGE THEIR STUDENTS!
haha.okay.this is bad.i know.
but i manage to understand what the teacher was saying
AND do this at the same time.
the first picture is how our notes ORIGINALLY looked like
den the next is mine, which is the last one to be vandalised,
hance it's not so cluttered state.
the third one is mag's!
which we happily doodled all over.haha.
the last photo WAS a totally blank paper.
den i wrote a story chain on it!
oh, it's mag's one too.haha.

DON'T YOU ALL LOVE LECTURES?(:

2008-07-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS BECKY'S CONCERT!
i'm sorry michelle, can't go for your carnival
overstrained my muscle yesterday during training
and woke up with aches all over my body
i'll make it up to you somehow!
i promise.
i'm sorry mag, can't mug for SATs tgd today
same reason as stated above.
tuesday after school at swirl?(:

guess what?
i am actually doing my homework on a sat afternn!
amazing or not?(:
i amze myself sometimes too.
econs essay now.
den later will be math(:
tomorrow night shall do history.
on monday shall do chinese and PW(:
if only i can stay this motivated all the time.

this is for YOU.
stop doing this to me would you?
please?
you know how painful it is for me too?
things will never be the same,
no matter what happens.
i know you are doing alot for me still.
but things like this cannot be forced.
once love's lost, it is.
nothing can bring it back.
i don't want to force it back either.
i've moved on,
and i think it is time you should.
i'm sorry.

I've tried to relight the flame,
and you, I've never placed blame.
But my heart feared a relapse,
and pain resides in my synapse.

Apologies have been made enough,
and forgiveness embraced the wrongs.
Now, I can bring myself to laugh,
and experience with love, the warmth.

You have stretched me like a tightrope,
with your stress-imposing hope.
I hope that you can see in time,
that love lost is not a crime.

So now again, i bid you well,
until you can handle this letdown.
I'm sure this is not farewell,
just for you to remove that frown.

2008-07-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

(from the top left clockwise) OSMAN(my lover), ME, AGGIE(my scandal), MAGGY (my daddy turned lover) and DARYL(my new BEST friend).

WE LOOK SPASTIC IN THIS SHOT

BUT I DON'T CARE,

CAUSE I LOVE YOU ALL THE SAME GUYS!(:

*blows flying kiss*

2008-07-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO EARTH!
pentium 102 reporting!(:
*inside name*

TODAY WAS 2ND OFFICIAL HOCKEY TRAINING!
oh my. all i can say is that my skills are ATROCIOUS!
haha. need to double up practice and fitness!
battle scars of the day:
-a bruise the size of one and a half fifty cents coin
-a burst blister
-overstrained muscles
-a fall on my side on astro turf
BUT IT WAS ALL WORTH IT BECAUSE...
I SCORED MY SECOND GOAL OF THE YEAR!
(pathetic i know, but hey! cut the beginner some slack ya?)
hockey training ended at around 6plus 7 today.
i think that's how it'll be from now on,
BUT I LOVE IT STILL!(:

in short...
HOCKEY IS (less than 3) <3!(:

2008-07-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY WAS FIRST OFFICIAL TRAINING FOR HOCKEY!(:
ONE WORD SUMS IT ALL UP. FUN!!!!!
CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW'S!

today school was retarded.
whole clique down with virus can.
was not feeling well too.
so after math lecture,
mag, daryl and i left.
and today's first period was lit.
mr kang took over ms chua!(:
i shall OFFICIALLY declare i crush him can
haha. he so cute la!
but he suaned me today! mean tcher.
i suaned him abt boy scouts den he suaned me back.
rah.

today is a horrible day.
can't wait for tomorrow to come(:
why can't you just let it go already?
dearie i know it's hard
but i can't love you no more.
so why don't you just move on and live?

2008-07-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

I WANNA KTV NOW!!!!
*WHINES*
oh my gosh.
getting high with mag and adeline
leaning against jackston and osman
screaming and shouting out songs
going crazy and eating nice tidbits
dancing with adeline
singing spastic nursery rhymes at times
SO FUUUUUNNNNNN!!(:

had my first tuition yesterday at mavis
edwin and jesslyn are there!(:
halfway through differentiation.
not bad!(: daryl and i can understand.

today was first day back to school
just like usual, 3hours of break
school ends at 5.
retarded la!!):
met nicole for gelare waffles today!
i missed you so much girl!<3

while watching tv just now,
and a line mentioned hit me.
"whether you wallk or run to the finish line,
you will still reach the finish line eventually"
when we run,
we reach the finish line sooner.
but we miss out all the beautiful view of nature.
that's why i badly want to leave singapore,
because in singapore,
slow pace will never work out.

In the silver beam of the night,
you saw joy in my eye.
But, without the aid of the light,
I managed to mask a lie.

I gave up myself,
to morph into your dream.
I'm now just an elf,
hiding behind deception's screen.

I oft so longed to ask,
if you saw me as who I am,
'cause with each new dusk,
I check into your fantastical camp.

I know this was borne of love,
but I know not how much I can take.
I long for the freedom of a dove,
so do you think this ground can be raked?

2008-06-29T09:04:00.000-07:00

suppose to be doing my history essay outlines
but after telling erica and my bro something
i somehow can't bring myself to do history just yet
thank you erica, your support meant alot.
and yiren, don't be traumatised ya?
i've been thinking alot recently
especially the past 2 years till now
i miss the past. but who i am now hates who i was.
anyway, enough talk.
this are just some pictures from last time till now.
(:

THE debaters' 07
THE AWESOME BATCH OF 2007
ELDDS <3
ELDDS CAMP.

AREN'T THE BOYS ADORABLE?(: ON A CRUISE.
COMPARE MY BRO AND I NOW AND LAST TIME?
LAST NEW YEAR.
PEOPLE CHANGE REMARKABLY NO?

RACIAL HARMONY DAY.

WITH THE ELDDS JUNIORS(:

THE LANE I WALK OH SO OFT.
THIS MARKED THE END.
EUROPE!
PRETTY SWISS ICECREAM(:
THE BOTTOM PICTURE!
COMPARE WITH THE PICTURES ABOVE!
DRASTIC CHANGE IN LOOKS.

MY HOCKEY KAKIS(:

I LOVE YOU BOTH!!(:

MAG, RAIN AND I!(:
GIRL POWER YO!
DADDY AND I(:
SMILE,
CAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS.
MY LOVES!(:
you near ruined my life,
and you didn't know it.
well, enough thinking i guess.
back to history.
glasnost and perestroika, here i come!

2008-06-29T06:43:00.000-07:00

okay(: i shall blog about the past few days.
starting with FRIDAY.
that day was A LEVEL CHINESE ORAL DAY!
woke up late and lazed in bed
after that took my time to go to school
reached school at 2pm feeling a little nervous
and the teachers were really nice
made us wait in nervous suspense till2.30 before letting us in
usualy oral procedure(:
OH! I MUST SO BLOG ABOUT THIS.
DARYL SPOTTED THE EXACT SAME QUESTION THAT CAME OUT!
HE IS A GENIUS I TELL YOU!(:
haha. okay so anyway, after that went home and prepared
at around 7plus went over to IZACK's house
had a WONDERFULLY YUMMY dinner
cooked by UNCLE JACK and AUNTY WILMA!(:
had pasta and chipolatas and chicken and salad(:
den we bonded in IZACK's room.
oh and we met xiao qiang on the way.
we screamed our way up.haha.
and we just stayed there talking and laughing till it was 12mn
FUN!(:
just hannah, grace, izack, marie, esean, jeremy, my sis and i.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!<3

SATURDAY
woke up reasonably early and went to church!(:
couldn't crash band prac so erica tim and i went up to MPH
den david, jon, izack and michelle goh joined us
so we were just playing around with songs we knew
played drums and bass guitar.
I SO NEED TO WORK ON MY BASS!
haha for now really cannot make it la.
den we went for a quick lunch before going for
WORSHIP WORKSHOP!
learnt quite alot. decided to try self learning guitar
so that my band prac can be faster
so it's drums and bass and guit IN PROCESS!(:
after that rushed down to cine to meet my LOVES(:
mag, jack2, osman and jorain.
too bad daryl couldn't make it.
watch DON'T MESS WITH ZOHAN!
haha.super funny.
after that had to rush home. WHY?
because sunday have to wake up super early.

SUNDAY
today is YOUTH SUNDAY!
reached church at 7.30am
earliest record la! other den during camps la
wore the yellow PLH shirts to church.
not bad la but it is M!
should have gotten XS la.so BIG!
ushered at the 8.45 service.
sharing was by ARIEL!(:
so proud of her. WELL DONE!
after that had lunch with my family
and it was lalaland for me(:today is by far one of the most disappointing days.

ALL THE BEST MICHELLE CHIA FOR TML!
YOU CAN DO IT!
I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU(:

2008-06-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS LAST DAY OF EXAMS!
CHINESE IS LOST CAUSE,
MATH CAN GET S I HAPPY LE.
BUT IT'S OVER. YIPEEE!

after i finally stopped snoozing my alarm
and get my heavy butt oof the bed and into the toilet,
i showered and got ready to meet osman, daryl and mag for breakfast.
osman was actually EARLY!
amazing much?
so we happily went to somerset.
since we were extra early,
we decided to walk.
on the way ro lido's macs, guess what?
MAG SAID SHE FORGOT HER DICTIONARY!
omg.haha so she went back to take.
and when we reach macs, daryl msged.
HE WAS STILL AT HOME!!
so me and osman were happily eating while waiting for them.
after that chiong to school for CHINESE PAPER!

after chinese met jack jack and we went kovan!
me mag daryl and jackjack
went to enrol for tuition
next monday officially start tuition!
me and daryl are gonna PASS math.

nothing interesting today
but fun cause i finally got to spend time with mag, jack2, daryl and osman!(:
I LOVE YOU GUYS!(:
<3 style="font-size:78%;">i need someone to explain this vacuum in my heart away

2008-06-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOODNESS CAN!
THIS IS THE FUNNIEST CONVER I HAD ALL DAY
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME LAUGH JON!
I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS A MINI FLIRT LAST TIME
ENJOY THE CONVER
btw, purple is what jon said, orange is yours truly(:

when we were young
can u rmb u said u will marry me when we grow big?
wahahahah
haha is it?
since when?\
aiya u forget ah haha
when we damn young la
still in sunday sch hahaha
after one sunday we playing in a room
at lvl 2
then i ask u
hey yiying grow big i marry u ok then u say ok! hahaha
haha really
i cannot rmb lehs
hahaha
why tt time you randomly ask
david oso cun rmb
haha hw i noe
so young wad
i think dunno wad we playing family game bah haha
haha is it?
think so
since when we play tt kinda games in church sia
haha
so funny!
haha
ya la
of course u dunno cauz tat time still damn young
i can rmb ur hair tat time lor haha
haha
joke la
hahaha yea
haha why you suddenly rmb
omg so funny la
i shall blog abt it
LOLZ! u wan blog then blog about it lor haha
i think u oso promise david lor
i rmb he ask u
u say ok
then i ask other gers
they say no
so i ask u lor
then u say ok haha
haha is it?
omg
tsk.i didn't know i small tt time so flirt sia
haha say yes to how many guys
haha nt flirt la
i think its blur haha
haha ya must be
at least only you 2
if i also say yes to izack i pang la
peng*
hahahaha
oh my
i cannot stop laughing can
so funny
maybe last time i mixed you both up la
hahahaha
den i thought you both the same den say yes to both lohs
come to think of it now its damn cute la haha
haha ya.imagine one small girl and 2 small boys promising to get married next time
haha
lyk so young so blur then promise ppl u marry them haha
haha ya lohs

THAT WAS THE END OF OUR SHORT AND INTERESTING CONVER.
HOPE YOU LAUGHED AS HARD AS I DID
THAT'S ALL FOLKS!(:

2008-06-25T04:08:00.000-07:00

FOR LIMEI(:
THIS IS YOUR PROMISED DEDICATED POST FOR YOU
SORRY IT'S SO BELATED.
CAUGHT UP WITH EXAMS.
I MISS YOU!!<3
ISLAND CREAMERY SOON YA?
WITH EVA OF COURSE.
I HAD GREAT FUN IN ASEAN SUMMIT THANKS TO YOU!
I'LL PLAN THE COUNCIL OUTING SOON(:
LOVE YOU BABE!

2008-06-25T03:11:00.000-07:00

OH YAH BABY!
MATH IS OVEEEEERRRRR!
I THINK I'M SO HAPPY I CAN HUG EVERYONE NOWeveryone but YOU of course.
I HOPE I GET A SUBPASS.
(:

today went out for lunch with izack and marie
oh my, just realised how long ago i was when i last went out with them
i miss them all loads can):
this sunday after church(:
tentatively,
saturday is movie (don't mess with ZOHAN!) with mag they all
sunday is YOUTH SUNDAY!
monday KTV(:
tuesday it's BACK TO SCHOOL LIFE(:

i was bored so i decided to have a laugh
went to love calculator and put with my loves(:
and the website is so scammer la!
i have prove,
look at erica's results
here are the results:
me and erica:19%
me and erica leong: 77%
me and erica leong en rui: 91%
what on earth can.stupid website
now for the rest of the results:
me and tim goh:72%
me and becky:67%
me and kym:64%
me and esther:68%
me and angie: 33%
me and izack:20%
me and marie: 64%
me and michelle goh: 87%
me and michelle chia: 56%
me and david chien: 56%
me and jon chien: 54%
me and daryl: 46%
me and mag:91% (OMG CAN?!HAHA MAG!DESTINED SEH.BOY SHOPPING DUN WORK DEN HAVE ALTERNATIVE LE!HAHA)
me and osman: 42%
me and jack jack: 42%
me and nic: 65%
me and aggie: 23%
me and jorain:41%

oh my. i must be bored out of my skin.
haha.joke la some of the results.
okay, now for the results of some online quiz!(:

WHAT SAYING ARE YOU
Genius is 1% inspiration, 99% perspiration
You are confident, friendly and always willing to give everything a try.
You always try your best at everything.
You make the most of opportunities and
no matter how low the chances of success may be, you give it a go.
You are not one to give up.
You may really suck at something but you're not gonna let that stop you.
So many people cave in at the first sign of trouble and they quit.
But you always find a way to work through the barriers and grab the keys of success!

WHAT KIND OF SANDWICH ARE YOU
grilled cheese sandwich!
You are a grilled cheese sandwich, congratulations.
You are either hated or loved by most people,
and your life revolves around your beliefs, religious or not.
You are a generally happy person,
although you are known to doubt people and others find it hard to gain your trust.
Like a grilled cheese sandwich, you are liked by a large amount of people,
and are accepted by peers, once they get to know you.

WHAT LUCKY CHARM ARE YOU
Your lucky charm is a four leafed clover.
You are clever and logical and can be very determined.
You know exactly what you want and how to get it.

random things today:
-lychees are bad for your eyes(from jack2)
-green polka dots roam everywhere (from erica)
-adam and eve could have been hot (from tim)
-it is possible to lose 80marks for jc math( from izack; abt his friend)
-writing fail all over your paper wastes alot of time in exam (from osman)
-HORRID JONAS BROTHERS RIP OFF BUSTED'S SONGS!!*fumes* (from youtube)

2008-06-23T20:58:00.000-07:00

me and bymberly kok!(:
me and HRH erica.(:

TOMORROW IS MATH MID YEARS.

AFTER THAT WOULD BE H1CL PAPER.

AND AFTER THAT...

I'M FINALLY FREE!!!(:

I should be happy

I should feel relieved

I should be looking forward to what i can do after

I should really be smiling.

so why am i not?

why does it feel like i'm back to my old self?

why do i suddenly feel like i'm losing focus in life again?

i don't want to feel like a robot. but yet, somehow that's all i can say of myself.

disappointing much.

((: I AM THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.

NO EXAMS SOON, GOD IN MY LIFE, I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED.

I MUST LEARN HOW TO BE GRATEFUL.

YES I DO(:

2008-06-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

ASEAN summit was a blast!
it was way better than what i expected
though i had lesser time to study for my mid yrs,
it was all worth it.
the friends i made, the things i learnt, the experience gained. (:
here are some of the pics!
more to come.(:

sherrie and i(: CJC kicks butt!
TAIWAN delegate, stephanie!cute no?
Gavin and I(: CJC and VJC.
oops, photo inverted. LIMEI and I(:
NYJC and CJC! suanable YiDa and me.(:
LIMEI and I again!(: <3
TJC and CJC power YO!
KOREAN DELEGATES! super pro. zai-ness man.(:
DHS, CJC, ACJC!(:
half of the ASEAN ENV. COUNCIL! we kick butt YO!(:

miss you guys already.

council outing soon okay guys?

update on facebook ya(:

2008-06-22T04:41:00.000-07:00

OKAY DARYL AND MAG(:
I'VE FINALLY DECIDED TO DO THIS THG LE
SO CANNOT SAY I'M HORRIBLE LE.
AND JUST TO QOUTED MAG
"But Yings can be sexy too... Just that I can't imagine her in a Playboy bunny suit, sorry."
DON'T WORRY!HAHA NEITHER CAN I IMAGINE MYSELF
THOUGH MY SISTER SAYS SHE CAN -.-'"
OKAY HERE GOES!

List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:

1. IPOD TOUCH!
2. MORE SUNGLASSES( THANKS DARYL FOR THE ONE YOU BOUGHT IN HK BTW!(:<3)>
3. MORE TIME IN A DAY
4.LESS WHITE-HAIR-SPROUTING TENDENCIES -.-
5. I'M HAPPY AND CONTENTED AND CAN'T THINK OF MORE.

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who last tagged you is...
Daryl Chee and Maggy daddy!

2. Your relationship with him/her is...
let's ans one by one shall we? daryl is my classmate, wonderful new bestfriend(by application, haha) and same clique. mag is another classmate i can't survive without and also same clique!(:

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her.
hmmm. daryl: nice, caring, vain, bitchy, ONE OF THE BEST GUY FRIEND ANYONE CAN ASK FOR. mag: smart, nice, bo chap, expressive, AND I LOVE HER MORE THAN YOU KNOW(:

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
DARYL: he did alot of stuff for me that's all super sweet lehs.haha.lazy to list
MAG: she also did alot la!

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you
daryl and mag ah...said alot of stuff also.haha lazy to list.

6. If he/shebecomes your lover, you will..
haha my mum will be happy and i'll freak out and die.(:as for mag...I DON'T GO THAT WAY LA!(: unless our boy-shopping renders useless, den...haha.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she should improve on will
daryl: look around before bitching, if he wants to
mag: become a guy!
but this makes no sense cause osman is my lover!

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
I WILL JUST SO TOTALLY DIE CAN! THE 2 OF THEM ARE DEAD PRECIOUS TO ME.

9. If he/she becomes you enemy, the reason will be...
I WENT CRAZY AND LASH OUT ON THEM?

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is...
hmmm...well that depends on what they want me to do for them. eh!daryl and mag, what you want me to o for you ah?(:

11. Your overall impression of him/her is...
haha. they are both wonderful(:

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
i'm stupid, annoying and ugly. but it's okay cause, I KNOW GOD LOVES ME!(:

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are.
I CAN GET HIGH JUST LIKE THAT. I BOUNCE BACK RELATIVELY EASILY.I USUALLY AM DARN TIGHT WITH SECRETS.

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are..
LAZY.ANNOYINGLY TALKATIVE.SHORT AND FAT.

15. The msot ideal person you want to be is...
I AGREE WITH MAG!ALESSANDRA AMBROSIO. SHE IS HOT.

16. For people that care are like you, say something to them
HUH?WHAT TALKING YOU LA. DUN UNDERSTAND CAN.

17. (pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
(random)
1.ERICA 2.KYM 3.ESTHER 4.ANGIE 5.TIM GOH 6.MARIE 7.DAVID 8.JON 9.IZACK 10.MICHELLE (becky why no blog la): i wanted you to do it can!)

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?
haha LOLLIPOPS!

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
haha.he is male with a 50% female mind(:

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
haha NO! michelle and david?! a bit weird la can.and michelle will get killed by someone.

21. How about no.8 and 5?
haha. NO! unless they are gay which i HIGHLY DOUBT SO!

22. What is no.2 studying?
erm...normal sec sch subjects? she sec1 lehs.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
today in church! like around 11 to 11 plus ba.

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
haha nice music ba.no praticular ones?not sure lehs. EH! jon, what songs you like ah?

25. Does no.1 has any siblings?
yup! tim leong, plus everly and her bro.haha dunno the name. OMG I CRUSH EVERLY CAN!SO CUTE!

26. Will you woo no.3?
well, she is my MEI!i not really into incest can.haha

27. How about no.7?
haha nope!i still wanna live can.

28. Is no.4 single?
Yup.

30. What is the hobby of no.4?
hobby i not sure la, but i know she loves her softball until injure her own hand.haha.with her glove thgy.JOKE LA SCANDAL!

31. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
Yeah they do.YOUTH COMM MA(:

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
PLMGS

33. Say something casually about no.1
I LOVE HER! MY LAOPO WHO DEMOTED ME TO A WIMPY KING -.-

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
haha NO! jon not my type la. no offence jon(:

35. Where does no.9 live at?
SERANGOON

36. What colour does no.4 like?
hmmm...i dunno lehs.omg i dunno my scandal's fav colour!):

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
i don't think so bah. LAOPO, do you talk much to my ANGEL?(:

38. Does no.7 likes no.2?
haha nope! no 7. likes someone else la(: brain dead!

39. How do you get to know no.2?
haha, her mum is my mum's good friend, our parents same cell, and she's in plh, and she's my boyfriend. the many reasons why i know her and I LOVE HER.

40. Does no.1 have any pets?
haha she treats everly like her pet lohs.

41. Is no.7 the sexiest girl in the world?
haha!CINDERELLA'S STEPSISTER! ya la.super hot can.

42. Do you think its possible if no.4 and no.5 date each other?
hmmm...don't know man. but i'm selfish! i want both MY ANGEL AND SCANDAL.MINE!(:

43. Say something more about no.6
I LOVE MARIE! i miss you girl! go out soon ya?

44. what is your relationship with no.9
haha.i grew up with him and known him for 16yrs.same sch now.used to be in neighbouring schools.had a short period of horrible rumours in plh time.long history la(:

45. List all the schools that no.1 to no.10 are in and originally from.
ERICA: st margs all the way
KYM: PL pri, PLMGS
ESTHER: SHPS, TKSS
ANGIE: MGS
TIM: ACSI
MARIE: SCGS, KCPS
DAVID: huayi sec is it?, singapore poly
JON: yuhua sec is it?, singapore poly
IZACK: maris stella, CJC!(:
MICHELLE: HPPS (i think), FMSS

46. What would you do if no.10 hates you?
i don't think i can live with that. MICHELLE, will you ever hate me?):

47. Which of the following are in a relationship?
surprisingly none!unless you count our incest family relations.haha.

48. How did you first met no.3?
CHURCH!

49. How would you react if no.3 and no.10 are together?
hmmm, i doubt micheel and esther will go that way.haha,

50. Last question! What would you do if no.4 tells you she is pregnant.
HAHA! i'll laugh cause confirm is joke la can. uncle jack will kill her too!

2008-06-13T02:59:00.000-07:00

i just realised this when kym told me.
today is FRIDAY THE 13TH!!
okay. i shall blog abt ysd and today in 1 entry
first of all, YESTERDAY(:
amk hub with grace, erica and kym
for details, go erica's blog!
after that met michelle for her birthday
SWENSONS!!
who was there?
marie, kara,david,michelle,huixian,ruby,kurt,jon,izack,hannah and michelle chia
affter eating, we bought michelle a...
COOKIES AND CREAM ICE CREAM CAKE!

as for today,
nothing much other den extracting my tooth and putting in seperators.
okay. time to mug.
shall let the pictures talk.
signing off!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICH!(:
me and my GORGEOUS boyfriend!(:
me and my GORGEOUS laopo(:
the BALLS family kick butt yo!
my oh my.won't you boys just love to be in my place?(:
LOVE!(:

2008-06-11T07:43:00.000-07:00

god-sis girls night out!(:
HELLO gorgeous!(: you there?
princesses of GOD
the hand of LOVE(:

i'm so happy we finally got to sleepover
missed you loads(:
jiayou with your mugging!
it was great fun cam whoring/mugging/watching ps i love you with you!(:
i love you deep deep!(:

2008-06-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

HELLO GORGEOUS!(:
oh man. church camp was a blast!
loved it(:
i was in tigger! the orange group.
woohoohoohoo..
bouncing gives you the confidence you need.
the wonderful thing abt tigger(:
alright. let's go day by day
day 1.
let's start with the morning.
met esther and went to get stuff for tigger(:
so we went for breakfast and got down to work.
must say we did a great job
haha *beaming with ego*
anyway after tt i learnt a song on piano
and photocopied chords for worship X
den it was time to board the coach!
i simply love our coach la.
coach 4 rocks!
esther.becky.angie.tim goh.tim leong.erica.the twins.huixian.
sharilyn.michelle goh.chris.ben.weile.thad.kara.sam.
plh coach!(:
werewolf. taidi. talking. ink ball. bonding. eating.
time flew by and soon it was the resort looming infront of us.
fter dinner, we had our first talk by rev. dr. chris chia
it was God's leaders: blessing or burden?
the one on divisions within the church.
den it was PLH ORIENTATION!
got our angel and mortal, grp ice breaking and all.
haha.COINCIDENCE OF THE YEAR;
I-Zack was both my angel and my mortal!
den it was time to party(:
went over to 855.
it was THE room. haha.

day 2.
after morning devotion (which i was late by 5mins)
it was breakfast, break and talk.
the talk was God's temple 1: Sex in the city
ALL THINGS ARE PERMISSIBLE,
BUT NOT ALL THINGS ARE BENEFICIAL!
den it was time for buzz grp.
my grp is taken by uncle jack and candice.
and i have to confess
i fell asleep during prayer.
sorry GOD.):
after that is lunch and grp time before....
BEACH GAMES!

my gorgeous group(:

the winning team was sunshine
it was so fun! especially prep.
the hiding of the equipments,
the decoy map,
and of course, beach wrestling!(:
den after tt was clean up and eat up.
talk again after that.
God's temple 2: Marriage vs singlenss
den it was grp time!(:
discussed our grp skit.
i must say the process is a whole lot funner den the perf.

day 3
same old, devotion and breakfast first.
than it was the talk, talk 4
God's people: Rich vs poor
this was the talk where the division of the church was brought up
after tt was buzz group, lunch and...
SHOPPING!
had a great time with my family.
bought a liverpool notebook for izack
heels, wallet and badges for myself
a bag for my sis and lollies for the twins which got lost.
den it was dinner at a place so far we died walking.
the food was okay i guess,
so dunno why we had to go all the way there for dinner.
after dinner bought gum and nail polish!(:
den it's back to the hotel for another night of group skit rehearsals and fun!(:
i love room 855!(:

day 4(:
this is THE day.
fiesta AND worship X(:
the talk of the day was talk 5 and 6
God's love: the greatest of these
where love being the ultimate supremacy was touched on
and God's gifts: spiritual gifts in God's church
and the statement of christians without love being a total contradiction hit me

prep for worship X!

855 worshippers(:

of course, what can we do without them?(:

for the worship X and fiesta...it was a blast!
fiesta was a time full of fun and laughter.

alot of cross dressing, bad we know.

uncle peter talked to us about it after.

Izack's peterpan got first skit.

it is really good i must say.(:
as for worship X, the pics above doesn't say much
cause worship X was a blast!(:
totally awesome.
after tt was room 855 again which i crashed tt night.
second night crashing tt room.
sis had the kids over to sleep in my room, no space.
we talked until 5plus and had SUPERD bonding.
what a GORGEOUS end to the camp.
american pie and werewolve YO!(:

day 5
it is the last day of camp):
no devotion as they all knew we were gonna stay up late.
so it was the last talk, talk 7
God's answer: the glorious gospel
which on the main issues of the gospel and where we would be without it.
after this was pack up, lunch and the journey home.
the journey back was just as fun as the journey there and before long,
lo and behold, we were back in church.
took a taxi home with my family and had macs for dinner.

and so here we are now,
all suffering from camp withdrawal symptoms
missing camp so bad we can curl up and cry.
can't wait for saturday to come.
band prac and narnia!(:

before i end off about church camp,
i wanna have the hall of thanks(:
to 855 roomies:
-erica: got to know you so much better this camp and my dear lao po, I LOVE YOU!(:
-kym: boyfriend!(: got to bond more this camp. we so needa bond more!<3 love you deep deep!
-grace: lao gong!haha.dun always pon church okay dearie(: seeya arnd in plh more!!<3
-esther: my one and only mei! tigger bounces so high we kick arse no?(: <3you
-becks: my number 1 scandal!!what can i say? i love my number scandal deep deep!
-angie: my dear scandal!(:i assure you i love you no less den becks!seeya on sat(: love you!

to my dear 839 roomie:
-michelle: heylo! i got you hooked on gossip girls and tt is my first good mistake(: enjoy the show!<3
-marie: hello busy man...star!haha. didn't get to talk much this yr's camp but rmb i love you too!
-liesl: woohoo!my dear fellow leo of '91! never roomed with you before.it was cool(:<3
-sam: tudi! first time rooming with you too.thanks for all the help with stuff man,really appreciate it!<3
-yitian: this is retarded.you're my sis.you dun even read my blog.haha.

youth comm members:
-hannah: YO! WASSUP! haha.though you only came halfway i hope you enjoyed the camp! love you babe!
-izack: HELLO angel AND mortal! the camp was great! well done(: i'm sure you agree we all deserve a pat on the back no?(: well done PETER PAN.
-tim: hey!(: don't woory, i know. nothing personal with the beach attack.haha. love you angel(:
-grace: hey! don't worry.i told joe to rmb the landyards. great work with the name tags and all(: WENDY all the way!woo!
-weile: hello cousin! bouncing gives you the confidence you need man!(: no giant mutant talking rabbit(:
-wengshian: didn't talk much to you but hey! great dressy outfit(:
-yiren: you're my bro and you make a good prince(:

TIGGER:
WOOHOOHOOHOO!
bouncing gives you the confidence you need!
the kins family rock on!
well done group(:
joe, great leading!
and wimpy husband, you're not tt bad(:
mad hatter, nice hats and dictionary you have(:

as for the rest,
THE CAMP WAS A SUCCESS BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU!
love plh deep deep!(:

2008-06-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

one word.
OUCH.
didn't know it would this painful after extracting
when the jab wear off it hurts like ****
thank goodness for painkillers
i've been blotting blood for an hour already!
and it's still not stopping.
can't even drink water
still a little numb.
feel like some kid la.

anyway,
holiday schedule(:
030608: school + granny hse
040608: esther's house!
05-090608: church camp!
10-110608: twinnie sleepover!
130608: tooth extraction+seperators
150608:band up
16-180608: ASEAN plus summit!
200608 onwards: MID YEARS!):

alright,
off writing position papers!

2008-05-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

HOW DARE my sis's friend's dad say my sis is ill-bred?
just because of some miscommunications
and it is said tt my sis was eating breakfast
whne she was actually at the clinic.
so when she was late in meeting them she got scolded.
first of all, what right does he have to say my sister is ill-bred,
even granted it was a lie instead of a miscommunication?
does he dare say he has never told a lie before?
does he dare say his daugther has never told a lie before?
doesn't tt mean tt he is ill-bred too?
doesn't it mean tt he can't teach his daughter well too and tt she is ill-bred?
secondly, does he have any right in being so agressive to his daugther's friend?
i'm fuming mad.
i can totally understand my mum's anger
i know this is not godly but i can't help wanting to say all this to tt stupid man's face

what i can't stand the most is adults thinking they have all the right in the world over kids or teenagers.
does it make them feel good?
tt power they have over a defenseless person?
is it the power that they exalt in?
all i can say about those people is this;
power over the defenseless isn't power, it is a display of cowardice.
if ranting makes you feel better, rant.
if there a anything that you can do to get over it, do it.
don't take it out a someone who has no ability to fight back.
this makes you worse than people who run away from it.

teenagers and kids are getting increasingly educated.
sometimes what they say actually make sense,
ever thought of that?
so why is it that their ideas are never feasible enough?
why is it that they are never matured enough?
why ever bother asking them for their opinions in the first place if you're not going to take it? there are so many questions i want to ask.
but no answers will be given.
because ultimately, we all know that,
there are no fixed answers.

anger does no good,
and after writing all these out,
i feel a whole lot calmer.
and you may think that i'm horrible for writing all these,
but at least i do not attack the weak,
and i do not pretend to be who i am not.
i do not hide behind my position,
and show the way people wants to see me.
i am who i am, and not an actor.
the world's a stage,
and every man's a player,
but not everyone hides behind a mask.

2008-05-29T05:38:00.000-07:00

ALRIGHT!
project revival for my blog has began.
haha not exactly the right time
since there are still mid yrs and pw and a lvl chi oral uncleared.
but oh well, i should stop procastinating ya?(:
anyway.
just came back from PULAU UBIN for PW!
the success of this trip is thanks to my MUMMY(:
and of course the group.
the trip was fun though tiring.
i shall now let the photos do the talking(:

HELLO(:
yummy!(:
ready, set, GO!
i'm chopping firewood!

i'm strong.really.

i just need more time.

i think.

no evil(:
see, touch, say, smell, hear!

2008-03-04T05:17:00.000-08:00

PLH SPORTS GAMES DAY IS THIS SAT!!
EASTER RETREAT IN 2WEEKS!
MUSICAL:THIEF OF ALWAYS NEXT WEEK!!((:
how excitingly fun.

yesterday went out with 1t05
actually it was less den half the class
swang,gerald,wee kie, mag and yati!
we went to kfc and shared a family meal!
and while we were happily eating our food...
a PIGEON FLEW IN!!
how absolutely embarassingly i screamed
but it was right beside me!!
gosh, how traumatising.
do you know pigeons' poo cause brain damage?
that's what i was told by yati and nicole.
tt was why i screamed. ya.

today went out with rachel
sinful indulgence all day
gelare waffle, yami yogurt and billy bomber's banana shake
and i got THE present for YOU alr((:
happy day indeed.

oh well...now the only possible event to
unnerve,
upset,
scare,
confuse,
headache-fy me is....
KI RESULTS!!
results,results, where art thou?
how much thy long for thee.

alright((:
enough for now.
bye!((:

2008-02-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

how exciting!!((:
PLH sports/games day and easter retreat is coming up((:
youth comm will have our work cut out for us
but hey!it's worth it((:

didn't go school today
haha, went to see doc
said it was due to lack of sleep and anxiety and overexhaustion
oh well, today finally got some rest((:

why do i feel like crying
i thought this would all be fine
but maybe not.
i'm no dirt.don't want to be treated like i am.

tomorrow is posting results!!
yay!i know i'll stay in cjc((:

2008-02-16T01:23:00.000-08:00

anger and me!((:
cedarians of cjc's vday dinner at far east!

anger, jenny,yati,nat,zhiyun,me

(clockwise from left front)

zhiyun and me((:cedarians in cjc's foyer!

*sings*you put your left/right foot in...

wow!strong much? ((:
my turn!strong too, no?((:
now what did i do again?
anger me zhiyun((:

those were pics taken on vday!!
haha cedarians trying to keep the tradition alive and burning.
i recieved 2 roses!((:
thanks to charmian and anger&jenny
and lots of chocolate sweets and cookies from nat!
and of course nigel's rocher flower and natalina's wooden flower
oh and zhiyun's pretty flower pen((:

A VDAY special from GOD:

For God so loV ed the world,
That He gA ve
his onL y
BegottE n
SoN
T hat whosoever
Believeth I n Him
Should N ot perish,
But have E verlasting life."

John 3:16

HAPPY BELATED VDAY ONE AND ALL!((:

2008-02-06T02:07:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
XIN NIAN QUI LE!

today's cny items are really good!
i loved them.
goodness had no idea cny was this fun in cjc.
the ODAC's item was super cute and funny.
and nat! well done with your acting((: kudos.

went to plaza sing after tt for lunch with nicole
and bumped into so many cedarians!
it's super cool.
like an unintended reunion.

jc life so far has been tiring but fun.
i don't want 1t07 to break up!)):
but sadly all good thgs have to end.
i'll miss the 3 of them going to acjc.

i thank GOD for giving me my o lvl grade.
i thank GOD for answering my prayer and pointing me to where he wants me to go using my results.
the answer is clear and obvious.
i'm staying in cjc. where the env is like cedar.
warm and welcoming, just like a family((:

2008-02-01T05:46:00.000-08:00

I LOVE CJC((:
everything from the culture, the people and the environment.
it just captured me like a bird la.
i love my class.hope can stay tgd.
most of us staying i think.
i'll miss debra and kelvyn and ilona.
so sad!
*sings* why'd you go?i'll miss you so.
no more jason liew immitation
no more guitar playing from deb
and no more blur comments from ilona

sadness aside...
I LOVE HOCKEY((:
who knew i would love a sport.
haha
suppose to find a tennis coach
but still have not found one.
michelle's gonna kill me.
and cjc pe is set to kill!
haha oh well.bright side,
FREE BODY TONING!

next tues my class coming over to my hse to prepare cny potluck food!
so fun((:
classes in jc is so much better den sec sch la
i love sch((:
let's all be nerds!

okay okay,
i think i'm high.
signing off,
ME((:

2008-01-12T00:39:00.000-08:00

after a million years of none blogging,
i am finally back.
cjc orientation is super fun!!
despite the rashes.
i was posted to ig12 and there were like 34 igs i think
and that was where i got to knownice people!
i miss ig 12 alot)):
but nevermind, i like 1t07 too!!
that's my class by the way
i'm in the same class as yati!!((:
took econs math lit and hist
i love my subjects!!
i sound like a nerd but nvm((:
my class is on level 5 though.
so tiring la, every morning needa climb up and down

my class has like 2 super tall guys.
osman is like 186cm and kelvyn is 184cm.
super tall can!!
haha oh and dragon boating was super fun
that was one of the orientation activites.
loved it the most.
after all the mud and soap and water
i guess lessons will seem kinda dull
but oh well, at least my subjects are fun!
and the notes i have to read now is scary.
haha.
okay, back to nationalism of SEA((:
bye!!